Sunday, January 22, 2012

cerita cikgu embryology

and so our embryology professor, who is also the head of department of anatomy for whole Egypt gave us a lecture about the embryology of external genitalia. and after the lecture he told us something very interesting indeed.

"i woke up until 2 am thinking about this case."

so he said as he told us about a man, who is 25 years old, well he has the male external genitalia, a penis but stretched to the base with no testis. and spent his life living as a male. he went to see the doctor and the doctor found out that he actually has the female reproductive organs; the uterus, ovary, fallopian tube etc. He's enganged, he's about to get married and he insists that he wants to be a male and still wants to get married.

and it got us :O

and another one he told us about a woman, a true one. she was married, she gave birth to her child, she lactated her child. then she divorced and suddenly went to the doctor claiming that she is a male. and she wants to be a male.

and another little girl, who is 10 years old, been living as a girl because she has the female genital organ, but she doesnt have the vaginal opening. after some investigations, the doctor found out that she does not have the female reproductive organ. and her karyotype is 23+XY. male karyosome and there's some swelling at the lower part because there are 2 testis hidden there due to incomplete descend of testis (cryptorchidism) , there's no way to bring the testis out there's still no method for the surgery. finally the doctor decided that she should continue as a girl because either way she would be sterile and she's been living as a female anyway.

to know that these kind of things happen a lot do amaze me. and it's not easy to decide what to do with a baby with anomalies of the exernal genitalia. and if the doctor is ignorant enough, he'll just leave the patient be and some years later. that girl or boy, because of the mistake of the doctor will suffer a lot, as he might be raised as a girl just to found out many years later that he is actually a male and vice versa and this happens a lot :O
to think that how could he faces his family, when all throughout his life, he's been treated as a girl, being called a sister, raised as a girl, suddenly found out that he's actually a male. it is unthinkable.

and there;s even a child who changes his sexuality and identification several times because of the anomalies.

and its not a simple decision to be made by a doctor, discussions need to be made with several specialists to determine the sex of the babies.

thank you professor. i was feeling sleepy during the first half an hour of the lecture and then my eyes got as big as they could O.O after hearing the interesting stories :O

so to those yang nak jadi doctor, don't be that ignorant, or other people will suffer for the rest of their lives.

I wonder in Islam, what to do in such conditions? if she has the male karyosome but she's been raised as a girl because of the failure of the development of male genital organs so they thought she's a girl but found of shes actually not many years later, what should she do? If anyone has the answer to this question, please do enlighten me :)


Thursday, January 12, 2012

Di kisahkan pada suatu hari ketika Rasulullah saw bersama-sama sahabatnya seraya baginda bertanya kepada mereka :

"Siapakah yang paling hebat imannya?" tanya Rasulullah.

"Malaikat," jawab sahabat.

"Bagaimana para malaikat tidak beriman kepada Allah sedangkan mereka sentiasa hampir dengan Allah," jelas Rasulullah.Para sahabat terdiam seketika.

Kemudian mereka berkata lagi, "Para nabi"."Bagaimana para nabi tidak beriman, sedangkan wahyu diturunkan kepada mereka".

"Mungkin kami," celah seorang sahabat

."Bagaimana kamu tidak beriman sedangkan aku berada ditengah-tengah kamu," pintas Rasulullah menyangkal hujah sahabatnya itu. "Kalau begitu, hanya Allah dan Rasul-Nya sahaja yang lebih mengetahui," jawab seorang sahabat lagi, mengakui kelemahan mereka.

"Kamu ingin tahu siapa mereka? Mereka ialah umatku yang hidup selepasku. Mereka membaca Al Quran dan beriman dengan semua isinya. Berbahagialah orang yang dapat berjumpa dan beriman denganku. Dan tujuh kali lebih berbahagia orang yang beriman denganku tetapi tidak pernah berjumpa denganku," jelas Rasulullah.

Suasana di majlis pertemuan itu hening sejenak. Semua yang hadir diam membatu. Mereka seperti sedang memikirkan sesuatu. Lebih-lebih lagi Saidina Abu Bakar. Itulah pertama kali dia mendengar orang yang sangat dikasihi melafazkan pengakuan demikian. Seulas senyuman yang sedia terukir dibibirnya pun terungkai. Wajahnya yang tenang berubah warna. "Apakah maksudmu berkata demikian wahai Rasulullah? Bukankah kami ini saudara-saudaramu?" Saidina Abu Bakar bertanya melