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2012-02-11T17:06:00.002+02:00

Finally, its over.

yeah yeah yeah

the most serabut study leave ive ever had.

dengan timing tak cukup

dengan module yang berat tak hengat dunia bagus university pergi gabung 2 module sekali :O

dengan study leave seminggu nak habiskan buku 500 ++ dengan practical exam yang banyak nak mampus.

siapa kata cns paling susah? haha

but anyway its good that its over :P and i hope the next sem isnt as hard as this one.

hehe and eh? dah habis exam lah. terujaaa

result tu tak payah cakap lah. jawab pun entah lah. tak bagus manaa pun tak boleh laa nak expect apa apa tapi aku nak lulus pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;(

ok dah

oh malaysia, sila tunggu aku lagi 2 hari. sekian

kthxbai

cerita cikgu embryology

2012-01-22T15:12:00.006+02:00

and so our embryology professor, who is also the head of department of anatomy for whole Egypt gave us a lecture about the embryology of external genitalia. and after the lecture he told us something very interesting indeed.

"i woke up until 2 am thinking about this case."

so he said as he told us about a man, who is 25 years old, well he has the male external genitalia, a penis but stretched to the base with no testis. and spent his life living as a male. he went to see the doctor and the doctor found out that he actually has the female reproductive organs; the uterus, ovary, fallopian tube etc. He's enganged, he's about to get married and he insists that he wants to be a male and still wants to get married.

and it got us :O

and another one he told us about a woman, a true one. she was married, she gave birth to her child, she lactated her child. then she divorced and suddenly went to the doctor claiming that she is a male. and she wants to be a male.

and another little girl, who is 10 years old, been living as a girl because she has the female genital organ, but she doesnt have the vaginal opening. after some investigations, the doctor found out that she does not have the female reproductive organ. and her karyotype is 23+XY. male karyosome and there's some swelling at the lower part because there are 2 testis hidden there due to incomplete descend of testis (cryptorchidism) , there's no way to bring the testis out there's still no method for the surgery. finally the doctor decided that she should continue as a girl because either way she would be sterile and she's been living as a female anyway.

to know that these kind of things happen a lot do amaze me. and it's not easy to decide what to do with a baby with anomalies of the exernal genitalia. and if the doctor is ignorant enough, he'll just leave the patient be and some years later. that girl or boy, because of the mistake of the doctor will suffer a lot, as he might be raised as a girl just to found out many years later that he is actually a male and vice versa and this happens a lot :O

to think that how could he faces his family, when all throughout his life, he's been treated as a girl, being called a sister, raised as a girl, suddenly found out that he's actually a male. it is unthinkable.

and there;s even a child who changes his sexuality and identification several times because of the anomalies.

and its not a simple decision to be made by a doctor, discussions need to be made with several specialists to determine the sex of the babies.

thank you professor. i was feeling sleepy during the first half an hour of the lecture and then my eyes got as big as they could O.O after hearing the interesting stories :O

so to those yang nak jadi doctor, don't be that ignorant, or other people will suffer for the rest of their lives.

I wonder in Islam, what to do in such conditions? if she has the male karyosome but she's been raised as a girl because of the failure of the development of male genital organs so they thought she's a girl but found of shes actually not many years later, what should she do? If anyone has the answer to this question, please do enlighten me :)

kthxbai

2012-01-12T16:15:00.000+02:00

Di kisahkan pada suatu hari ketika Rasulullah saw bersama-sama sahabatnya seraya baginda bertanya kepada mereka :

"Siapakah yang paling hebat imannya?" tanya Rasulullah.

"Malaikat," jawab sahabat.

"Bagaimana para malaikat tidak beriman kepada Allah sedangkan mereka sentiasa hampir dengan Allah," jelas Rasulullah.Para sahabat terdiam seketika.

Kemudian mereka berkata lagi, "Para nabi"."Bagaimana para nabi tidak beriman, sedangkan wahyu diturunkan kepada mereka".

"Mungkin kami," celah seorang sahabat

."Bagaimana kamu tidak beriman sedangkan aku berada ditengah-tengah kamu," pintas Rasulullah menyangkal hujah sahabatnya itu. "Kalau begitu, hanya Allah dan Rasul-Nya sahaja yang lebih mengetahui," jawab seorang sahabat lagi, mengakui kelemahan mereka.

"Kamu ingin tahu siapa mereka? Mereka ialah umatku yang hidup selepasku. Mereka membaca Al Quran dan beriman dengan semua isinya. Berbahagialah orang yang dapat berjumpa dan beriman denganku. Dan tujuh kali lebih berbahagia orang yang beriman denganku tetapi tidak pernah berjumpa denganku," jelas Rasulullah.

Suasana di majlis pertemuan itu hening sejenak. Semua yang hadir diam membatu. Mereka seperti sedang memikirkan sesuatu. Lebih-lebih lagi Saidina Abu Bakar. Itulah pertama kali dia mendengar orang yang sangat dikasihi melafazkan pengakuan demikian. Seulas senyuman yang sedia terukir dibibirnya pun terungkai. Wajahnya yang tenang berubah warna. "Apakah maksudmu berkata demikian wahai Rasulullah? Bukankah kami ini saudara-saudaramu?" Saidina Abu Bakar bertanya melepaskan gumpalan teka-teki yang mula menyerabut fikiran.

"Tidak, wahai Abu Bakar. Kamu semua adalah sahabat-sahabatku tetapi bukan saudara-saudaraku,"suara Rasulullah bernada rendah.

"Kami juga saudara-saudaramu, wahai Rasulullah," kata seorang sahabat yang lain pula.

Rasulullah menggeleng-gelengkan kepalanya perlahan-lahan sambil tersenyum. Kemudian baginda bersuara, "Saudaraku ialah mereka yang belum pernah melihatku tetapi mereka beriman denganku sebagai Rasulullah dan mereka sangat mencintaiku. Malahan kecintaan mereka kepadaku melebihi cinta mereka kepada anak-anak dan orang tua mereka."

"Aku sungguh rindu hendak bertemu dengan mereka," ucap Rasulullah lagi setelah seketika membisu dengan berbaur kesayuan pada ucapannya itu

peperiksaan

2012-01-10T15:41:00.005+02:00

yea yea everyone is stressed out

we have to finish 3 books in less than a month and absorb every single thing written in that book :O

waaa

so my presentation will be on the 12th of january. this thursday :O

but i like physiology so its okay i guess hihihi

skill lab exam this monday :O

28th practical exam

4th mcq for genitourinary module :O

and i dont care about the rest. i just want to finish everything before 28th but i dont know if its possible :O

but i'll try *wink wink

reunion ksp

wa cakap sama lu wa rindu gila zaman ksp tak payah belajar makan free meronggeng 24 jam jalan jalan cari makan malam malam online dalam kelas guna laptop tengok movie dalam kelas dapat elaun jamuan disponsor hari hari online gelak tidur main main trip semua disponsor

our first reunion and there were a lot of dishes that everyone went :O

bbq was superb :D two thumbs up and there were a lot of udangssssss. :) bukan senang okay nak makan udang dengan hati gembira tanpa segan silu dekat sini memandangkan udang mahal nak mampusss. hihi

perempuan pulak bertungkus lumus masak dengan aku yg mula memasak sejak pukul 6 setengah pagi hahaha. thank you everyone :))

p/s : dulu ni ringtone kau. ringtone aku juga. bila bunyi aku gelabah cari. tengok tengok skrin kosong. rupanya telefon kau. selalu je panas. tapi dua dua taknak tukar ringtone ego sangat. hihi. tapi tu dulu :)

kthxbai

officially 20/21

2012-01-06T10:58:00.007+02:00

Hellooo peoplee!

hehe ive been quiet for quite a long time, haven't i?well, not literally quiet lah but just quiet from ze blog. and ze social network.
other than twitter. but now pun ive been lazy to open it or write anything etc. i want to retire from all of zese. im gettin' old now.

and i want to talk about a lot of things because i wanted to update this blog since a long time a go but i didnt have time :'( how sad. but if i write about everything it will take more than a day :O
so im just going to sum up everything meshi? :D

ooh talking about old, im now officially 20! :D and unofficially since we're

in 2012 now *say what? i am now unofficially 21 :D
that 2+ used to be something scary when i was in high school. but now i think that 2 doesnt make much different, no?

so how was my birthday *nak jugak ka cerita? haha

thank you for those thoughtful presents and cakes and wishes :)
may Allah bless you all. :)

I can't repay those kindness but insyaAllah they will be rewarded by Him :)

2 new members on ze bed :D

and Happy new year guys! well perhaps im a little bit late. but a week late is acceptable kan? boleh lah.

my new year resolutions! :)

1. try harder to become a better muslimah. try even harder to have the 'cinta kepada Allah dan Rasulnya'. it is not easy but we'll try insyaAllah :)

never gave a serious thought about it but since last year i heard a lot about it and you know, i came to realize that yea, we need to have that. we NEED to. period.

2. Balance my time between dunya (medic, friends, social life *not that kind of social life ya know what im sayin?* and akhirat :) wah wah. yeaaaa we can't just stare at ze books and spend our 24 hours studying without trying to gain knowledge about ze afterlife, right?

3. Study even harder! dont be lazy lah nina a future doctor insyaAllah shouldnt be lazy = =

4. get ready for the next phase of life tho im not sure when is it going to happen. hehe. well everyone should you know. that thing of well-you-know-what.

5. Forget about all the bad things that happened before. As everything happens for a reason. Take those things as lessons and i'll try hard not to repeat the same mistakes again ;(

ZE LAST YEAR THANGS.

. well i lost my grandmother. our grandmother. the only one i got to spend my time with. other than my arwah tok, who passed away when i was in standard 6. but it was kind of cloudy since i was still a little kid and all i ever thought was, fun.

i was on my way home. To Malaysia. How ironic?
It happened on my way home. i was a few hours late. Arwah pah was buried in the evening and i arrived there at night. and until now it feels like a dream to me. :(

May Allah bless her soul. Amiin.

. and last year i started to see a lot of changes in that person :)
and it makes me happy :) although they dont see it, or they don't even realize, i do :) dont give up. lets keep trying :)and may we both have a good future insyaAllah :)

. and a lot of things i can't tell. A LOT. some things are better left unsaid :) but well its a pretty rough + challenging yet beautiful year indeed :)

p/s : ouh and yea. i cancelled my swiss trip and im going hope this winter break. gonna fill my stomach until there's no place left in there gahaa *evil laugh

p/p/s : nasal decongestion. ;( been having sore throat, flu, fever sometimes and its very annoying. i want to study lah der not to sleep because of all of you *geram
ouhh i hate winter! ;( and its pretty tak sopan to blow in the class or in front of people. sorry but i couldnt breathe! dah tak kisah dah sopan ke tak! haha

p/p/p/s : exam this end of january and to be honest, im not ready. this module is veryyyyy tough ;(( wahhh i'll try my best lah and the rest is up to Him :)

p/p/p/p/s : seronok gila dapat pegang baby! kthxbai

tunang?

2011-12-18T09:08:00.006+02:00

Jika seorang lelaki menyatakan hasrat kepada seorang perempuan untuk dijadikan isteri dan wanita itu bersetuju, adakah ia dikira bertunang walaupun ibu bapa perempuan itu belum tahu atau tidak kenal pihak lelaki?

Jawapan

Makna pinang dari segi syarak adalah pihak lelaki menyatakan hasrat berkahwin kepada pihak perempuan. Apabila pihak perempuan berkata setuju, maka perempuan itu sudah dikira menjadi tunang kepada lelaki tersebut.

Contohnya apabila seorang lelaki berkata kepada seorang perempuan, "Aku ingin jadikan kamu sebagai isteriku."

"Kahwin la dengan kita bila-bila," jawab perempuan tersebut.

Maka dari segi hukum syarak, tatkala pihak perempuan itu bersetuju, dia telah menjadi tunang kepada lelaki tersebut; walaupun ia disebut dalam telefon.

Jadi, haram bagi lelaki lain untuk masuk meminang jika hal itu diketahui. Namun jika pihak lelaki lain yang ingin masuk meminang itu tidak tahu, maka ia tidak haram.

Bagaimana dengan kebiasaan orang Melayu yang menghantar rombongan meminang untuk lelaki meminang perempuan?

Ia hanyalah adat Melayu, dan tiada kena mengena dengan hukum Islam. Antara hukum Islam dan hukum adat, mana satu lebih penting?

Namun tiada masalah dengan adat Melayu itu, cuma dari segi hukum Islam, bertunang itu adalah apabila seorang perempuan itu bersetuju dengan hasrat pihak lelaki untuk menjadikannya seorang isteri.

Bagaimana Jika Perempuan Itu Ketiadaan Ibu Dan Ayah?

Mengikut hukum syarak, jika perempuan itu persetujuannya sudah diizinkan oleh syarak seperti perempuan yang cerdik, yang sudah baligh dan sebagainya, ia sudah dianggap bertunang jika dia bersetuju dengan pelawaan lelaki yang menyatakan hasrat mengahwininya.

Apabila perempuan itu persetujuannya tidak menepati hukum syarak seperti belum baligh, gila dan lain-lain, maka wali diperlukan untuk menjawab 'pinangan' tersebut

Kesimpulannya, kita perlu berhati-hati kerana kita boleh menjadi tunang orang tanpa kita sedar. Pastinya ramai yang tidak tahu dan perasan akan hakikat ini.

source: internet. iluvislam kut?

well kenapa aku tulis pasal ni. uhm uhm. hee this is because i didnt know this :O tapi dalam seminggu ni banyak kali dah dengar. pergi takafuh je ustaz cakap.
hee so i knew. i thought we aren't allowed to meet or talk or give presents etc = =
i was wrong. Well it isnt that hard. as long kau suka dia, dia suka kau. and korang ada niat nak kahwin dah dikira tunang.
and by that, kita boleh jumpa selagi ada mahram, boleh tukar tukar present untuk mengikat hati, boleh berhubung selagi jaga batas batas dia. to get to know each other.
betulkan lah kalau salah this is from what i heard :)

sangat teruja jugak bila dengar sebab sebelum ni ingat tunang tu kena hantaran etc etc = =.
and ingat kalau kita jumpa ke before kahwin tu macam tak boleh langsung = =/

and nak tambah satu lagi. hehe macam penting je ni. macam aku galakkan pulak = = walaupun boleh tapi ustaz ckp seeloknyaa tak payah lah :)
tulis ni pun sebab selama ni ingat tak boleh. :)

and tunang tak semestinya kahwin. no problem kalau tak sesuai, kita macam tak kahwin. thats why lah tunang ni better tak payah bagitahu kita tunang dengan sapa etc etc.
enough that people know yang kita dah bertunang. because its actually that simple that sometimes we dont even realize that it already happened = =

tu lah baru tahu. penting kan ilmu ni? kena cari banyak banyak lagi

so kiranya aku nii ................... ? :O

kthxbai

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2011-12-16T09:01:00.004+02:00

ive been busy.

that explains the big gap between the last post and this one.

and ive been lazy, too.

been busy with reunionssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss and gatheringss and classes.

haha reunionss sepanjang bulan :

floor 6 reunion. gambar seems appropriate boleh lah attach? hee kalau tak suka bagitahu i can remove :D

been missing them. its been way too long since we last gathered. oh come to think about it we never did! this is our first time! :)

floor yang memang jarang tutup pintu bilik melilau sana sini

yang bising nak mampus.

dengan manusia manusia yang bolok yet bajet ayu :P

and they celebrated my birthday! so sweet walaupun birthday saya lama lagi hihi

section 6 punya gathering

the only all-girls section in our batch.

and its fun actually. it just feels different. and i can be myself entirely in the class

because you know, when there are guys in the class, its not quite appropriate to talk in a loud voice bising etc. you know what i mean/? -__-"

but i still miss section 2 ;(

because i dont know. here i dont have the chance to get to know everyone personally because of course , the chance's never there. or is it actually my fault :O that i dont socialize much?

rasanya macam dah terlebih bersosial dah hihi

i dont know :/

but they rock really! hhehehe. and great cooks im telling you.

yummy delicicicicicicousss dishes!

last but not least, dear ex-housemates :)

hehe yes we were only housematesback when we were in ksp for only 3 months but still,

everything started there lah. when everyone was a stranger and people started to get to know each other :)

we do hang out that much, to celebrate birthdays and stuff :)

and our last destination was Chicken Tikka. we celebrated anis's birthday! :D

and hopefully we're going to be friends even after we're married and have dozens of kids :O

p/s : its sad that i dont have anyone to babble to everyday anymore. i guess i have to keep it all to myself, eh :O

p/s/s: sc baru pulak :/ honestly malasnyaa nak pergi but lets see whether this one is as fun as our last sc! hihi

p/s/s/s : bajet selalu lari! macam mana nak pergi europe :O and uhm, dah jadi macam ni, awak dah change your mind nak pergi pulak ke? ;(

selamat bulan disember

2011-11-29T13:30:00.006+02:00

alhamdulillah. the exam for module 15 ended a few days ago

and we had 2 days holiday which i spent by, uhm lets see. watch movie. and then, eat, watch movie some more, and sleep, and movie again and sleep again. hee. its not that we always get our day off kan. :D

meja time exam memang bersepah tak ingat dunia hihi

module baru start a few days ago. dah seminggu ke weh?

seriouslah. aku rasa macam dah sebulan dah

banyak nak mampus belajar.

haha first and second day tu 3 jam lectures. semua pasal anat histo yang serious aku tak tipu banyak nak mati. dengan dua hari buku tak ada kann.

dah lah lecture kitorang sampai maghrib

ni tak tipu jugak aku menangis dalam kelas sebab tension sangat. haihhh

dah berapa kali jugak post aku save as draft sebab, uhm sebab setiap kali aku nak update aku rasa macam pemalas gila buku tak habis baca ada hati nak update panjang lebar. nak attach pictures lagi edit post lagi kan kan kan?

genitourinary module. for certain people its a very interesting module indeed but no, not for me.

well i was told not to hate a certain subject or anything so im not gonna say i hate it

and im going to try my best to love this module.

these 2-books-yang-tebal-nak-mampus.

semua orang post cover so aku tak mahu jadi macam semua orang. aku post content. haa amik kau penuh dengan huruf je buku ni mana tak pening hafal / tak apa semua boleh malaysia boleh.

tambah dengan kelas arab lagi. hehe jarang study arab

selalu je cakap kat soha

"sorry we are burdened by medicine that we dont have enough time to study arab"

lepas tu dia jawab

"im happy to hear that" . she was being sarcastic, obviouslyy

ampunn. bayar weh duit sendiri baik kau studyy

lepas tu winter semua orang nakkk pergi jalan jalan europe

honestly. im dying to goooooooooooooooo again because it was fun last year and i want to feel the excitement one more time. ooh not one more. many many more.

but im thinking about saving up for some more important things that may or may not happen. haishh.

so how lah :/

adakah ini benda penting ituu? ooh aku tulis tulisan kiri. tulisan yang dipotong potong tu bukan aku yang tulis. tapi kalau betul ape salahnya kan. hihihi. elakkan diri dari maksiat. kahwin kat ibadah. :D peace yaw!

p/s: semalam aku bosan lepas tu aku terbukak satu link and aku continue baca. its about gossip lah pasal artis malaysia. aku tahu tak elok bacaaa fitnah tu tapi entah dah terbukak dan baca dah pun T.T and i can say that semuaaanya mengarut. macam macamm

m lah pakai seksi lah ngorat laki orang lahh mulut celupar tak tahu malu. aku baca sumpah gelak gelak dengan perasaan yang sangat annoyed. sangat kecewa indeed dengan keadaan sekarang.

kiamat nak dekat. dunia pun makin pentingkan dunia (?) ;( pesanan untuk diri saya juga yang kadang kadang keras kepalaa dan lupa apa yang lebih penting ;( nauzubillah. tunjukkanlah aku jalan yang lurus. aminn

p/p/s : tengok zameer tera apa kejadah entah cerita amir khan pasal budak kecik tak reti baca tu. sumpah wa nangis sampai tak boleh bernafas wa cakap sama lu. malaysia, banyakkan movie yang bagus dan berilmu dan bermanfaat macam ni dan bukannya movie nak saving duit dan mengarut dan seksi dan pegang sana pegang sini. sakit mata weh lepas tu budak budak tengok dia ikut. adoy. salah message betul

p/p/p/s: yupi banyak gula tapi saya suka sangat makan. nina ninaaaa, tak elok lah awak

last but not least. pesanan penaja

p/p/p/s : panjang pulak p/s aku kali ni kan kan kannnnnnnnnn.

sekian terima kasih

November :)

2011-11-23T16:14:00.008+02:00

dah lama rasanya aku tinggalkan blog ini terkapai kapai.

mungkin tak ada benda yang boleh diceritakan

kalau ada pun, semuanya private perhaps? pfft

ok sekarang tengah exam mode untuk module endocrine. well not as hard as other modules but still, menangis jugak nak hafal semua. hiperbola. tak pernah menangis pun :D

lepas tu kecoh jugak pasal riot or demonstration lah to be exact because there's no senapang kereta kebal or anything like that.

actually its kind of funny how they're making a big fuss over this thing

because frankly, kitorang tak tereffect sangat pun.

masih duduk rumah. bergelak ketawa. makan berkali kali sehari. belajar. pergi fathalla beli yupi banyak banyak :D

depan rumah :O tak macam bahaya pun, kan? jangan percaya sangat berita tuu. hihi

ada jugak yang hoping for an evacuation. pfft. banyak cantik? haaha

jangan lah doa benda mengarut ngarut tak elok, kut :O

patut doa egypt ni selamat.

well i kind of admire their semangat nak mempertahankan negara

masa demonstration dekat depan rumah tiba tiba ada tachycardia, sympathetic stimulation

hehe macam terharu pulak. serious nina? terharu = =

kalau lahhhh youth dekat malaysia ada semangat macam ni kan bagus

ni tak. semangat benda benda mengarut. hiburannn semata. certain lah. certain lagi tak kut?

ok dah sambung buat latihan. banyak nak mampus salah ni ;"( serabut pulak

p/s: syera bawak bubur nasi pergi kelas hari tu. terus teringin. saya pun buat sendiri. nisa cakap sedap. thank you nisa! :D

p/p/s : ahh can never thank you enough. thanks for the effort and i hopee we're going to have a happy ending :) echeh. but insyaAllah :) ada hikmah kut semua ni jadi. lets work harder!

p/p/p/s :lepas ni genitourinary module. dua buku kut. LE140 siap. mahalnyaa :O takpe mara bagi duit bukuu untuk beli buku kann/?

p/p/p/p/s : apesal glee dengan how i met your mother makin berdramaa? tengok burn notice cool je hihi

cuti cuti cuti :)

2011-11-11T09:43:00.007+02:00

okay so cuti raya habis esok.

oh no oh no! T,T

hee sangat bersyukur because i didnt go to luxor aswan or anywhere lah :/

because i dont know. i just feel that my time here, eventhough i didnt go anywhere, was full with so many events and things. stuff, basically

first seminar ibadah. 2 hari berturut turut turuttt

hee started at 7.30 and ended at 9.

penat doh serious penat. muka exhausted dah semua orang.

its nice to hear experiences of some experienced doctors.

how they manage their time, for the job, and the family :)

and some of the sacrifices. ahh on call di malam malam butaaa usung sekali anak juga laki ke hospital.

will i survive ? ;(( insyaAllah. yakin boleh. malaysia boleh.

hari satu

ex roommates :)

and also i learned about some hukum hakam in islam regarding this field :)

banyak rupanyaa saya tak tahu. ish ish macam mana nak jadi doktor iniii?

so second day seminar tu buat time hari rayaa.

oh sangat sadis, bangun pagi tak dapat makan apa apaa. kosong je meja. macam nak menangis.

nak masak barang tak ada, kedai tak bukak,

ingat nak touching tidur sambil perut lapar, lepas tu ada akak tu ajak makan rumah. wee :)

solat raya dekat sutuh. sejuk :)

housemates :D

2 extra housemates that day :P

hari ketiga aku masak rendang kuah kacang and mihun and ajak kakak rumah belakang. dari tengah hari sampai maghrib aku masak.

ceh macam buat open house je gayaa duration masak tu :P

malam pergi merewang rewang potong daging

menangis do, berdarah darah tangan. cannot stand the smell of blood. T.T

esok dia lagi mara buat makan makan. saya kenyang. malas nak beratur. saya makan sup tulang je . hehehehe.

seronok. penat do tunggu dengan kental dan semangat for the next trip of sup tulang.

ada lah dalam setengah jam. berikrar nak try buat sendiri. go go nina!

memang taklah aku nak beratur makan kann? :P

penantian berakhir :D

hari tu pergi makan seafood. disebabkan semua pokai,

dan saya mahu bawak air asam (tak mahu sejarah berulang) kami pun pergi lah makan kat manshiah.

datang datang penuh nak mampus dengan manusia manusia. raya kut.

ok lah fine. nak cancel aku dah semangat nak makan, dengan air asam sekali kan. tak boleh cancel tak boleh.

lepas tu tunggu punya tunggu. memang dayyum habislahh.

ada lahh beberapa kali kena potong barisan.

mentang mentangg kitorang ni baik diam sopan. :P

sekali kena potong, tahan lagi. dua kali, tahan.

sejam setengah tunggu ni haa. lamaa kitorang target satu meja panjang tu

sekali bila diorang belah, ada lahhh arabs ni, baru je keluar kereta straight duduk dekat mejaa tu!

membara bara bara dah. haishh.

nasib baik dapat jugak finally

ikan dan air asam. sangat

melayu, bukan?

banyak kann. sorang MYR 17 je pulakk

ok dahh.

hari hari selepas itu diisi dengan open houses(!) dan, uhm keluar keluar sikit sikit. hihi

and semalammm sambut birthdayy jiee and rara :)

its been a veryyy long time since we last gathered. and it was nice we all had fun! :)

bertepuk tambar bergosip gasap. hihi.

ex housemates :D

alala comelnyaa model sorang ni :P

so tomorrow class starts. and we're going to have our exam in a co

uple of weeks. two weeks to be exact, i think. cry nina cry T,T

kthxbai

past few days

2011-11-08T19:10:00.006+02:00

ive been busy for the past few days.

woke up very early in the morning, and reached home late and night.

and then i collapsed,well not literally.

and then woke up again for the next event.

i almost forgot how it feels to wake up late in the afternoon. -.-"

morning view from the balcony :)\

night of eid :)

after solat raya with ze friends :)

so i celebrated my eidul adha for the third time here.

first one at asrama mara, the second one at sharm el sheikh and this year we celebrated our raya at home :)

that day after arab class we asked miss soha what do they usually do during raya

and she said they went for solat raya, eat , and they give money to the relatives.

well i thought giving and receiving duit raya is a tradition only in malaysia

but they do it here, but during eidul adha lah not eidul fitri macam kita .

eidul adha celebration is kind of big here lah, terbalik dengan kita.

and its been days after raya kan but we're still on our holiday :)

first time joining the seminar

muka excited nak dengar seminar :)

im not in the mood to write a very long post

so io attached a few pictures of seminar ibadah, and raya celebration

a few. i'll upload the rest later, insyaAllah if i have time, and if im, uhm in the mood :)

hihi this is like a sneak peak lah kan. bajet je nak senak peak macam hot sangat je :P

p/p/s : ramainyaa orang tumpang rumahh berhari hari dahh tukar orang :) murah rezeki

p/p/p/s : tadi dapat makan sup tulang. sedap :)

2011-11-03T01:05:00.002+02:00

oh i should have known

i should have known that im going to regret what i did.

what was i thinking ? to write about it here about the feelings that weren't even real, well i thought it was. how stupid -___________________-"

feelings lah konon -___-"

now that i feel stupid and ridiculous that it even happened since i feel completely nothing now, i am really embarrassed i have to say about the things i wrote. haishhhh.

and knowing that some / or any lah of my batchmates kalau ada read those posts, and i cant take back what they think.

mengarut je itu semuaa.

rasa macam nak tutup mukaaa taruk simen tebal tebal -.-"

and to those yang terlibat, i am truly deeply sorry. waa rasa tak matured nyee >.<

you should be more careful ninaaa. jangan malukan diri sendiri lagii.

aye aye captain!

update

2011-10-28T22:02:00.006+02:00

Raya Haji minggu depan

hajat nak pergi luxor aswan naik cruise tak kesampaian.

aku yang overexcited nak pergi semangat, last lastttt orang lain yang pergi

*sedih ni sampai nangis nangis dah sebab tak puas hati. taknak cakap dengann awok dahhh :((*

tak apa tak apa

kita psycho diorang sikit.

kita duduk rumah boleh study.

hihi banyak gila nak mampus kena hafal ni

exam nak dekat.

haish baru sebulannnn sampai sini, final module nak dekat.

memang nais module punya system ni.

Lagipun ada seminar ibadah pesakit

aku pun tak tahu kenapa semua eksaited sangat nak pergi

aku pun tumpang eksaited lah. walaupun tak berapa.

lepas pergi jadi eksaited lah kut. hihi.

rasa rasa macam nak lepak zagazig 2 3 4 hari makan krib hari hari sampai gemuk!

eh tak tak. makan sampai kurus :)

and eh aku dah masuk kelas arab ammi. baru first class, seronok seronok :O

nak masuk arab fushah tapi maybe tahun depan ke,

habiskan dulu ammi ni. haihhhhhhhhh dah lahhh petang sampai malam. lepas tu kena balik sorang sorang :O

tak seronok

p/s: seronok gila main futsal tadi walaupun dah lama tak main. buat everytime our turn to use the istad please?

p/p/s: saje nak tag gambar mihun sup. sedap :P

p/p/p/s : seronok jugak main lukis lukis ni hihi. manifestation of cushing's :) hihi tersalah letak addison. bukan tersalah letak. tersalah hafal! thanks betulkan! hihi

(!)

2011-10-24T18:00:00.005+02:00

ok now im all stressed out.

i want to go somewhere this raya haji holiday because i think its such a waste to just sit at home and do nothing when there are so many places i can explore

but everyone wants to sit at home, and uhm study perhaps?

malas nak fikir dah. :/

and ouh tadi reunion bilik. hee roommate asrama dulu :DD

dah lama tak lepak sama sama hihi :))

and ouh aku masuk kelas arab ammi starting this week lah :/

kalau tak pergi sekarang bila lagi nak pergi

fushah pun tak masuk lagi -______________-"

tension lagi.

Johnny English

2011-10-18T15:02:00.006+02:00

i was bored. and i wanted to watch johnny english so this is how we spent our friday night

spent hours at fuddruckers eating and uhm, buat bodoh?

hehe

comellll :)

2011-10-18T08:13:00.000+02:00

take a look at this video! for those who havent watched yet lah, obviously

came across it dekat facebook

hee tapi so cute so cute sampai tidur teringat budak ni :) enjoy!

t.i.g.a

2011-10-12T10:07:00.004+02:00

semua orang macam excited with the fact yang semua dah masuk third year

aku pulak, macam tak realize pasal third year

but come to think about it, wahh im in third year now ^.^"

senior weh senior. padahal tak ada beza pun. bukan aku kenal junior sangat = =

come to think about it lagi, wahhh dah 2 tahun aku dekat alex. campur dekat zagazig setengah tahun, dah 2 tahun setengah aku dekat mesir.

aku sebenarnya macam tak ada feeling pun duduk sini,

walaupun setengah macam cakap tak best

aku rasa best je

makan best, jalan jalan best, jalan jalan sini best, pergi o

verseas pun best :O

belajar? macam dah rutin harian. tak ada effect besar dalam hidup

belajar mana mana pun kena belajar juga. haihh.

lagi 4 tahun, aku habis insyaAllah :)

lagi 4 tahun boleh kahwin. yay. :P gatai naa hang hihi

bila come to think banyak kali. lagi 2 bulan aku masuk 20 tahun

kalau dulu time sekolah, even terfikir pasal 20 pun macam unbelievable

sekarang ni rasa macam its just another number,

its just another prove that we're grown ups.

holding even more and more responsibilities,

which is kind of scary :O

its just another phase in life , sooner or later we have to get through it.

tahun depan clinical year. tahun depan aku kena persiapkan tangan aku untuk keep movingg.

hee comforter baru. comel kan comel kan. buat aku rasa macam nak baring kat katil selalu. bahayaa ni

rak baru juga. habis 250 ;( but i dont have space dekat laci nak taruk buku dah ;(

p/s: siapa rasa endocrine susah angkat tangan!! *sambil angkat tangan tinggi tinggi tinggi ;(

p/p/s : cuti isnin jumaat :O mula mula macam tension kenapa tak straight tapi macam seronok pulak. baru cuti lepas tu, eh? cuti lagi? hehe

p/p/p/s : teringin nak makan krib zagazig ;( going there nanti cuti lah wee :)

p/p/p/p/s : sooner or later theyre gonna leave. maybe its time.

entry nombor satu

2011-10-10T07:42:00.005+02:00

uhm uhm yeah im happy to tell you that class has started

well of course memandangkan kelas baru start, semua orang masih bersemangat.

and i hope the semangat stays sampai habis semester,

we have 2 days holiday each week. monday and saturday

very irrelevant indeed

haishh buat lah 2 hari straight.

boleh jugak meronggeng -____________-"

one housemate is coming home today

and the other one is coming home end of october

barulah fullhouse.

haha bosan dah duduk sorang sorang, or berdua :/ hehe

nanti lepak costa jum!

see gemok, orang taruk dulu haa :O

and btw, semalam birthday rakan teman ehem ehem terhebat sepanjang masa * wink wink

after months of thinking what should i get him, i still came up with nothing.

haihh tension

and finally i decided to bake some cupcakes je . ngee :)

dah lah first time buat. oups second lah yang first rehearsal a few days before tu hancus, berkecai, manis, keras, kosong, tak jadi lah kira

lepas tu penat aku menggodek internet cari resepi kejadah semua

and jeng jeng jeng the final try jadi jugak :)

walaupun tak selawa orang lain buat kan :O

may you have a great year ahead and achieve whatever you want to achieve in life :)

p/s : best gila nak mampus real steel i have to say lah hee. tho im not really a fan of this robot robot thing. but this one is pure awesome :)

seminggu sebelum kelas

2011-10-03T16:36:00.004+02:00

5 days before our class starts

they already uploaded the notes at the batch's blog

ouh come to think about it, i was kind of responsible with the blog. only a part of it.

but never bother to change anything since the last few months = =

you know how it is with grown ups

too many complaints when it doesnt turn out the way they want it to

so i guess we better put my hands up and surrender :P

basically this module is about endocrinology (rasanya eja macam ni).

i just dont bother to take a look at the notes yet because,

i dont know, because i believe i won't understand a thing without any explanation from someone who knows better, obviously

but you know, perhaps, just perhaps i will try to read some and digest them like a bowl of alphabet soup before class starts, yummy

hehe yesterday, because someone wanted nasi lemak suddenly = =, i cooked some

lagipun i was hungry kan and im sick of eating sardines, maggis, delivery stuff and improper food

and i just wanted reason to cook,

if someone bothers to eat what i cook, im more than excited to get my hands moving and well, cook(?) :)

semangat je hidang macam kedai :P

and because someone knows how much i adore spongebob, i got this as a present

aww thats so sweet of you :))

thankk youuuuu sayang nak guna tak keluarkan pun lagi. bukak tengok je :P hee

p/s: ho ho encik haziq esok kamu pmr kan? buat betul betul kalauuu tak buat betul betul siapp kamuu! :P kalau dapat 8a nina bagi hadiah. kut lah tapi kekeke.

p/p/s : i only knew yesterday that its actually p/p/s and not p/s/s. how sad, kan?

p/p/p/s : i like to say that im confuzzled! something that i learned from the movie :P

p/p/p/p/s : nak makan peking and cr and bitzass tapi tengah saving. how sad T.T

confuzzled

2011-10-02T21:05:00.002+02:00

im confused

i dont know whether i should put my trust in this

i dont know whether i should hope

i dont know whether i can trust

i dont know whats gonna happen next

its like i wish i can see the future so i know what step should i take

because honestly im afraid

afraid that things would go wrong

and end up the way i dont want it to

tell me what should i do now

tell me what should i do

here finally

2011-10-01T08:27:00.004+02:00

and i have arrived here in alexandria, egypt yesterday at 10 am in the morning

after having such an exhausting journey.

i was feeling a bit unwell

like i was about to have a fever = = tapi tak demam demam pun haishh

its effing cold in there and i didnt bring my sweater

i couldnt eat a thing on the plane except for the yoghurt while watching the last 30 minutes of kungfu panda 2

and the fruits

hello alex! selalu wonder kenapa banyak kotak kotak kat bawah? = =

my friends picked me up at the airport because i didnt know anyone

so i ended up paying LE120 for the taxi. sebab pergi balik -______________-"

120 gone, just like that. :/

turned out ada ramai jugak 3rd year seniors rupanya.

balik je dah kebulur = =

seharian tak makan. dayyum

masak sardin je last last.

teringin nak makan peking. bila dah sampai, rasa nauseous. ended up makan sayur je.

dahlahhh mahal wehhhh grr membazir je

lepas ni tak tahu nak makan apa

pokai lah kalau hari hari makan luar

nak masakk, macam malas je nak masak pastu makan sorang sorang

haishhhh korangg cepat lah sikit balikkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!

oh by the way, lepas sampai je terus pergi carrefour tak sedar diri penat nak mampus

tapi comforters dia ada discound

after hours of thinking dan kena marah sebab fikir lama sangat nak beli ke tak,

last last beli jugak weee

seronoknya tidur lepas ni :)

selamat tinggal.

2011-09-28T13:23:00.004+02:00

dengan ini saya dengan iri hati (?) mengumumkan, saya bakal pulang ke tanah bukan air pada esok hari.

hehe.

tapi barang belum habis kemas. jadi ada sesiapa yang bermurah hati baik hatiii rendah hati nak tolong kemaskan? * wink wink.

ok dah shadap

flight kuwait airlines.tak seronok :/. transit hanya sejam.

turun 20 minit naik balik 20 minit. so takkan duduk sana pun

ketibaan di borg pada jam 10 pagi

probably aku seorang. tapi dengar khabar ada juga 2 manusia yang tidak dikenali identiti ada sama,

tahun lain mungkin.

oh ini kasut. membuatkan aku termimpi mimpi saban hari

ketika hati mulaa yakin mahu melangkah ke sungei wang setelah 2 minggu menerima mimpi yang sama,

aku jumpa kasut ni di jusco.

padahal sebelum ini time aku berapa kali ulang pergi sana tak ada = =

bagus lah, tak sempat pun pergi sungei wang. ktm macam tuttt je penuh

nampak sangat perangai malaysian yang kurang sopan,

menjerit sana marah marah orang, tak ikut peraturan, tak hormat orang lain

kelibat beberapa foreigners juga kelihatan. sangat, memalukan, sangat.

sabar sikit tak boleh? cakap elok elok ka. kami faham bahasa melayu sekian.

hena maugud maakulat. kuwaiz awwi :)

2011-09-21T05:24:00.006+02:00

wah wah okay im starting to get jealous seeing friends' photos who went overseas to further their studies :O

haha selama ni tak pernah bukak pun sebab tu baru jealous hari ni = =

the places are breathtakingly beautiful

at first i went

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

but when i spend a little time to think about it

i came to a conclusion that

it doesnt really matter.

duduk egypt pun best jugak because of ze FOOD

FOOD FOOD EVERYWHERE EVERYTIME.

chinese thailand melayu indian arab western italy you name it

and theyre all halal and yummy and affordable :)

and the currency here is low. 1 ringgit = 2 genih. so you do the math :)

banyak lagi tapi itu je yang sounds interesting :O

and nehh, bila cuti still boleh pergi their beautiful places kan :)

ouh nak upload food photos here ;( but all the photos are gone since that stupid perompak took my laptop and all my memories in it vanished in a blink of eye/

thanks a lot brother. thanks a lot.

and to friendss who are currently studying wherever it is youre studying

all the best and im happy for you :)) tak dengki ok jealous je :P

kthxbai

kenangan lalu ;)

2011-09-16T10:07:00.008+02:00

was browsing through some old pictures

belakang sekolah. bengkel pertanian. bawah pokok. latihan kawad :D serious rindu kawad kaki rumah sukan. heck, it was fun dengan costumes segala T.T

zaman myspace bila semua gambar nak kena diphotoshopkan. lol really embarrassing :P but i like how some of them turned out :D

fake eyelashes. fake eye colour. budak budak zaman sekarang = = seronok sebab ada gambar kami je :D

teringat masa form 5 ada budak comel form 1. aku kacau dia selaluuu gila masa kawad.

lepas tu lepas tuu satu hari tu aku kacau, dia lari gelak gelak

aku pun kejar lah = = lepas tu lama lama lari dia duduk, menangis, cabut cabut rumput. tiba tiba macam psycho gila mengamuk.

wahhh aku pulak rasa bersalah gila sekali aku pun menangis sekali ;((

dia cakap dia sedih semua orang buli dia.

aku pun " akak tak buliii lahh, ***** lari sebab tu akak kejar T.T ok lepas ni akak tak kacau dah ;("

sampai habis kawad aku tak berani kacau dia dah, haha

hehe ni rasanya kitorang ponteng kejap kelas. haih teruk betul dulu

tapi kadang kadang kitorang mintak kebenaran

cikgu disiplin siap

"cikgu cikgu exam abes awal ni. nak balik sekarang boleh tak?"

"baliklah. tapi cepat sikit jangan sampai pejabat nampak"

"wokey cikgu tak ada hal lah"

semua stok bajet rockstars je :P

kthxbai

nasi lemak .

2011-09-10T18:00:00.003+02:00

Teringat zaman sekolah menengah.

Pagi pagi beli nasi lemak paklang.

kalau datang awal, bedal dulu tumpang makan dalam kelas 3 akmal,

walaupun aku exco perhimpunan, patut halang orang buat macam tu, aku pulak join = =

kalau lambat tunggu rehat.

kadang kadang pagi jumpa pakcik putu mayam

beli tiga ringgit

duduk belakang dalam lab biology bersila atas lantai lapik plastik makan secara berjemaah.

hehe

tak pun kalau terlupa beli nasi lemak pagi tu, pancing lah junior mana yang kelihatan waalaupun tak kenal :O

"dik, belikann nasi lemak kat luar pleaseee"

tak pun kita lari keluar sekolah kejap, lepas beli masuk balik :D

wah seronok.

ok tiba tiba teringat bila tanya haziq

"nasi lemak paklang tu ada lagi?"

T.T

thats it kthxbai

zzz

2011-09-08T04:46:00.004+02:00

yeahhh after waitinggg for almost a month or two, it finally came out(!)

and it was okay, alhamdulillah for that,

overall out batch's result improved a lot.

and im happy for that *wink wink

it seems that everyone is working hard and hard to achieve it.

naik. turun. naik. turun.

the hardest thing to do is to maintain,

and whats even harder is trying to figure out which way of study suits you, or me in this case

its like every sem is a gamble = =.

change your way of study every sem ,kalau result jatuh lah and see how it turns out.

and i spent too much time with books last sem sampai tak mahu pergi takafuh, and if all of my friends went out for dinner or anything, i was the only one left home, simply because, i wanted to study =.="

but my result was, bad. freaking bad. down down masuk longkang.

so i knew i was wrong its not only about studying, i know that however hard you work,

in the end, what determine the outcome is not only the effort, but His berkat.

Well whatever He gave you, im sure He has a better plan for you

And alhamdulillah because of the bad one He gave me, i tried to be flexible. Pergi takafuh, orang ajak keluar. because your life doesnt linger around books only kan. kalau ada aktiviti, ikut lah yang mana best :P Kalau study bagai nak rak, berkat tu tak ada, redha tu tak ada, tak jadi jugak, kan :)

and i tried so hard to change everything i did that i thought was wrong. i bought a new table. zzzz mahal doh, and kerusi pusing pusing and tried so hard to find a comfortable place to study.

i didnt go to the library that often no more! :P ah one more thing that i thought was hard is trying to figure out what you did wrong. grr was it because of the kerusi murah that made me so unproductive, was it because i went to the library too often tapi study tak sangat = = was it because i didnt go to takafuh? was it because of etc etc too many things that i thought was wrong

susah nak tengok aku yang saving nak mampos beli meja kerusi mahal macam ni. beli sehari lepas dapat result sem lepas sebab takut sejarah berulang :P i did what i had to do :P menangis woo habis duit

i may not have the best result among them but it was something i should be grateful for :) and i hope it maintains after this walaupun zzz

haih, takut pulak nak masuk third year -.-"

terima kasih jugak kepada best buddy aku ni ha sebab suka tanya soalan pelik pelik yang buat aku kena study banyak kali and figure out jawapan kepada soalan pelik dia ni. haha

to be honest aku ni tak reti study in group so memang aku sorang sorang je lah belajar. minah ni je yang berani dan percaya serta yakin untuk tanya soalan dekat aku. haha = = aku pun selalu kalau ada orang tanya aku, tak sah kalau aku tak pergi tanya orang lain :P

congratulations everyone :)

carutan yang dilarang

2011-09-05T10:27:00.003+02:00

Aku rasa aku taknak lah dolak dalik dengan berani dan terang terangan aku rasa semua orang dah mula rasa annoyed dengan result yang tak kunjung kunjung tiba. grr

it doesnt matter really bila kau keluar result oi

tapi tak payah lah nak bagi harapan palsu.

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

kalau dah taknak keluarkan tu shadap jelah.

ni cakap by puasa lah. lepas tu hari ni lah lepas tu esok lah.

lagi lah zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

sebab bila tunggu tunggu tak keluar jugak.

dannn kepada rakan seangkatann tak payah lah nak mengamuk bagai mengeluarkan kata kata kesat kepada orang arabsssssssssssssssssssssssssssss. normal lah marah tapi sampai nak mencarut carat semua.

-____________________________________-"

macam lah orang lain tak tension jugak = = marah sikit sikit sudah. hehe

ok dah shadap. aku dah tukar tiket pergi 30 sept. asalnya 23.

well ok lahh because i was hoping dapat 1 ke 2 oct.

sebab tak mahu lah balik lambat sangat. sebab nanti kelam kabut nak pergi kelas tak sempat rest tak ada moooood nak masuk kelas dan belajar

kalau balik awal nanti dah bosan ronggeng kat egypt tak sabar nak masuk kelas. hehe

kut lah tapi -________________-"

yang tak bestnya kena bayar LE500. $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

tapi kalau tukar kat egypt lagi mahal. ada kena 700 ada kena 900 ada sampai seribu lebih

tapi kalau tak tukar langsung lagi jimat hehe tapi tak cool lah balik awal awal awalll sangat tak seronok tak puas makan lagi ni.

ok dah shadap. post time tengah sakit hati dengan seorang manusia yang tak boleh didedahkan identiti. tapi tapi tak baik marah marah orang :(

kthxbai

a quick update

2011-09-02T05:41:00.009+02:00

i know its been months since i last updated but i just, couldn't find proper words to write.

and i've been busy? well not really busy lah but didnt have much time to spend in front of ze laptop and heck, i dont know why.

so first i have to write about puasa in egypt. Though I only had the chance to sembahyang terawih twice there but i have to say that its awesome

It ended at 11 for 8 rakaat only but it didnt feel that long. perhaps because it was held in the middle of the padang and we could feel the breeze and everything. and we even held the quran and read along :) its nice really.

pardon the terrible photo. biasalah malam malam tak nampak apa. :D after terawih lepak lepak for a while :)

and then i went home on august 10th. and on my way home, i received a sad news. my grandmother was gone. ;"(

i was late a few hours but nothing could be done kan. it was such a big coincidence that in happened on my way home

and i didnt get to see her for the last time but everything happens for a reason and there should be a good reason behind it kan?

transit at kuwait for 7 hours and wee kami dapat hotel.

i rather transit for a longgggggggggg time and dapat hotel rather than transit less thn 7 hours lepas tu duduk merempat makan tak sedap = = "

asilah terpaksa jadi model hotel. nais kan? :D

i didnt go out that much this time because, i dont know. i dont feel like going out that much. I went to meet my friends just once and they went " asal nina mcm diam eh cuti ni? tak tahu pun nina balik yang lain dengar lah jugak"

hee sorry i dont really have a good explanation for that.

but it feels good to meet them after such a long time. and to be honest, i really miss us ;"(

so i celebrated my first raya in kl. for a few hours only, :P because after sembahyang raya we went to our hometown in perak.

Singgah ipoh abahchik's house and met all the cousins and second cousins whom i haven't met for years!

then off to taiping. reached there at like 11 and cleaned up the house until 4 am! but not me lah because at one i already felt so sleepy and i couldnt even open my eyes so its not my fault really that i went to sleep early

lol dengan baju kebaya mengemop membasuh satu rumah -__________________-"

sangat kental

belambak pokok rambutan nampak? durian ada jugak kat belakang. jealous tak :P

the next day i went to sri kota, my mom's side to meet all the cousinss and as usual lah everyone was there so the house was full with little kids and cousins and uncles and aunties. and it was havoc and loud and funnn :) we had photoshoot with all the props and everything, hehe

the good thinng is i craved for yong taufu and aiskrim bomba and cendol. the best cendol in the world, as they say. Of course lah sebab cendol ada dekat malaysia je so the best in malaysia is the best in the world lah kan :D and they were yummyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :) although i had to wait hours for ze yong taufu and aiskrim bomba = =" they have like dozenss of different kind of ice cream. a must everytime i go back to tepeng :D

pardon gambar tahun lepas memandangkan tahun ni sangat lambat dapat jadi bila dapat makan dengan rakusnya bila dah licin baru teringat "damn! gambar tak ambik!"

budak kecik takboleh duduk diam hehe

we had to come home early since my brother will go back to indonesiaaaa on friday. so we spent our last day with ze cousins and then we went to air terjunnnnnn and barbeque some more (!)

i wasnt planning on mandi-ing at the air terjun because you know how hard it is to change kan but i cant resist the urge to terjun sekali when i saw the others had fun! so yeah, i joined them finally. it was cold it was epic(!)

dekat sini :D

it took 5 hours from taiping to kl and we had to wake up earlyyy in the morning to send hariz off to the airport.

I have to go delay my flight ticket to egypt because its quite early but im sooo lazyyy to go to the office and and you know spend some $$$ for it. because im saving up right now. i have to count every penny i have so i dont spend much because i have so many things to buy and to bring to egypt *cry baby cry*

and im going to spend a few days in the hospital usha-ing around since someone went "kalau bosan datang lahh ikut tengok goyang goayang kaki, nyanyi nyanyi dalam operation room tu ikut ikut lah tengok masuk icu ke just for exposure kan"

so yeah perhaps im going to do attachment because i desperately need some exposures because i dont know i think after 2 years ++ studying medic, i should know some medical stuff. not just the things in the book and practical in egypt is SO NOT ENOUGH.

and he warned me " JANGAN JANGANN KAHWIN TIME BELAJAR, tak ada faedah langsung"

lol so i had a thought about " kalauuuu TERkahwin awal pun boleh lah kut" because you know seeing people around

but after hearing that i went 'ooh that's so not gonna happen'

tho i think that part about tak ada faedah langsung tu, some wouldnt agree kan. perhaps ada lah faedah dia but not for me lahh perhaps for other people. hehe

im so young and i am so not ready for that. becauseeeeeee i have a life ahead, i have to think about study, about work, continuing my study and some people, like me, just can't survive having too many responsible. as a student, which is a BIG one already, and a 'wife' *sedang tahan vomit okay just having a thought about that* and i dont have a calon lagi ^.^" yang ada calon tak terlibat yer :D

and i so don't want to rushh because i don't know it is a big thing and im afraid because of the rush, i suffer my whole life T.T

okay since thats not gonna happen, kut. just shut up and stop thinking about it = ="

ouh and mereka bilang result keluar esok. dont trust them really cakap je before raya what happened = =

im quite nervous really. i dont put much hope since my result jatuh menjunam last sem although of course who doesnt want another excellent kan? = = but if my result drop jugak pasrah je im ready for that jugak although nanti menangis guleng guleng jugak seriously. but im hoping for the best :D

so i guess its not to late to wish everyone selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin :)) and good luck result :O

wasted time

2011-08-06T18:53:00.008+02:00

seriously i wasted most of my time on bed. sleep, watch some movies, eat and sleep again

and the cycle repeats every day.

its not like i can join the tadarus or go terawikh or anything

more time wasted.

so i thought its been a really long time since i last read a novel.

i guess the interest disappeared after spm, because of course, i thought watchingg is way more interesting than reading but thats not it. i came back to my senses and finally realize that reading is way more fun :)

in enhances imaginations and you know, stuff = = do i really need to explain

and you have no idea how much time it took me to choose a book.

because its been way too long since i last bought a book that i wanted to buy something worth it.

i went to the shop like thrice and to the other one like thrice also and spent like more than half and hour each time just to choose = =

i wanted to buy this one' ' the five people you meet in heaven' because i dont know i heard of it somewhere and i was pretty sure it was a good book. its quite famous isnt it but its thin and i wanted a thicker one = =

and i ended up buying this one. because i dont know. nicholas sparks wrote the notebook and a walk to remember which were awesome, both of them. i bet youve heard of those movies, havent you?

well luckily i bought this one because one of my friend actually have the five people you meet in heaven and i get to read both in the end :)

and this is a good movie. especially for doctors out there?

what are we doing? we're wasting out time = =

we're supposed to be reading and never stop reading.

but what am i doing again?

oh yes, im writing a post?

very well.

its really inspiring i love to watch this kind of movies :)

the pursuit of happyness, the great debators and you know, movies like that.

better than watching those useless movies that will decrease your pahala puasa really = =

and its kind of exciting when he mentioned a few medical words that im familiar with and i went " i know this one i know this one!" ok shut up nina

i nnever really talked about going back home kan?

i got quite jealous with those who have safely arrived home/

im still counting the days :O

as you can see my flight is on August 10th , 11 50 in the morning

guess i have to fast on the plane lah = =

and we have to transit for 8 hours and 20 minutes im really hoping they will give us a nice hotel to stay in. please do:( dont be so evil pleaseee :)

okay happy fasting people :) selamat berbuka also :)

p/s: is it wrong to hate someone? well i dont know if this is hatred but please, dont tag me in whatever it is you are tagging because i dont want to even see your name and better off, i hope you never appear in front of me.

im allergic to people who throw away their friends after they found someone :)

i hope im not being harsh, but you were harsh too. so its not my fault really now, isnt it :) have a good day

its here!

2011-08-01T22:00:00.003+02:00

Yes fasting in Malaysia is great.

everyone's going to bazar ramadhan. eat a lot. cook many kind of dishes. you name it. murtabak tauhu bakar ayam percik etc etc yummy right?

and uhm uhm SOME go to the mosque or surau for terawikh

and as Hari Raya gets near everyone gets so excited . they play mercun bunga api cook a lot waiting preparing for duit rayaa. the open houses the free food (!)

But is it really that meaningful?

Its the first day of ramadhan. Though i dont have the opportunity to go to the mosque for solat terawikh yet or to feel the feeling everyone's feeling, fasting during summer.

and fasting here is long really. it starts at 3 something and ends at 7 something.

and the temperature, haih i rather sit at home.

One day before ramadhan i went to carrefour with a mate.

Its not even weekend , but it looks like, you know, how it looks like a day before raya in Malaysia.

I even cancelled buying groceries because the lines were so long that i couldnt even stand to wait

Everyone was preparing for the first day of puasa :)

There's no bazaar ramadhan here, food aint that important,

what's more important is the niat to increase our deeds this ramadhan because it comes only once a year and we're not sure whether we're gonna meet ramadhan again next year.

And from my room, i can see many lampu raya, the one we see in our hometown, when raya is approaching but here, its for ramadhan!

and everyone feels so sad that its gonna end soon

they dont celebrate raya that much really. because i dont know. they prefer ramadhan more :)

their raya haji celebration is much more happening than raya puasa and you should know why kan.

i wanted to know and feel the difference thats why i stay here a while.

Although its not my luck really this time i believe my time will come and there's a reason behind it :)

Happy Ramadhan.

make it a meaningful one :)

frust menonggeng

2011-07-28T15:37:00.007+02:00

OKAY SOOOOO EXAM IS OFFICIALLY OVER

the only weird thing is, i dont feel that excited

not like the previous three semesterssss. why?

i dont know perhaps ive grown up. gah perasan.

okok hidup aku sekarang, sangat menyedihkan, bermulaaa minggu lepas

habis exam cvs, air tak ada . *sobs

kalau kejap kejap tak apa

ni langsung! naah nada nil zip zero nothingggggg

aku pun terpaksa lah menumpanggg rumah orang

bajet nak tumpang kejap lah bajet kejap je air tak ada

ni FINAL DAH HABIS AIR TAK ADA LAGI APA CERITA?

nak puasa gano? hishhhh

makan free, masak pun tak. erk sekali je :( menyemakkan rumah orang, menyepahkan rumah orang, memanjangkan queue nak mandi. membisingkan rumah orang. anything else you wanna add?

habis psycho balik rumah dengan harapan air ada, tapi bukan setakat air, elektrik pun tak ada :(

doakanlah air ada sebelum puasa kalau tak aku meraung. tak tipu.

ooh lepas exam tadi aku melantak . well, itu kan rutin harian

makan lah sini. sedap :) kut. kena pandai pilih lah. yang penting kenyanggg :D

Peking, downtown, Alexandria :)

Pemelantak #1

Pemelantak #2 *abaikan tudung yang horror sepanjang gambar :)

Siapa nak mandi swimming pool tengah alam ni ?

Fried fish with mushroom

Beef sweet chilli

Mixed vegies with mushroom

Muka tak berapa nak teruja nampak makanan -.-" *padahal dalam hati ..

Muka sangat teruja nampak makanan

Hasilnya..

dah reti pakai chopstick sikit. sape ajar sape ajar? :P

panas dunia.

2011-07-21T23:54:00.006+02:00

kau tahu sekarang musim apa?

aku tahu kau tahu,

tapi yang menarik aku dah kurang mengomel. kurang membebel seperti tahun tahun sebelum.

"nak winter nak winter"

selepas aku menyedari. aku juga membenci winter.

sekurang kurangnya, musim panas aku boleh mandi dua puluh empat tujuh.

bukan?

sekurang kurangnya aku boleh juga, uhm tidak berbalut dengan selimut dua puluh empat tujuh, juga.

sekarang aku sedar aku harus bersyukur dengan nikmat Malaysia.

jangan duduk merungut lagi.

panas itu mungkin satu ujian juga. kau diam, kau dapat pahala :)

tapi bila time tak kena tu,

macam semalam. aku balik exam cvs

penat aku perah otak kan? soalan mcm tut. ok tak tut mungkin. salah aku yang tak boleh nak perah otak seperah perahnya time exam :O

Jujurnya juga aku tak meletakkan apa apa harapan.

Mungkin aku rasa aku dah berusaha, mungkin lah, tapi hanya Dia yang lebih tahu.

ok balik rumah, panas. dalam kepala otak aku mahu mandi solat tidur sebelum ke cofe roastery untuk urusan seterusnya.

Malang bila mendapati aku tak bawa kunci. Betapa manusia boleh menjadi lalai dan leka.

Duduk di luar, mencangkung, bersila mengereng, selama lebih kurang sejam

bertemankan nokia E71 dengan internet bernama TENDA. hampir menangis. hampir menghentak kaki. memang tak ingat dunia panas panas. terguling seketika sebelum jiran depan memanggil masuk. kesian dengan aku barangkali.

Terima kasih. jasamu dikenang. :)

ooh aku ada 5 hari lagi nak habiskan respiratory. Alhamdulillah, masih ada lagi informasi yang lekat di kepala.

juga berjuta ribuan terima kasih buat teman baik selamanya merangkap BFF untuk stokin spongebob yang kuning menerang senang nak lekat di hati. sangatcomel tak rugi aku menangis seharian.

p/s: being ignorant. does that make you a forgiver or a hypocrite?

p/s/s: sejujurnya aku mahu keluangman terus menerus melekat bersama tiongman sampai bila bila sampai mati sampai tua. kerana mungkin, tiongman tidak lengkap tanpa keluangman begitu juga sebaliknya.

perhaps

2011-07-17T17:28:00.003+02:00

i know this is complicated for me at least.

i know somehow this is not what we expected.

and i started to think too much about where this is going.

is this the right thing to do?

is this even appropriate?

i know somehow i denied way too much, that i have to think once and twice what really happened

I know i am afraid.

I know i am in doubt.

i know we are still haunted or affected by the past,

i know the hearts are still crushed.

but can i really give this a chance?

perhaps i dont know to what extend we mean the words we're saying.

perhaps right now i can just wonder.

wonder too much

and see where things go

perhaps i am in this half heartedly

because im not sure, i just cant believe too much.

or id end up suffering, crushed again

perhaps because i know too much

a bit too much

perhaps i know too well

a bit too well

i cant really see the clear picture of the thing that happened.

i dont know what am i supposed to do really.

But i just don't want to lose the precious thing.

perhaps im just lucky to have been where i have been.

I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

ze squarepants

2011-07-15T07:46:00.002+02:00

perhaps because of this, the twitter background

and this

tumblr background

this, the desktop one

this one as my phone wallpaper

and this as the screensaver *this picture is supposed to move :/

I got this cute spongebob! :D wee thank youuuu kak sehaa. comel suka :D

2011-07-15T07:44:00.001+02:00

I might be smiling

But can you really tell whats playing in my mind

or whats in my heart? :/

:))

2011-07-11T18:52:00.004+02:00

even when i was so semangat and i cooked but it went hangit and tasted not as good,

even when i tried to eat on the bed because i was so bajet makan pun kena tengok buku lah konon and all the kuah kacang tumpah on the bed, and on the text book

even when i had to cut 10 pages of the epidemiology text book so the other pages won't get affected as well

even when im gonna have my epidemiology exam tomorrow and 10 pages are missing

even when i tried to scan and print (such a stupid thing to do just because i was effing lazy to go to the kedai fotostat) but i failed and wasted an hour on that. maybe less :/

even when i cooked one more time something i never tried before and it tasted , uhm not like what its supposed to taste :/ again. two times in a row.

even when i still have to study a lot for the coming exam

I still have to be thankful because everything happens for a reason. :)

so im thanking Him :)

and luckily, i have ze keluangman so it wasnt that bad really :P

nasi kampung.

2011-07-08T23:22:00.002+02:00

wa cakap sama lu, the best dinner we had in months and its just, what?

nasi putih kicap kipas udang, ikan kering, ikan goreng, timun, sambal belacan.

haha mana tak, semangat nak makan nasi goreng dengan sambal dengan ikan goreng macam petang tadi, bila air ikan sambal semua dah siap untuk malam pulak, tiba tiba tgk nasi dah spoiled.

meraung raung aku. nasib baik jie masak nasi putih. sebab aku dengan pikah dah malas pulak.

hehe perhaps semua dah bosan dengan lauk sama

kari masak lemak nasi lemak masak merah masak pedas sup tomyam paprik singgang asam pedas ikan taucu ish ish. ulang ulang benda sama je = =

masak 2 pot selalu setengah tak habis kadang kadang 4 orang

ni 3 orang 2 pot besar pulak, tak cukup kitorang makan sampai berebut.

hehehehe :)

seronok :D ok tu je nak cakap excited terlebih :P bye

arigatou ghozaimas :))

2011-07-07T07:31:00.003+02:00

never had the chance to thank the person who gave me this :)

thank you. i was being such a jerk

i should have thank you sooner kan :)

im gonna put a lot of pictures of me and friends here, in alexandria.

becauuuuseee im starting to love it yaw.

im starting to love the pantai, im starting to love my new housee, im starting to love the new section (yes all girls section rocks big time. ive experienced both. do i need to explain more?)

and naz dapat hadiah aku. the odds is, aku pergi beli hadiah tu dengan dia pulak -______-"

hampeh. aku pulak yang tanya dia

"nas balang mana comel? balang ni comel takkk? comel kann yang ni"

and a little bit of

"nasss nak amik mouse mana? yang hitam ni ke kereta? ok tak? kalau dapat kau suka tak?"

lol sekali betul dia dapat. ok sorry kalau kau tak sukaa. kekekekeee

you recognize this thing? yes the small pink and some green ones. sampai tercampak dekat egypt baru dapat makan macaroon ni selalu dekat malaysia dengan bersusah payah cari tak dapat pulak. lol. tapi manis pulak = ="

and the last itemmmm in this post, the must-eat menu for me lah, at coffee roastery. chicken tandooori/ guess cannot let go of the mamak back in malaysia hah? :P but seriously lah suka pulak makan, tapi kena bawak blackpepper sauce pergi lah kalau tak harapan aku nak makan. and the white sauce pasta dia sedap. although aku tak suka sebab nanti sure tak habis, sebab you know how it is with this white sauce kan, aku order jugak, walaupun tahu makan beberapa suap dah give up :P

ok dah shut up nina. baru sedar final epidemiology lagi 3 hari. gila apa? gila gila. eh final lagi 5 hari. mcq lagi 3 hari ni kerja malas backspace. hehehe. gila cuak. = = jangan lagha dah. ok bye :P

2011-07-06T15:47:00.003+02:00

Terlalu banyak persoalan yang aku nantikan jawapan,

Terlalu banyak teka teki yang jawapannya tak dapat aku keluarkan.

Terlalu selalu aku mengharapkan superpower supaya aku dapat baca semua yang tersimpan dalam kepala otak kau, dia dan mereka.

Bukan aku tak tahu semua itu tak mungkin

Aku sedar bukan aku sahaja malah semua.

Tapi aku bosan, aku malas, aku tak tahan.

Hidup dengan rasa bersalah. tapi tak mampu nak ubah semuanya

aku tak mampu atau aku tak mahu?

haih. asyik mengeluh. bila mahu bersyukur?

Jangan diikutkan sangat perasaan, nanti hati kau mati.

its coming again ;"(

2011-07-04T07:51:00.003+02:00

wahh dah lama tak update? well ive been busy lately. busy?

perhaps lah.

baru habis exam module respi kena masuk terus module epidemiology.

best? memang tak lah. i mean, i do love maths but to memorize all the advantages and disadvantages of each formula? HANDS UP I SURRENDER.

see this? yummy.

hehe so i want to thank Nadia, Mira and also Liyana for those deliciciciciiciouss muffins.

theh why four? lol i want to thank the anonymous who gave me the other one since i do not know who you are, and i hope you read this entry. hehe.

and a month to go before ramadhan. cuak lah kena puasa dekat sini. summer pulak? tapi tak sabar jugak selalu tengok dalam gambar je terawih sampai ke tengah jalan nak jugak tengok live kan kan kan? hehehe.

btw aku puasa sini 10 hari means aku balik hari kesepuluh puasa and aku cuti dalam 2 bulan

naiceee. yang tak nicenya tak boleh nak shopping sakan macam selalu sebab duit tak ada T.T and i have to start saving because i want to gooooo for holiday next winter break ;(

haaa and lepas tu sekarang tengah ada love exchange we're supposed to exchange gifts.

hehe macam macam aku letak selagi boleh sumbat = =. balang comel satu *nak jugak comel = = yang diisi gula gula daripada syera. lepas tu aku taruk mouse laptop. lol patut beli headphone kan ;"( lepas tu taruk key chain and then maggis and milos lol whats the point of putting those things pun aku tak tahu. is this present is supposed to be a rahsia? -.-"i dont know. siapa dapat lepas tu tak suka jangan marah diam diam sudah blame them for giving us such a short time to buy anything good. hehe.

alert! : jangan hafal last minute

2011-06-26T17:05:00.002+02:00

bila kena hafal last minute = =

terpaksaa buat macam ni T.T

my boy, so nice lah: mycoplasma; blood sputum nasopharyngeal lung biopsy

cantik nyee seluar luu : chlamydia; nasopharyngeal swab , sputum, lung tissue

Hai, nak curi pistol boleh?: H influenza ; nasopharyngeal swab, csf, pus, blood.

please ingat esok = =

all the best :D

2011-06-26T08:37:00.003+02:00

i was looking through my albums and found out the pictures i tooooook a few years back

and i was like " i seriously took this kind of SS picture? so embarassing"

"i really was this lame ke? "

and a little " did i really look like this -__________-?"

ouh all i can say is now i realize how broken i was.

and i hope when i do the same thing like 5 to 10 years from now,

that words wont be coming out of my mouth no more = =

mari insaf :P

and yeah i have a paper tomorrow and im freaking out

well im not that confident this time

its like nothing sticks in my mind

they just come and go

and i feel like crying . waaaaaaaaaaaa

but idk i tried already so whatever happens next is up to Him :)

goooooooooooooooooooooooooooood luck and all the best

xoxo.

together :)

2011-06-24T15:50:00.003+02:00

sedar tak sedar we've been together for almost 2 years now.

and whether we like it or not we're gonna stuck together for the next 4 and a half years

perhaps we don't see each other that often now,

i know we all have a new section and everything but thats not gonna change anything, i hope

teringat zaman mula mula kenal dulu. macam macam benda jadi. :D

i love you guys. haha kalau korang tak ada im not sure how am i ever gonna make it here :P

two years ago. and we're still together <3

such a regret

2011-06-20T15:33:00.004+02:00

well its not like me writing a very hateful post

but i can't help but to feel offended.

How come dude?

how come a simple goodluck. without even a single capital letter. without anything can annoy you that much?

how come?

and i really wished like, every name that came across my laptop and phone

its nothing personal

i didnt disturb you or anything. or maybe i did without even realizing?

well im sorry then

well i thought youre different. i respected you that much. always thought you were a great person, very nice indeed,

but i was wrong. i never really knew you. and i dont even want to

why do i have to know you in the very first place. its such a regret

its not about what you said.

its what how you made me feel about myself when you said those things.

ive been feeling inferior enough and i dont need you to make it worse.

you have officially succeeded. i finally hate you. congratulations

examm , again?

2011-06-19T08:07:00.001+02:00

i dislike opening here and opening there

not knowing what to read.

ishh, and i hate that when they ask weird questions,

and i went " errrrrrrrrrrrrr. bagi klu satu?"

when i have actually read about them

ishhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,

good luck good luck good luck

im dead meat

but imma try my best, imma put my best effort

hee :)

and this one is very nice indeed :)

one hope

2011-06-17T16:24:00.003+02:00

I feel embarrassed

It feels like the past is haunting me.

and i really need to forget the whole damn things.

Move on. the present is what matters.

hopefully.

it's just that with those memories, i become so fragile.

not confident, ashamed.

But i can say that i am finally getting better, hopefully again.

Bit by bit is what i can do now. Do whatever thing i am capable of doing.

For a better tomorrow.

And Oh, i've been strong for a couple of months.

but the sight of that one person is killing me.

stabbing me slowly from the back.

why can't you just go away.

why don't you just stay away.

i don't need you to break me into little pieces.

Again, i am in the exam mode.

And hopefully this short, or not so short period aint gonna make me become an ignorant.

I just hope it will make me feel closer to Him.

And the result doesn't matter.

it's how much effort i put on, the reason behind all of the struggles, the lessons i will learn after.

All the best, alexandrians :)

banyak banyak

2011-06-13T14:36:00.004+02:00

I have to say that im starting to like my new section.

the only all-girls class in the second year and its fun!

i mean, boleh bising bising. kecoh kecoh

im not saying kelas ada lelaki tak best.

but not as fun lah. tak payah nak jaga jaga hati sangat semua otak sama je. kan kan?

waiting for the lecture. sedih je semua kena bersila atas lantai = =

hari ini kami maroon :)

and yes aku dapat banyak gila cokelat minggu ni (!)

hasni bagi, lepas tu menang thunderbrain lagi. tambah sudu satu. still tak faham motif sudu tu.-.-"

esok dia yang dedications tu aku dapat cokelat kak eiffa dengan kak zana bagi. lepas tu ferrero pulak. balik ada orang belaja milka. tapi orang tu makan 1/5 cokelat tu tinggal kan aku dua row jelah kan. = =

macam best je bagi. dedications tu passing time lecture. mana lah sempat nak tengok semua = = tak dapat bagi sape sapee? by the time aku tanya " nak order!!" dia jawab "tak boleh dah!"

T.T

bila orang tanya "nak cokelat ke bunga" aku dengan serta merta jawab "cokelat!"

tapi sebenarnye jealous jugak tengok orang dapat bunga kan. hehe.

ehem ehem. perempuan je eh boleh bagi kat perempuan. :)

hehe sebab aku pernah cakap "bestnyee kalau dapat bungaa ;"("

jadi bila tak dapat kena lah perli kan.

paling sedih bila aku kena banding dengan nora elena pasal bunga ni.

"nora elena asik dpt bunga je tak mcm awak tade org nak bg bunga"

sedih tahuu.

yummyy :)

Pergi fathalla keluar duit je tapi alang alang tu mengada nak berjalan jalan.

dah lama aku nak cari cincin. hehe tangan rasa kosong je tak ada.

cincin aku yang ada dah hilang campak pergi mana tak tahuu.

bila jumpa yang cun + murah memang seronok habis

borong pulak. semua kedai aku masuk.

yang penting, murah gila babssssssss(!)

dari kosong terus penuh hehe :)

balik macam biasa aku pasang laptop

tapi aku tengok laptop aku ni pelik semacam pulak.

lama aku tunggu screen blank je. ahh nak menangis aku tiba tiba.

terfikir nak bedah tapi screwdriver tak jumpa penah aku cari dah tension dah

sepanjang petang aku tidur peluk laptop . hehe bajet sedih sangat lah.

tapi aku dah pasrah dah. dalam hati happy jugak laptop rosak tak ada lah melagha sangat exam nak dekat ni..

tapi assignment macam mana? practical?

tapi berkat kasih sayang aku peluk laptop masa tidur

esok dia aku pasang.

jeng jeng jeng. terus sihat.

i love you baby. muah muah :D

disebabkan toilet aku tengah banjir. aku tak dapat lah nak keluar hari ini

kena duduk rumah tunggu plumber.

balik balik piqah cakap

"nina ada orang bagi"

weeeeeeeeeee aku dapat bungaaa !!

seronok :)

tu lah jangan nak ejek orang sangat. kan orang dah dapat :) wee. suka suka

terima kasih banyak banyak

sayang orang yang bagi ni :D

and btw. aku teringin dah lama nak makan nasi goreng belacan ni

tapi tak ada cili merah . tak ada kicap cair.

sekarang dah ada. jeng jeng jengg.

dapat lah aku makan dengan berseleraa. :) wee i loike :D

banyak pulak aku membebel. exam minggu depan. ready? besol lah! doakan saya ye semua :)

ngeng :O

2011-06-11T02:12:00.002+02:00

ok can i take back what i wrote?

its that when youre having trouble with someone,

you tend to let go of everything without letting things cool down a little :O

and then you sleep and you wake up and realized

"what the hell was i thinking what the hell did i write in my blog(!)"

yeah so im taking back what i said.

ngeng je kan? boleh pulak macam tu

i am not that baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.

i dont care what she slash he slash anyone saaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaays

*no one really says anything pun*

i know how to feel gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood.

if i am my friend i'd loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee me

and i looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooove to eat.

heheheheee. :D

p/s: will you stop being so oversensitive nina D: pity other people :O

2011-06-10T19:03:00.004+02:00

i know im not perfect

i know i have so many defects,

even when i want to try to stop being someone who sucks in so many ways,

i just can't

icant blame the past, because its my own fault not anyone's

and i know i can't be angry or sad when i found out about it

that came from a friend, if a good friend thinks like that, how about others . must be worse :O

but i still have to accept that its my own fault kan,

even if i am my friend, i'd hate a part of me :)

im sorry im such a bad friend, a bad person,

i just don't know how to feel food about myself.

can someone please teach me how?

but its okay , i know it and i cant blame anyone for that so i have to smile no matter how suck it feels :)

ohhhh no

2011-06-09T17:23:00.006+02:00

so yeah exam is around the corner,

again and again.

respiratory ni agak susah. tapi tapi takpelah, taknak put high expectation pong

imma try my best and the rest is up to Him. kan kan :)

ngee. so i dont know why but i spent a lot of money this month. baru sepoloh hari tapi bajet sebulan aka LE500 aku nak dekat habis. lepas ni kena savinglah. tak pong suruh orang belanja :O

okok fine. the first one lah not gonna ask other people to belanje me when i still have money in my bank account :O tak baik tak baik tapi kalau nak belanja jugak boleh lah :D

my practical and assignmnt presentation is on the 18th and the 19th :O

and the mcq is on the 22th. kut lah im not sure myself.

but yes i hate exam fever, yes i hate study leave. i wanna watch a lot of moviesss lah ;(

and im pretty sure there's no holiday after the exam ;(

its kind of sad, isnt it,?

and yesterday i went to kapur.

i wanna watch xmen :( but its already late and theres no xmen at kapur only at plaza hijau ;(

huwaaaa. ok shut up

so instead i went to kapur to teman piqa buy her water cooler

its gonna be effing hot during summer i know i know

tapi saya dah balik malaysia ;) wee

si cantik manis bergaya LOL

ended up with a plate of smoked turkey panini :)

kental tak aku usung water cooler macam beg sampai tingkat lima :O

syok sendiri. haha

tilam angin jijie beli. sumpa sedap tido atas ni :O tak tipuu

ahhh the favourite one :) iced peach tea! <3

assalamualaikum :)

2011-06-07T17:35:00.003+02:00

haha seronok cakap assalamualaikum dekat qifok dengan hani

dapat cokelat free :)

kat qifok dapat cadbury ngee

yang dekat hani saje saje je sebab liyana tengah cakap kat depan pasal benda ni

sekali dapat kinder bueno :)

ngee tapi aku bagi salam ikhlas laaa :)

buat la lagi lama lama baru best.

hehe dapat cokelat free :)

:O

2011-06-04T00:09:00.005+02:00

i'm glad i was sent here.

a place where solat is performed in whatever condition you are in,

with whatever you're wearing as long as its suitable.

there's no such thing as "i cant pray because there's no musolla here of there's no telekung"

where people read al-quran in the train, while walking,

where there are way to many jemaah during solat terawikh or solat jumaat that the road is full with people because the big mosque is just not big enough for them.

where we are being constantly reminded about what to do and what not to do.

what is wrong and what is right.

keep on being reminded that this life here, is just a journey, for something bigger, and forever.

honestly, i dont know what sort of person will i become if i was not sent here.

if i didnt come here, and just stay in my so called 'beloved country'

im not saying that i am a good person now , heck no. im far away from being good

but at least i realize that there are so many things that i do, that i thought is right, is actually not.

not even close.

i hate to say that my country now is extremely corrupted and i am utterly ashamed and disappointed. ;(

p/s: kungfu panda 2 awesome lah weh. nasib ada. serious gelak macam apa je lagi lagi bila dengar budak budak kecik yang tengok tu gelak semangat comel comel je semua :)

"the only reason you are still alive is because i find your stupidity mildly amusing"

"well thank you but i find your evilness extremely annoying" :P

nak makangg

2011-06-01T16:32:00.004+02:00

nak makan bolognaise spaghetti

nak makan mcD.

nak minum peach iced tea costa

nak makan kinder bueno

nak makan ferrero.

wahh semua teringin bila boleh pergi makan ni ;(

btw module respiratory sangat menguji keimanan aku.

semua nak patho je. semua nak pharma je semua nak microb je

cuba bagi physio banyak sikit baru best :)

kalau sehari tu combination of dua dua, habis lah aku

satu hari belajar tak berbelas muka surat pulak kan?

lepas tu pharma dia bukan main lagi ayat taknak karangan pulak.

cik adik awak buat buku macam mana ni tak faham saya.

tak apa lah takkan semua benda nak senang, kan kan kan :)

ngee.

lepas tu banyak pakai physics mathematics pulak

bila prof tanya semua blur lepas tu

"this is easy you know, its basic physic!"

physic physic ni tak main la der dah lama aku campak mana aku tak tahu.

math pulak

"count count this is mathematics"

banyak pulak kira kira. otak dah karat dah part kira kira ni

nasib baik bawah ni aku ingat lagi :) weee

suka do matematik dulu. macam taknak lepas je sekarang macam ape je kira pun kena pakai tangan ke calculator ke

lepas tu ada orang bising "tak cool lah kau blog asyik sedih je."

hahahaa mana ada do, penat aku bagi explaination panjang lebar :D

aku kan cool macam barney. ok dah nak makan lapar boboi :)

doa. syukur

2011-05-28T21:55:00.006+02:00

So they organized an MRU yesterday,

it was fun lah to get along and everything

although only 3 members of our sc came :O

bagus la semua habis cepat.

and you know

one of the seniors said this, one of the hardest thing to deal with here is about feelings,

and even the pressure of studying cant beat that one :O

and i was like , so truee :O

but today when i come to think about it,

when i keep thinking and being depressed about anything that involved feelings,

i feel ashamed :(

Ashamed because our brothers and sisters in Palestine are dealing with even bigger and bigger problems.

while im thinking about forgetting, they're thinking about how to survive, how to keep on living without food and medications.

while im thinking about how tense i feel staring at the book all day long, they're thinking about how to they protect their country. how to protect their families when the stupid israels attack

while im thinking about how bad my heart hurts because of someone that i shouldnt even think about :O, they're crying so badly because their families are killed in front of their own two eyes. :(

i pray for myself for the family and friends but i keep forgetting to pray for them

its a reminder for me lah really ;(

but sometimes i know should be thankful with what i have, because other people are suffering more.

and comparing the thing that i thought is killing me to the things that are literally killing them

its nothing lah. not even a bit compared to what theyre going though

they survive, so heck for sure, no doubt i can :D

forget about that stupid problem lah its not even a problem. its not something to think about in the very first place because its wrong = =

p/s: sekarang result keluar module module. takut nanti belajar sebab nak result best :O. '

niat tak betul tu

tetapkan hati result belakang cerita kan kan.

*tazkirah teng ni haa :P

ok da boi.

Count on Me

2011-05-27T19:09:00.000+02:00

can i really?

pop pop pop :D

2011-05-27T00:08:00.004+02:00

aku rasa macam semua tahu je aku buat karipap ni haa. haha semua sebab aku update status ym :O

tiba tiba time lecture aku teringin karipap. memangdangkan sini bukan macam malaysia nak semua ada kat kedai

dan memandangkan aku selalu tak suka karipap yang dijual di kedai :O

aku buat lah bukan susah pun *tipu tak susah T.T

aku pergi pasar pukul 10 start buat 11 sampai pukul 4 petang baru 20++ siap :O

habis 2 movie pulak sambil buat tu

Dahlah aku buat sorang memandangkan semua tak ada kat rumah :O

teringat dulu time puasa kat rumah selalu menggedik suruh mak buat koripop

last last aku jugak yang kene guleng gulengkan doh tu dengan pengguleng.

tapi selalu haziq ngn hariz tolong sekali. apis tak tolong dia malas. hehe.

aku uli uli diorang pergi isi karipap tu. lepas tu gaduh sape punya paling lawa :O selaluu nina buat paling lawa oke :P

buat ramai ramai pun habes berejam bajet je nak habis awal buat sorang sorang T.T

petang stop pergi takafuh malam sambung buat.tapi malam dah ada konco konco yang membantu. aman damai jugak hidup aku :D ngee

dah la malam tu jugak kena masak untuk mru lagi. :O

lepas tu tak sangka aku ada bakat nak bentuk tepi tepi tu selalu buat kat rumah tak jadi :O

kat sini jadi. niceeeeeeee

okay anyway aku post ni sebab mak suruh post balik malaysia.

haa ni haa ada 5 cukup untuk semua nina dah makan portion nina kat sini ngee

ok dah adios :D

p/s: baru pertama kali merasa pms. orang cakap sikit, sakit hati , cakap sikit sakit hati

tapi aku sakit hati diam diam je takpe, kut :P lagipun takafuh cakap pasal sabar. dia cakap kalau marah kena sabar aku pun kena sabar lah kan kan kan :D ngee

jum semua main sabar sabar :) insyaAllah

kecewa lagi.

2011-05-24T23:07:00.004+02:00

kadang kadang orang yang baik dengan kau tu yang banyak sakitkan hati kau.

banyak kecewakan hati kau

maybe sebab kau tak expect dia akan buat macam tu kut?

kau expect dia akan ada je nak buat kau gembira balik bila kau sedih.

bila orang yang baik dengan kau pun keep on sakitkan hati kau.

tak henti henti. macam mana nak expect orang lain untuk tak buat macam tu?

even bila kau dah bersedia nak lupakan yang lama, tiba tiba benda sama berulang.

kecewa? kecewa kut. salah aku kut nak expect lain?

bila orang yang kau tak berapa nak baik tu yang berusaha nak gembirakan kau

kau jadi terharu. yang baik buat kau lagi jatuh, yang kurang baik, yang macam lebih memahami?

kenapa kau suka buat macam tu? kenapa sekarang kau suka buat macam tu?

kenapa kau jadi suka buat macam tu time aku tengah betul betul tak stabil

kenapa kau tak buat dulu time aku tengah stabil hidup bahagia aman damai

kenapa time kepala aku tengah runsing dengan macam macam kau jadi suka buat macam tu?

post kali ni kau tak perasan. ni memang untuk kau. sorry aku over over nak terasa ke apa. tapi entah dalam condition sekarang ni aku jadi lebih sensitive kut. kau yang patut faham lebih, tapi macam aku salah kut sebab nak harap macam tu.

maybe sebab dekat kau je kut aku cerita semua. salah aku jugak kau tak suka? tak tahu nak cakap? maaf bebankan kau aku tak buat lagi. out.

makan :D

2011-05-24T18:54:00.004+02:00

ex roommate sekarang dah jadi housemate :D

makanan yang mahal T.T

pencari pasal.tak pernah tak cari pasal

aku suka makan. lagi suka tengok andre makan licinnnnnnnnnnnnn sampai taknak lepas ikan tu walaupun kitorang nak balik dah. haha

aku dengan jijie makan separuh je pulak ikan tu. sotong satu pun tak habis.

kagum gila macam mana dia boleh licinkan semua. dengan nasi nasi aku dia bedal haha

to be frank dre, kau lah manusia pertama kat sini yang aku boleh cakap dengan tone aku yang sebenar sebab kaulah satu satunya manusia kat alex ni yang aku kenal yang perangai dengan cara kau cakap sebengong dan sebangang budak sekolah aku dulu. haha

ok taknak makan sini lagi dah pokai dah sehari T.T

rindu dekat korang :(

2011-05-23T15:42:00.004+02:00

Korang, aku rindu lah kat korang.

Rindu masa mula mula dulu masuk bilik, aku nak sangat pindah bilik

aku tgk korang mcm skema je time tu.

haha. aku ingat lagi first time makan sekali dengan korang first time duduk sekali dengan korang masa tk dengan asilah beli rubuk firah

pastu ajak aku dengan hafsah makan sekali

dah la lapar time tu bedal jelah. hehe

aku ingat lagi dulu time tak kenal korang. aku dengan Tk selalu gaduh pasal lagu

dia pasang lagu kuat, aku kuatkan lagi lagu aku. dia kuat lagi. aku kuat lagi lagi.

haha. ingat lagi gaduh dengan hafsah pasal katil. balik je dia tukar susunan katil. aku pulak panas time tu tukar tak bagitahu tapi lama lama susunan macam tu lah yang best luas stay sampai akhir tahun pulak.hehe

aku ingat lagi asilah suka main lukis lukis paint. pastu lawa pulak tu

tadi dekat kelas icdl aku main lukis paint pastu aku tanya syera

"cuba teka lukis lukis ni macam sape?"syera cakap macam budak tadika

aku jawab "macam asilah lahhh"

first time kita keluar sekali time nak pergi open house raya haji. aku taknak pergi tapi korang ajak. aku lapar. aku cakap ok lah jum. wewewe lepas tu kita pergi makan makan rumah orang sampai petang.

rindu jugak dulu time belajar malam malam mesti sembang sembang sekali. kadang kadang sampai menangis nangis emotional cerita. hahaha. macam macam cerita keluar.

semua benda kita cakap

tak ada lah bosan best je. tapi sekarang tak tahu nak sembang dengan sape dah ;( duduk bilik sorang sorang cakap sorang sorang :( tak ada cerita banyak banyak dah :(

ingat lagi aku balik je mesti "asilahhhhhhhhhhhhh tadi kann dot dot dot"

lepas tu tk dengan hafsah buat buat tak dengar je.

lama lepas tu kalau aku tanya " eh kau igt tak hari tu aku cerita dot dot dot"

asilah lah yang tak ingat. tk dengan hafsah yang ingat semua benda. padahal diorang yang buat buat mcm tak dengar. kau yang dengar. haha kau selalu tak ingat apa orang cerita.

ingat lagi first time kita semua try coffee roastery.sebab time tu semua kecoh pasal coffee roastery kite pun mengada nak try. tapi semua pilih menu tak sedap. pastu menyesal makan kat situ mahal. haha.

ingat jugak dulu semua saving gila gila gila nak mati. aku pun terikut sebulan belanja 700 genih je paling banyak. kalau pergi carrefour lawan sape guna duit paling banyak. hehe.lepas tu banding duit dalam bank sape yang paling banyak. haha selalu tk ngn asilah lah menang hafsah ngn aku kantoi sikit :P hafsah la suka shopping kalau orang beli dia pun nak jugak! hehe kire makan coffee roastery tu memang buat setahun sekali jelah haha

ingat lagi semua cakap kita asabiyah bilik sebab taknak keluar bilik. dah la pergi kelas hari hari sama sama. mula mula hafsah tak sebab dia dengan kawan ikip tapi lama lama lama lama dia pun join duduk memerap dalam bilik. hehe

ingat lagi setiap minggu aku download cite chuck pastu kita tgk sama sama

ingat lagi kita semua malas nak pergi takafuh.

lepas tu bila senior panggil suruh turun. kita tutup lampu buat buat macam tak ada orang dalam bilik lepas tuuu tengok chuck dalam gelap. haha

ingat lagi kita pasang bintang bintang glow in the dark dekat dinding atas bilik kita kan. lepak tu eksyen kat semua orang cakap bilik kita comel. hehe lepas tu excited sebab dinding comel kaler hijau kalau tutup lampu nak tidur ;(

ingat lagi masa MRU tu. semua tido sampai tengah hari taknak bangun pergi mru padahal satu floor kosong pergi MRU. satu bilik pulak tu semua ponteng. alamak kantoi dekat sini. hehe

ingat lagi masa nak balik dah kita tangkap gambar dalam almari asrama mara sebab nak tiru gambar super junior. hehe tapi kita buat tak smart mcm super junior pun.

ingat lagi aku selalu couplekan bubu dengan boncet lepas tu banding sape lagi comel. rindu bubu rindu boncet :(

rindu nak sorok boncet asilah. Tk ganas tak sayang bubu sangat mcm asilah sayang boncet tapi bubu hadiah birthday tk aku bagi jadi Tk kena jaga jugak tak kire.

ingat lagi gaduh dengan hafsah pasal siti nurhaliza sampai nangis nangis. haha suka sangat kau dengan dia kan.

ingat lagi time time aku masak selalu tak dengan korang. tapi time korang masak aku paling suka menyemak. hehehe. sekarang kena masak sorang sorang tak best :(

ingat jugak lagi dekat board tu mesti ada tulis sape next cinderella.

semua gaduh taknak jadi cinderella.

semua malas nak kemas kann :P

lepas tu kalau beli tembikai nak potong je TK cakap tak payah,

belah dua. amik sudu sorang satu pastu korek korek je tembikai tu makan.

haha best best first time aku makan tembikai macam tu

aku beli tembikai je ingat makan dengan korang.

wah :( walaupun semua dah pindah rumah aku tetap sayang korang.

aku tahu birthday korang dah lama lepas tapi aku nak bagi jugak sory lambat sangat. hehe

Buat si kawan;

2011-05-22T20:43:00.005+02:00

To ze friend who is in trouble with the feelings; :)

here's a little something for you;

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong, but sometimes it is letting go" — Herman Hesse

Jangan sedih sedih jangan tension tension. everything happens for a reason

If its meant to happen, then it will happen someday.

The best you can do now is pray :) Good luck and stay strong! :)

p/s: its amazing how one person can break your heart into little piecees :O

nak emo kejap

2011-05-19T20:20:00.004+02:00

bila jamuan ke tangkap gambar ke time semua nak racist tu

mula lah aku sedih sorang sorang.

semua nak tangkap gambar,

ex-sekolah sini lah ex sekolah situ lah. budak kelantan lah. budak kedah apa apa je lah.

asal budak kl tak racist weh? nak racist gak.

dekat sini, tak ada pun budak sekolah aku.

sekolah rendah ke tadika ke sekolah menengah ke, naah nada nil zip zero none.

senior ke apa ke sorang pun tak ada sekolah sama. :(

budak kelas aku sorang mansoura sorang zagazig. Ban aina asal korang tak masuk uni alex :(

ada sorang budak sekolah agama tapi sumpah aku cam muka je tak pernah tahu apa apa pasal dia. lol.

kbye

splendid(?)

2011-05-19T08:51:00.006+02:00

So yesterday we had our batch dinner aka, the splendiferous night.

it was nice it went smooth. it was fun lah, kut.

its nice to have events like this sometimes

but you know, sometimes i cant put my whole heart into something, and yesterday wasn't really my day.

but im one of the award receivers *

wink wink

but i feel like a loser going on the stage since my result drop like heck last sem ;(

but it doesnt matter lah.

;( *doesnt matter pun nak buat muka sedih gak. haha

but not everything depends on our result lah so really, it doesnt matter :)

the effort is more importanteee. (baru sedar semue ada but :P)

it feels like back when i was in high school except this time i wasn't wearing school uniform no more :)

and tolonglah sedar zaman high school dah berakhir and lets live in reality

now i have to compete with the best among the best and yeah its kind of exhausting really(!)

sampai result pun drop, padan muka :(

btw everyone was soooo stylish and all.

the girls were so gorgeous in so many styles of tudung

and the guys were, hot in their tuxedos and suits and baju melayu(!)

very hot indeed. LMAO

and yeah i started to see the faces of my batch since i really do not know most of them, really

especially the guys lah

and we went " weh sape tu? apesal tak penah nampak" most of the times.

and the nasyid leader's *you-know-who voice was aweeeeeeeeeeesome that my bulu roma kind of meremang for a while there.

ksp-ians

tablemates

lets do this again sometimeeeee :) lol ok thats it b

ye.

p/s: himym chuck glee season ni dah habis nak tengok apa lepas ni ;(

exam(!)

2011-05-14T08:33:00.003+02:00

You see, i know i haven't been updating?

busy? nehh/

its just that i never am able to concentrate with reading and revising when my laptop is around.

and since i realized that ive been extremelyyy lazy while exam is just around the corner, i asked my housemate to hide my laptop!

so my life without one started a few days ago and lasted for about a week when i finally asked for my laptop back because i need to do exercises and stuff (alasan!)

so i have an end of module exam in less than 3 hours (!)

and this study leave is just so lama that i cant stand reading no more T.T

wish me luck. :) adios

satu dua tiga berambus

2011-05-07T17:22:00.003+02:00

okay summer sudah tiba.

Tak best panas?

Semenjak aku encounter snow hari tu, aku memang dah kurang suka sejuk.

Takdelah menarik sangat pun.

Sekarang panas.

Memang siang panjang. memang puasa sampai macam nak pengsan kadang kadang.

Tapi kurang kurang aku boleh duduk bawah shower berejam. tenangkan kepala yang tengah serabut,

memang indah dunia dalam bathroom tu.

aku pun tak tahu sejak bila aku suka summer. sebelum ni memang aku, entah. tak nak bayangkan pun menghadapi summer.

Masalah dia sekarang, bila panas,

kepala aku pun sakit.

Hari hari pulak.

Bila kepala sakit, mood pun lari. emo tak semena mena.

aku pun tak faham

sebelum ni aku tak pernah ada constant sakit. demam pun jarang sangat.

dah 3 tahun tak demam panas (last form 5!)

ubat harapan lah nak makan. karang tolerance pulak.

Periksa? tak payah cakap. tak lah keluar tu senyum melebar.

Banyak jugak aku salahkan soalan. padahal diri sendiri tak cukup belajar.

tak apa, kita tawakal . Allah tahu yang terbaik :)

karaoke(!)

2011-05-05T00:07:00.004+02:00

Minggu ni (!)

dekat alex ni dahh menular merebak virus karaoke-ing.

nak buat macam mana, dekat egypt ni mana ada tempat karaoke.

so online pun jadi lah.

aku ni dah la suka karaoke apa lagi. sumbang pun sumbang lah janji enjoy. :P

memang dah macam rutin harian je, mesti karaoke dua tiga lagu, atau lebih

hehe untuk yang tak tahu, game ni dia macam kena compete lah. website tu akan determine sape yang akan menang karaoke tu, korang kena nyanyi at the same time lah, but no one will listen to you lah, except your housemates yang duduk bilik sebelah(!) *sorry korang :P

tapi semua bajet tak sedar diri lusa exam practical T.T

minggu depan mcq

sekali main memang tak lah satu lagu je. mesti sambung lagi sambung lagi

takpe karaoke karaoke jugak, study jangan lupa (hope so :D) ngee

moving on

2011-05-04T07:26:00.007+02:00

I don't know whether i was high under the effect of high dose of caffeine or what,

but not being able to sleep last night, made me think a lot about the old times.

so i sent a message to aina

and im-ed ban

when i say we were really close, trust me, we were, indeed.

just imagine we've been in the same circle of friends since primary school.

some from kindergarten, and ended up in the same secondary,same class or from kelas sebelah for years, stucked together and live near each other too. same faces everyday

now you understand why i don't know how to mix in a new group of hamosapiens(!)

i moved on. ze friends here rock big time too. its just that ive been with them for so long that its not easy to forget and accept that everyone has a new life now.

but as the saying goes, new friends are gold, old friends are silver. what i know for sure is, all of them are way beyond awesome :)

2011-05-03T14:54:00.002+02:00

There's so many things that i want you to know

So you understand how i feel

what im going through

and how hard I'm struggling with myself.

But i can't.

And it's going to be awkward if you know,

Because we're different.

In so many ways.

How we handle things, How deep we feel about something,

How sensitive i am with what's happening, some things that i take very seriously, and others don't,

Perhaps i overthink sometimes,

I think too much about everything

I think too much about what's going to happen,

how am i going to face things that's going to happen

and i have to say that it sucks

It's not fair you know.

Why am i the only only one who takes thing very seriously? who thinks and feels and wonders too much?

it's complicated. and i can't find a way to solve this.

adios

wait for me please :(

2011-05-02T15:36:00.003+02:00

Since i deactivated my facebook

i've lost contact with my highschool buddies.

rinduu :(

lepas habis exam aku activate kejap aku tegur sorang sorangg :(

the tale of BK. :(

2011-05-01T13:16:00.009+02:00

Hari jumaat tu aku menjalankan rutin mingguan membasuh baju

aku pun dengan semangat mengasingkan baju yang kena basuh dengan wash machine dengan yang kena basuh dengan tangan. antara yang basuh dengan tangan baju kurung favourites :D

yang ngeng jugak aku masukkan baju kena basuh dengan tangan tu dengan baju hard rock aku beli kat cairo. of course, the cheap one, nak pakai tidur je kut.

pagi tadi aku ushaa lah baju tu sebab semalam kelas balik lambat terlupa pasal baju tu.

aku angkat je tengok tengok baju kurung aku yang bewarna turqoise

tu, dah ada colour merah!

aku dahh nak menangis dah.

tapi aku cool je.

lepas tu aku pun gosok gosok tak hilang lagi.

takpelah, aku rendam dulu.

aku google google.

orang cakap google tu pandai, aku pun ikut lah cakap dia.

dia suruh rebus baju tu, jadi dengan lafaz bismillah aku pun rebus lah baju tuuuuu.

lama gila aku rebus tak hilang hilang jugak

aku teruskan dengan langkah terakhir, clorox baju tu. 'what's the worst that can happen?', dengan confident aku cakap kat diri sendiri.

lepas tu aku masuk bilik. dalam 30 minit dalam bilik tu ada benda terjadi dan secara tiba tiba aku jadi tersakit hati dan sedih yang amat sangat, macam nak menangis je dengan seorang manusia yang dirahsiakan identitinya.

aku pun hentak hentak meja kuat kuat.

lepas tu aku pergi toilet nak tengok perkembangan bajuu

aku angkat angkat, baju tu dah jadi.

jeng jeng jeng

KALER PUTIH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAA aku pun menangis tersedu sedu satu rumah dengar!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa baru pakai 2 kali baju tu!! 2 kali i repeat. dah lah aku sukaa

terkenang kenang memori dengan baju kurung tu

kalau baju biasa takpe jugak, ni baju kurung(!)

damn sejak bila aku suka baju kurung ni? hehe sejak datang egypt lah :)

ok apesal ada smiley aku tengah tension!

lepas tu aku cakap kat amie

"aku rasa ada hikmah dia. Allah bagi baju tu rosak lepas aku sakit hati sedih macam nak nangis dengan orang tu sebab taknak bagi aku sedih dah. skarang baju rosak sakit hati aku dekat baju tu lagi banyakkkk lemon lemon lemonnn dari dekat orang tuu. kan kann. baik aku sakit hati kat baju dari kat orang"

hehe.

nanti aku balik malaysia nak beli banyak banyak baju kurung ganti baju ni :(

see betapa sadisnya keadaan baju ni sekarang :( macam ada spot of hemorrhage + thrombosis + occlusion leading tu rupture of aneurysm :(

ok pardon gambar ss tapi ni je gambar dengan baju ni yang aku ada :( see? this thing the-tangkap-gambar-guna-webcam-sebab-kebetulan-tengah-bukak-komputer-sebelum-pergi-kelas does not always happen. only happens when i likee that bajuuu now that its gone i have no reason to live

*always exaggerating :(

adios

Tolong sikit boleh?

2011-05-01T07:45:00.003+02:00

I have an advice for you,

*Please imagine as if im talking to myself

i'd like to advice you so that

You can continue sleeping all day long,

Please and please continue study for minutes then meronggeng for the rest of the hour.

Pleaseeeeeeeee when you mood is gone, go watch movie, then come back home late at night(!)
And continue looking at the watch constantly in the lecture imagining what you're gonna do when you get back home.

And yes, think about other things during your lecture, that's gonna help you in your exam

And be lazy. online a lot. its okay that you don't study that much and your result is gonna turun some more. nice kan?

And keep doing thing that you are not supposed to do :( DO ITTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!

*and pleaseee note the sarcasm.

-aku berambus-

ze karamella

2011-04-29T13:14:00.003+02:00

It's been a long time since I last talked about ze karamella! aka, the smart circle.

or the cute circle. as you like *gaya prof cakap

so since its been a long time jugak since we last had our sc, we decided to have one .

At first we wanted to go to the bahr but since, idk, it was ester's day. idk how to spell it, the plan was cancelled and the sc was held at kak zana and kak aifaa's house. the coolest and the awesomest kakak sc evahhh.! lol/

and it was also Nas's birthday. Happy 20th Nas! :) dah tua dah kau. hehe

meet the awesomest sc on the entire planet, ouh no, its wayyy beyond awesome(!)

kek pisang :D hee

ze birthday girl

the awesomest one *sophie and ain missing

ouh btw kami kembar hari tu. tudung putih,kardigan hitam, seluar jeans (!) kau tiru aku! :P

lintas lagi

2011-04-28T13:40:00.003+02:00

baru balik kelas.

"mumkin u-turn"

"ana aizah hush yamin"

aduh pakcik ni, taknak u turn pulak aku mana reti lintas jalan macma mana ni macam mana ni

kereta bukan main banyak lagi mampus lah aku.

okok takpa kau kena kuatkan diri.

"meshimeshi. hena bes"

aku pun keluar.

aku tengok kereta. tengok jam. pukul 1. memang time banyak kereta pun ni.

semua stok nak pergi lunch kut.

Aku pun usha lah keliling. mana tahu ada orang arab nak lintas boleh aku tumpang sekaki.

lepas tu aku nampak makcik tua.

macam cakap dengan aku

aku tak faham tapi dari gaya macam tanya aku nak lintas ke?

aku pun angguk lahhhh.

lepas tu aku pergi dekat dia, lepas tu dia pegang tangan aku.

'pergh makcik ni nak suruh aku lintaskan dia ke? aku pun tak pernahh berjaya lintas sorang. selalu sampai bebelas minit aku tunggu orang yang nak tolong aku lintas T.T"

aku pun takpelah buat muka cool sebab makcik tu macam risauu dah lama nak lintas tak dapat.

lepas tu dia tarik tangan aku

aku dalam hati " makcik! banyak kereta niiiiiiii jangan lah lintas lagi! T.T"

tapi takkan nak cakap. aku buat muka cool lepas tu tunjuk tangan twit tu stop semua kereta yang tengah lalu. walaupun ada teksi hampir langgar, makcik tu jerit " istanna istanna"

cantek ah makcik. sampai tengah jalan aku terfikir

'eh kejap. dia ni nak suruh aku tolong dia lintas ke? dia tolong lintaskan aku? haaaa aku pun tak sure'

lepas tu lorong second dia tarik aku lagi. time ni kereta dah kurang sikit dah. nasib baik.

lepas tu dia cakap syukran

sah sah lah aku tolong dia lintas

wah bangganya aku. bukann je aku lintas sendiri hari ni. siap menyumbang kepada pelintasan orang.

aku dah maju aku dah maju yay :D

come back.

2011-04-26T14:49:00.004+02:00

Well i miss babbling in the blog

cause i've been busy lately.

I know that i should be busy studying but it seems that its not because of that,

HELLO CAN SOMEONE PLEASE SLAP ME ON THE FACE AND WAKE ME UP
GO STUDY LAH WEY!

So basically i did nothing during these 5 days holiday,

I ate and ate and ate. i slept too much, revised a little, cooked and cooked, buat makan makan, went to people's house and eat some more (!)

If you want me to be happy, just GIMME SOME FOOD AND I'LL SMILEE LIKE A FOOD! oups fool. my bad, :P

and i would like to say alhamdulillah and thank you Allah for everything that He gave, everything that He's giving and everything that He's gonna give.

Because you know, its just that sometimes we think too much about things that we dont have (!)

and not being thankful for way too many things that we already have.

and i'm happy that i was given the responsibility to do something that i actually loike so i can do it with penuh keikhlasan. at least im contributing something to the community lah not just menyusahkan everyone. kan kan kan kan?

BTW MANY MANY PEOPLE ARE GETTING MARRIED AND IM GETTING EXCITED

trolololol.

excited macam aku pulak nak kahwin :P

you know, its just that them getting married make me feel so matured and grown up

its like im now entering the adult phase im not a little kid who depends on people for things. :)

hee semua semua kahwin lah jugak. kahwin lah kahwin laa ye sebab kalau nak tunggu aku memang harapan lahh :P

suka pergi kenduri kawan :) padahal baru sekali = = tape lepas ni banyak kali lagi akan datang.

im pretty sure about that.

end

Arigatouuu

2011-04-23T09:01:00.005+02:00

First I would like to thank you guys for coming :)

And i was happy that my first try with the mee bandung recipe i found on the net worked(!)

but i had to cook twice or thrice and altered it so many times because of the small periuks T.T

Thank you housemates for ze mashed potatoo and ze cakes . 4 of them, to be exact.

Thank you everyone :) ngee lain kali datang lagi meshi? :D

tak mahuu dahh.

2011-04-20T21:55:00.005+02:00

Kalau boleh aku tak mahu jumpa kau/ tengok kau/ interact dengan kau sampai bila bila

Not because aku rasa lain ke whatever shit no no. im neutral im cool im okay now tak rasa apa pun perhaps sebab aku dah tired plus tak tahan dengan orang yang overthink padahal tak sampai tahap tu pun dan aku rasa macam, diperbuat sampai rasa tak berguna. i've had enough.

its just that aku segannnnn gilaaa nak mati gilaaa siot benda macam ni jadi :(

apehal laahh boleh sampai tahap ni.

daripada diam diam terus ada konflik, sikit.

but still, aku segannnnn weh tolonglahhhh,

aku rasa diorang fikir aku ni patheticc gila,

kesian gila

padahal, tak rasa apa pun T.T

aku rasa macam malu lah. malu malu maluuuuuuuu gila nak mati dengan benda bodoh tu.

T____________________________________________________T

ze new house.

2011-04-18T16:59:00.003+02:00

dapur. pardon the mess. tak kemas lagi >.<

living room

ze bathroom

afiqah's

amie's

toilet number 2

jie's

mine :)

yay one more step.

2011-04-18T02:17:00.004+02:00

im very proud of myself indeed,

that i actually formatted my own laptop.

Without asking for the guys help.

Yes, a girl sometimes is capable of doing thing herself.

Although i didnt really formatted it since i used the hiren's disc i have. :D

im kind of exaggerating eh? ya lah because everytime our laptop is broken we have to think hard " to whom i should send this?"

cant exaggerate much because if i do, the next time my laptop is broken and i cant fix it they won't help me :P

p/s: keep playing video and sounds automatically even when i closed every single thing it kept playing = = making noise and everything. ym text blank. and stuff. i hate virus.

new house :D

2011-04-15T17:55:00.005+02:00

So yeah i really wanted to go to that majlis keraian raja sehari because i soo like seeing the newlyweds together . :P

but you know, something came up and we had to go pay for our new house
which is, wait for it - awesome. big time.

You know the owner of the house is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice she even scolded me a little for wearing jeans. She said she likes our traditional cloth , well, everyone does. and she said i was influenced by the egyptians and all and its hard to convince her that i do wear baju kurung most of the time (!)

keeps saying how disappointed she is with egyptians nowadays for not being true muslimin and muslimat. she even said we are way better :) ngee

LOL. and you know, the house is kinda big, and comfy. and she even cuci every single sofa in the house, and everything. she even buys the mattress even when there's one, but its the thin one and she wants to replace it with a new thick comfy one. even we said NOOO YOU DONT HAVE TO so many times, she insists that its her responsibility.

and you have to know that the rent cheap. very cheap indeed. :)

and you know usually during akad we have to pay the taa'min and the simsa and all but this one,
she doesnt even want the takmin. or anything. Just the rent.
and you know during the akad, we need the sign of a witness
then she said Allah is our witnesss. we dont need anyone's sign on the paper.

we voted for the room just now. i was hoping so badly for room 2 and voila, i got it!
yay yay i have my own room finally :)

well i hope everythings gonna be okay and nothing bad is gonna come up insyaAllah :)

Thank you Allah for the nikmat :)

moving out.

2011-04-14T19:24:00.003+02:00

So insyaAllah we're moving out the day after tomorrow.

I mean its kind of a shock. we found a house yesterday and they want to move as soon as possible. that is, this saturday lah.

Jijie has packed all of her stuff , well me? being the lazy brat ive always been, im making zero progress
nada nil naah.because. i . am. so. effing. lazy. yeah. true. story.

but you know im looking forward to having my own room. weeeee
because because i don't know. im used to having my own.
if i win the undi lah. haha but one of the rooms are big. Big enough to divide it into two.
So basically we're gonna have four rooms lah. Just the one room is only gonna be separated by an almari. A VERY BIG ONE. well i hope so.

anyway, just pray that i will start packing. hehe because packing is not even included in my 2 days holiday schedule. gahaha. adios

new new. mari mari :D

2011-04-12T22:19:00.006+02:00

i just have to show this

since i couldnt figure out exactly what was wrong last sem, imma improve myself in every aspects insyaAllah. its because i suck in so many things that i couldnt figure out which one exactly that caused my failure. perhaps all of em :O

so one of the things that i knew i have to do is buy a new chair and meja because the old one made me so unproductive, so sleepy and all.
Now that i have a new comfy table and chair I can sit in so many different position . :P and its soooo excitingg!! ngee

Hee im feeling good today. I know Allah made that thing happened for a reason, fosho dude! finally I feel that the semangat has finally come because i feel so malas this semester and the malas has finally gone a bit and i hope thing thang continues and please, not only for today.
I dont want the same thing to happen twice. please, nooo. traumaaa :O

You know i kind of feel ashamed of myself. of how i responded yesterday. deeply embarrassed with ze housemate, afiqah, and ze bff, gemok :( because you know they 're facing a bigger challenge yet they were so calm and all while my challenge is wayyyy too little compared to theirs yet i complained too much. to them pulak tu :( wah i wish i could turn back yesterday and undo what i did :( i was being such a jerk kan? :(
but all the challenges Allah put us in is to show that He loves us :) Alhamdulillah
I'm sorry and im so proud of you guys. :D i know so well that you can do it im putting my 100% trust on you :D

And forgive me O Allah for being such an ungrateful person. Insaf :( Tobat :(

MEJA BARU I LIKE :)

wee :)

2011-04-12T07:09:00.002+02:00

ok i have to like cover up what i did yesterday

semalam aku sedih pasal result
tapi semalam.
aku tau kenapa aku tau kenapa! sebab perhaps aku fikir sangat apa orang fikir kut.
kalau aku sorang je hidup mesti aku tak kisah.
hehe lepas tu lepas tu perhaps aku rasa mcm apesal aku teruk sangat cns padahal aku cam jawab sumpah rasa best je jawab exam LOL tu lah jangan confident sangat lain kali

tapi lepas bangun tiba tiba je
"apehal aku sedih? ok lah tu doh kau lulus!"
weeee aku lulus.
tiba tiba macam. bersyukur gila pulak.
tak sedih pun. sikit sangat la tapi sedih tu :)

kalau atas je karang tak ingat Allah, leka.
ini baru wake up call. baru aku terasa macam semangat nak belajar.
sebab sem ni aku malas. gahahaha.

ok dah. end. jangan emo emo
p/s: housemate, bff, jiran belakang jangan sedih sedih :) we'll try our best this semester jum study sama sama! ngee

sedh

2011-04-12T01:06:00.003+02:00

turun menjunam :(
sangat kecewa. sedih gila pulak.
sem lepas sem paling aku suka, aku rasa aku faham and all. daripada sem before tu
tapi tapi. result aku turun banyak sangat :(

lepas ni tak payah pergi library lah
dulu tak pergi library boleh je bila pergi jadi teruk pulak :(
lepas ni tak payah lah nak belajar je tak buat ape
petang enjoy malam study mcm dulu jelah :(

ni ujian. before this selalu wonder bila masa aku akan turun. sampai jugak
perhaps ada hikmah dia
perhaps Allah nak bagi lepas ni.

p/s: sebab tu aku tak suka korang cakap aku ni budak excellent sebab bila aku tak dapat, mesti orang pertikaikan. benci . benci. benci. sekarang dah tak ada E dah, bagus, jangan expect ape ape lagi dah :(

can i have this please? :(

2011-04-11T08:12:00.005+02:00

This! This! I want this one like so badly!
You know forget about the dslr. now this one is the number one thing that i want!
Gimme one please! okay to be honest i dont know whether i should buy one.
it costs much cheaper than the dslr and way cooler of course!
you know i don't mind having a one and a few numbers after that missing in my bank account for this stuff.
i seriously don't.

Ive always wanted to play this thing. But you know, i never really had the chance to.
Because i don't know. I never put much thought into it -.-
but you know yesterday i said to myself " dude? why can't you have this? you can!"
im always jealous with those who can really play this thing. damn.

and you know these past few days, my friends, you know who you are keep showing about how they can play songs. since they just bought it. no. he bought it. but they've been using his :P

Everytime they succeeded in playing a certain song, i feel like screaming "mana aci!!!" tapi tahan je. haha but you know, they're learning and i want to learn too :(

i dont know how to read the notes but come on, benda boleh settle right?
im just afraid that if i spend too much time with that thing, imma throw my other more important responsibility down the longkang and simbah it with air. pushhhh habis hilang semua.

lol im just afraid thats gonna happen.
thats why i decided even if im buying that thing, imma buy it during holiday.
But still, i don't know for sure whether i should wait, or, should i not buy it? :((
BUT I WANT IT!!!

BLAME THEM FOR MAKING ME CRAVE THIS THING!
ke kau marah aku tiru kau beli ? :(

p/s: you know, you have to understand that i wanna save so badly since my money has turun menjunam because of stuff lately. i wanna save because i have a certain things that i want. that im saving for. i dont want to spend a lot sum of money for something that i think should not be spent for because im sure there's some other ways? :( please understand.

erk

2011-04-07T22:58:00.002+02:00

ada orang bagitahu ______ yang nina gaduh dengan ______

and i went. " hahhh???"

cik adik, cik abang, cik kakak ini bukan zaman sekolah saya nak gaduh gaduh tarik rambut kutuk kutuk tak puas hati. that was so high school lah = =

terasa macam teroffended. im not that childish nor im not that bitchy untuk gaduh sebab benda benda bodoh yang tak berapa nak bodoh. :(

ok dapat berita sedih tadi :( tapi cool sudah.

maamouraa with sectionmates :)

2011-04-04T23:02:00.006+02:00

ok remember i told you before that i hated my section because it was so racist? oh did i tell you or did i just put it in my phone? = =

ok whatever it is im taking back my statement because my section rocks!
hahahaha
itulahhhh cakap tak serupa bikin.
but whatever yeah perhaps i still do not know like, half of the names but heck, i know their faces now at least.
and we hung out at maamurah last week and they all brought like super duper deliciousss food and i loved it!

hehe jijie and i were the first to arrived when we actually thought we were late (!). and we were like, "duh kata 8? dah lapan suku?"

and one by one started to arrive. and here are the pictures :)

main beskal wee

turned out playing killer was really fun!

impian naik atv tercapai . lol

suka ini gambar sebab nampak orang tangkap gambar haha

cocktail sedap. minggu ni nak buat :D

kek roti menda ntah sedap kak nusaibah buat :D

wee gambar group :D

London vs Vienna

aina ngan saya punya swatch. kami berdua gila swatch. kami berdua dapat swatch as birhtday present :D ngee lepas ni dslr eh aina?

suka gambar skema! tapi saya takde :(

the first after us

gambar ss while waiting for the girls = = jangan condemn kami bosan

ini pantai dia. stunning right?

and yeah we also wear the same colour to class once a week. last week pink and next week? well lets just wait for the vote.:D hee

apa mahu buat? :(

2011-04-03T20:00:00.001+02:00

eternal dilemma :

knowing it can't stay this way since its wrong. very very wrong. yet am not capable of letting go :(

friends.

2011-04-02T16:37:00.005+02:00

You know, its not easy to find someone who can stick to you no matter what.
its hard to find a friend to whom you can tell all your problems to,
who never gets bored listening to the same old stuff the same old problem.
to whom you can say whatever you want to say without worrying that she/he might think pelik about you whatsoever.

It's not easy to start being friends with someone.
it doesnt feel that good being with people that you have to please. that you feel awkward being with
that you can't utter words when youre with them

Its good to have friends that you can say anything to
that you always have something you can tell.
that you can hug and cry on their shoulders.

as im getting older, its getting harder to find good reliable friends.
since everyone is spending too much time on themselves and less time together
like people used to do during the old days :(
because everyone has his/her own commitments, tasks and responsible.
its hard to find a good friend in 2 years. because two years are just ain't enough to bond the friendship to the highest level
And it is even suck-er when you finally have that good friendship but then you have to end it for a greater good.
even when you cry so hard, you can't stop thinking about the good old days,
the times you spent together, the stuff you bought, the feelings and all the smiles and laughs shared

sometimes i hope i can find a new best friend here, someone close to me someone i can share everything with, sometimes i hope my best friends are here with me but they are all so far away and sometimes i hope i don't have to end a good friendship but shit happens and im gonna have to accept it :(

people come and people leave. but please, try your best to stay :)

discount please?

2011-03-31T18:31:00.004+02:00

Cara mintak diskaun dengan pakcik arab dengan berkesan

Buat muka comel anda dan juga muka kesian campur muka berkerut macam nak menangis kalau tak dapat *penghayatan sangat penting di sini* sambil cakap

"tahfid shuwaiya mumkin (kurang sikit please)" dengan nada terdesak.
"ana talabahhhhhh(saya student pulak)" juga dengan nada macam nak menangis

80% dia akan jawab "meshi meshi' dengan muka comel jugak

hehehe.

and oh. its actually nice when people you know, not that close to, treat you like a friend, say things and do things that makes you feel valued. and it sucks big time when the people that you think are the real and the best dont make you feel valued. how come/? its supposed to be the other way round kan?

2011-03-28T19:54:00.002+02:00

Rasa macam nak jerit sepak sepak semua benda. :(

tiba tiba emotional. nak cakap pms memang bukan lah.
duduk sini selalu macam tu.
tiba tiba je rasa macam kosong :(

wah benci :(

otak 3 bulan tak pegang buku macam ni lah
rasa susah sangat nak hafal.
rasa susah sangat nak bagi yang hafal tu lekat kat kepala
kalau hafal pun dah cakap awal awal dah "ha karang lupa la tu"
Ya Allah kuatkanlah ingatan aku ;(
Jauhkanlah aku daripada benda benda melalaikan.

La Tahzan, Innallaha ma'ana
Jangan sedih, Allah bersama kita.

Jangan sedih nina. Allah ada dengan kau :)

merepek

2011-03-27T07:03:00.002+02:00

So class has started.
I dont know whether i should feel excited or sad.
Im worried about everything
mostly worried about the result thats comin' out
and worried that im not capable of remembering everything

haish. but yesterday's class was fun. it was epic.
Thanks for Dr Ayman because he always makes the class exciting and interesting that i cant wait to go home and study back everything. Yes, only with him and some other lecturers.

aaaah! it sucks when you try to figure out everything but it just doesn't work
Stop thinking too much, brain and heart! ( i know that heart doesn't think but in this case, screw the facts)

Go go nina. forget all those bitches in you that are trying to rip you off.
Nice. I know they're going away.

end.

oh enough already

2011-03-24T14:07:00.003+02:00

so everyone's been asking

sup with your house. yo what's up bro. sup?

well nothing's up. nothing is up im sayin'
its just that we simply wanna move.

"you wanna move?? oh dear why? whyy?"

its nothing personal really. its just ~~some internal conflict thats been happening for a while now~~ no no. i wish i could say that but no. its just that this house is freaking small. and i just wanna feel comfy dude. is that wrong?????? is wanting to feel comfy wrongg?

but there's no house available currently. oh no. there's one!
one thats on the eighth floor. EIGHT im sayin'. and i can't stand climbing the stairs everyday and everytime. no no, imma be thinner and thinner until all the fats im havin' are sucked by the . uhm? glycolysis?

so we're still on our way finding a new one. oh this is frustrating pulak.

and and yeah we even told mama about this although we kind of rasa bersalah because she's been nice and all but heck, we wanna live . blease. blease.

and she went like " the owner of the house said we told him we wanna live here for 4 years and stuff thats why he changed the tiles and everything and went . no no dude. you cant leave. at least not for a year more, bleasee ok blease."

* note that i translated the whole thing so he didn't really say it that way. meshi?

and oh no dude we didnt say nothing and we aint stayin'
whatever you say as soon as we find a new house we're leaving. period!

thank you mama and the sons and the menantu and family for being nice. yeah you guys rock! but the owner of the house doesn't rock. at all.

peace y'all

Diamlah kau.

2011-03-23T09:19:00.004+02:00

Ini yang aku bosan bila result spm keluar.

Semua stok sibuk nak bergaduh sekolah sapa lagi hebat.
Macam lah mereka yang menyumbang. Padahal dah bertahun tinggalkan sekolah.
Semua sibuk nak gaduh sekolah aku lagi hebat lah
sekolah aku nombor satu lah.
Sekolah aku kalahkan sekolah kau lah

Nasib baik aku sekolah harian. Tak pandai hebat semua macam sekolah lain lain kaann.
Tak ada nak kisah pun sekolah aku lagi hebat dari sekolah kau ke
Nak frust sekolah aku ranking jatuh ke
Sekolah aku nombor 100 ke 1000 ke.

Yang penting diri sendiri, usaha sendiri. result sendiri.
Kalau kau work hard, sekolah kau nombor 1000 pun kau hebat jugak
kalau kau malas sekolah nombor satu pun result kau tak nombor satu jugak.
Kalau nak bising pasal ranking jugak
balik lah sekolah jawab balik spm. Sumbang kat ranking tu.
Pastu gaduh lah puas puas siapa lebih hebat = =

aku tak tahu kenapa tapi bila diorang buat macam tu aku terasa macam kami kami yang sekolah tak top top macam tu rasa down. rasa macam yelah korang hebat kami tak. tak pernah pun masuk ranking ni.

Nak gaduh jugak diamn diam sudah tak payah buat tempat open semua orang boleh baca.

Kepala yang dapat result, yang cemerlang tu tahniah. teruskan usaha. jangan terlebih confident. Dekat universiti tak semestinya yang atas kekal atas. Usaha bagi terus di atas

Dan kepada yang kurang berjaya, jangan risau. Terbukti dah mereka yang result orang cakap kurang ni lah yang buat result gempak di universiti. Semua bergantung kepada usaha dan azam.

Semoga berjaya semua

2011-03-22T10:47:00.002+02:00

Finally arrived in Alex. Im feeling a lil different and im not sure why though.

Some stuff missing well i still hope mama's keeping them and they're safe and sound ;(
plain boring. i don't know what to do. I dont know what movie should i watch.

Am going to carrefour to buy some stuff. Im hungry and i dont know what should i eat.

Kind of a nice start, heh? Besol lah!

Ze unplanned one

2011-03-20T05:21:00.005+02:00

So everyone keeps on writing about their last days in malaysia. and i haven't updated mine.

So here i am doing the typical thing everyone does :)))

So I had my last breakfast in Malaysia ; Roti canai.

Have always loved one. Pair it with kari ikan, its gonna taste superb! Have always disliked dhal. not dislike actually but it doesnt taste as nice as curry lah :D

The unplanned holiday went okay. Minus the fact that I don't eat that much because..
because.. I dont know. i don't know.

So it's good because i get to meet my family, siblings, old friendsss and zee cousinss.
became an unplanned pengurus bunga telur for my neighbour's wedding.
Have always loved this kind of things :) i love kenduri. I dont really like going to kenduri of someone i don't know but imma like it if i become a part of it :)

went meronggeng with ze siblingblingblingblingssss although one is still missing i still haven't meet my brother because he's in indonesia currently. its been 2 years. 2 years dude.

get to meet Joleng. The cute cat that has a son already. Yes that annoying little kitten that keep playing with my foot while im sleeping = = Now im brave enough to sleep with Joleng and its kind of amazing since i was kind of afraid of cats before.
gahahaa

Meet Joleng, ze cat

and meet ze annoying little brother

the one that goes

" kakyanggg, nak lima ringgit"
"Belikan makanan kucing, kakyang baik kan pleasee please"
"nak beli seliparr"
and the list goes on.

bab membodek nombor satu!

the big brother is not available in pictures. since dia busy di utp. gah hah hah.
okay end

and yeah i went to Sunway Lagooooooooooooooooooon and it was superb!
Definitely am going there again next holiday. hehe

So im heading to klia in the evening since Mara wants us to be there at 7
at 7??????????????????? Have to wait a few hours there lah nampaknya.

And fyi my flight is on the 21st aka tomorrow at 12.30 am. AM.
So byeeeeeeeeeeee byeeeeeeee Malaysia! :)

Sunway Lagoooooooooooooooooooooon

2011-03-18T05:41:00.006+02:00

Semalam merupakan hari yang sangat menyeronokkan dan memenatkan.

Akhirnya impian aku sekian lama tercapai juga. Jutaan terima kasih kepada Qistina kerana membantu aku menunaikan impian tersebut.

Aku hampir berputus asa malam itu apabila semua orang sibuk. sangat sibuk.
Ada yang baling kampung, teman adik di rumah, baru keluar tadi, demam, dan segala.

Aku ingat pergi berdua itu bosan. Tapi aku salah. it was awe-wait for it- someeeeee

Tak payah beratur panjang mahupun menunggu orang
Tak membazir banyak masa
Tak bergaduh bercanggah pendapat nak main apa. :P

Walaupun banyak dugaan menimpa seperti

-Semua orang sibuk tak dapat join :(
-Qistina jalan kaki pergi lrt
-sampai lambat
-Makanan dan minuman tak boleh bawa masuk. padahal kami dah beli stock makan. terpaksa menebalkan muka makan nasi lemak bungkus di JCo.
-Bila nak main game yang pertama, baru sedar tak boleh bawak masuk beg. Terpaksa turun jauh sampai bawah mengembara mencari loker just to know that loker belakang tempat tadi je = =
-Penat beratur untuk roller coaster tiba tiba hujan. Tutup, maka kami pun berambus. Pusing bawah sekejap naik balik dia dah bukak balik :)
-Jauh mengembara nak main go-kart baru teringat purse dalam beg (!) Terpaksa patah balik jauh nak mati ambil duit, dan patah balik semula = =
-Hujan pukul 4 setengah. Ada satu game yang aku nak main tapi aku tak sempat main :(

Oh btw ini yang kami main :

Main pelampung2 turun
Roller coaster
Kapal pusing pusing
Flying fox
Kayak
Panah
Go Kart
dan lain lain

Pukul 4 setengah hujan pula, malas mahu tunggu + aku dah penat tak payah cakap lah
Rasa macam nak tidur kat situ.
Panas nak mati, rasa macam nak terjun dalam pool malangnya kami tak bawak baju
Walaupun Qistina kata rendam je nanti main main lain kering lah baju = =
Dia dah basah lenjun boleh lah cakap macam tu. hehe

Kami keluar masuk scream park
Disebabkan aku ni penakut lah juga + fikir banyak sangat aku jadi cuak.
Aku suruh Qistina cerita apa apa kat dalam untuk distract aku

So yang masuk dengan kitorang ada lah beberapa orang chinese
Dan mereka sangat takut dan menjerit jerit dan they were being hysterical = =
Manakala kami pula terus bersembang dah bersembang tidak bergerak dan tidak melayan hantu hantu yang mengganggu.
Walaupun si hantu mengejar si chinese pusing pusing kami pun, kami tak sedar

Sebab kami asyik bersembang, hantu hantu menjadi marah dan bengang kerana tidak dilayan
Mulalah mereka mengajuk dan menyampuk perbualan kami

Dan ulang ulang ayat kami sembang sambil mengejek ngejek.
Cool lah bro macam tak biasa pulak.

Tapi memang menarik lah aku suka nanti nak pergi lagi :D wee

nasib pelajar luar negara. dengan semua orang nak tangkap gambar walaupun tak kenal :P
nasib mereka baik :)

balas dendam di sunway pyramid sebab semua benda mahal nak mati di dalam. dah lah haus gila wa cakap sama lu.

$$$

2011-03-15T15:07:00.007+02:00

i really can't stand people using

titew sukew lew

the f?

i mean cant you type properly?

its kita suka lah not titew or whatever it is that you write

i mean if you use aq instead of aku, i mean if only aq is changed then its fine lah

but please dont change the whole sentence with that kind of spelling.

it's not cute at all

do you realize that most people are annoyed with that kind of spelling?

think twice and thrice. use proper words and spelling.

bahasa melayu is nice.* yes it is indeed although im currently writing this entry in english

it depends on my mood really and also depends on the words that are circulating in my head.

that explains why my blog is so rojak with some english and some malay posts = =

***********

its kind of depressing how my money disappears, not literally of course, in just a few days.

it started with the luggage that i bought.

just because the old one rosak, i was forced to buy a new one

after a few hours pusing pusing around mid valley

we almost gave up and thats when we found the luggages punya tempat.

heck i wanted to buy the ELLE one but, rm999.00.?

im not that kaya and crazy to buy a cabin luggage that expensive

even when its 50% off . still rm 500 = =

i wanted to buy the corak corak one but i couldnt find it. not even one. ok now you can cry nina.

i still don't understand what makes this luggage blooooooooooooooody expensive T.T

i ended up buying a half priced bag . rm 420 before discount. luckily i didnt buy those overpriced bags or i wont have enough money to buy,

1) a brand new spectacle. getting sick of the old one = =" calar calar already -.-"

oh rm400 (my budget for the new spec) will be gone tomorrow T.T

2) food stuff imma bring there. santans kicaps bihuns and everything.

3) baju kurunggg baju kurunggg. wearing baju kurung to class in damn comfy im telling you. :D

4) planning on going to sunway . tak tahu sempat tak. please sempat or else imma cry sebab gian nak main roller coaster T.T

5) perhaps some new blouses :)

i thought having my own money is gonna be fun. but it isn't. ain't fun at all :(

primary.

2011-03-13T06:16:00.004+02:00

So yesterday i went to Mid Valley to find some stuff and there i met an old friend.
we were in the same clas in primary school.
its kind of fun since i have very few primary school friend that i still keep in touch with,
or i still call friends?

Why?

Maybe because I don't see them as old friends.
Maybe because I hate who I was.

I had no self confident. I didnt know how to speak out loud

I followed people around.
And i didnt stand up for myself.
people could easily make fun of me.
And they did not so good things to me, i kept quiet i accepted what they did although i was burning inside = =

I was never a part of them. I didnt know where i belong

Even some with whom i used to spend a lot of time with in high school with, those i called friends,
you know if i meet them now even, we won't talk. we will pretend like we never knew each other.

some of them even changed a lot, some changed for better, and some, the other way round

and surprisingly there are some who i wasnt so close with but i do treasure them as my old friends

Very few. very very few. And thats why i hate my primary school and i don't really treasure the memories. i dont think there are many good memories that i can treasure pun.

But heck, without them i'll live anyway and plus there are still a few that i still keep in touch with and thank you for being my primary school friends that i can still call friends :)

grow up, dude!

2011-03-10T10:35:00.010+02:00

Duit, masa, kawan

You know, most people including me need to study all the things that were learned earlier on the same day.
because im not as clever as other people and i need to work for it.

so usually when the guys go out that night, unplanned, i didnt go along because you know why lah.
it doesnt matter its my choice really but it sucks when people say

"die tu belajar sampai keluar pun taknak"

or

"dia mana pernah nak join kitorang"

and the words spread to other peoplee.

its like they're saying im a freak who doesnt have a life, who doesnt even want to enjoy and everything
but dude, come one. if you tell me earlier that you want to go out that night, i'd study in the evening so i can go out with you guyss that night
i'd loveeee to! I love to hang out!

and second, money.
some of my friends use a lot of their money to say,buy bags, bajus, expensive gadjets.
it doesnt really matter lah because its their money so do whatever they want .
but they should not condemn me when i dont think the same way they do.

its not like i refuse to use my money on important things,
if i wanna eat something, i would.
i dont starve myself just because i wanna save. no
if i need a shoe or a baju, i'd buy them.
i just dont like spending too much money on things i don't really need

but it sucks when i explained
"aku taknak la habiskan duit aku nanti takut ada emergency ke ape?"

and they went
"emergency apenye? tak adanye"

or when i heard something like " aku tak suka orang yang saving sangat tension"

i mean its my choice really can you please at least respect it?
we never know whats gonna happen.

and come on, it did happen kan?
the riot happened kan??
we had to book a flight ticket home kannn?
itu bukan emergency kee??

luckily because of my precautions that you guys condemned, complained, made fun of,
i could use my very own savings to buy my flight ticket to malaysia without having to depend on anyone!

SO GROW UP AND RESPECT OTHER PEOPLE'S CHOICES THANK YOU.

500

2011-03-09T16:28:00.005+02:00

so yes because of rm500 i woke up at 6 and got ready to go too shah alamm for the selangor thing.
i already met so many people at the KTM who also want the money $$
by car, putra, ktm and taxi finally we arrived at de palma along with momo and some other friends :D

bell yana and yus :)

nina hani bell :D

with iezy :)

The hall was heck, full.
luckily yes we were very lucky indeed suddenly erah was like
"ninaa! come sit dengan aku i got two empty places"
nice :) we don't have to berdiri outside, and they served us some food :)

with erah :

and the kakak umno said something like
"mintak maaf tempat tak cukup, kami tak sangka ramai macam ni datang. terima kasih sebab datang"

and we were like "dude come on, of course theres so many people here who doesnt want money ??$$$!!"

after a long ceramah which we didnt get to listen because the hall was so full and i had many more important things to do,finally they called out the names

i didn't expect them to call out my name since i just admitted the borang and kuala lumpur is written on my ic although really, im a selangorian but no, i was one of the earliest who got the money

perhaps this is all because i called her the day before to confirm whether im a selangorian.
but then she asked for my infos and everything,, and thats why i was on the list. :) alhamdulillah :D

my other mates waited patiently and hopelessly because even until 6 pm, they still didnt call out their names :(

but they asked them to write their names and perhaps they will give the money later.

they were being extremely patient and by the look on their faces, i knew they wanted to explode real bad .

it was raining, i was sleepy, tired, malas, got no mood, we took a cab to ktm.
we waited for a long time but there was no cab and when we finally had one, the driver didn't know the location of KTM

i didnt want to get out from the cab even when he said he doesnt know where the KTM station is
finally i took out my phone, and opened the GPS

yes, a taxi driver used my GPS to get to the station.
i guess having a gps on the phone wasnt a bad idea really :)

selangor vs roller coaster

2011-03-08T11:02:00.005+02:00

Rancanganku untuk pergi ke sunway lagoon untuk bermain roller coaster esok tergendala
semuanya disebabkan berita yang aku terima pagi tadi.
Semua pelajar selangor bakal mendapat rm500 untuk duit poket.

Tempatnya jauh nun di De Palma, Shah Alam.
Ikut hati malas nak pergi. mahu sahaja dilepaskan rm500.
tetapi aku fikir fikir kembali
banyak tu rm500. macam macam yang aku boleh beli.
bolehlah dapat satu beg, satu baju, satu seluar, satu sweater, satu beg sekolah.

Dengan berat hati aku ~~membatalkan~~ menangguhkan niat untuk ke sunway lagoon dengan perasaan kecewa.

Dahlah aku ni entah boleh dapat entah tidak.
Semua gara gara ic ku yang bertulis alamat kuala lumpur
padahal menurut ibu bapa aku, tanah rumah ini atas tanah selangor,
undi wakil rakyat untuk selangor, bayar bil semua kepada selangor.
cuti selangor pun kita dapat cuti wilayah tak dapat pula
memang semua menunjukkan aku ini orang selangor, kecuali alamat aku.
apa salahnya kau tulis selangor atas ic aku. bahagia sikit hidup.

memang payah. terpaksa bawa bil sebagai bukti.
harap lepas lah. kalau tak lepas aku mengamuk juga nanti.
sebab aku dah call nombor yang diberikan menjelaskan situasi aku.
si pencakap telefon cakap pergi lah nanti dapat lah tu.
sebab dia cakap macam tu aku pergi.
kalau tak dapat, tak salah aku bengang kan?kan?kan? :)

tapi kalau aku dapat Alhamdulillah lah. orang cakap rezeki jangan ditolak :) cuba je lah dulu mana tahu dapat kannn.

p/s: walau apa pun terjadi, aku tetap nak main roller coaster sebelum balik.
giannnnnn pulak T.T berapa tahun dah tak mainnn.

sekian terima kasih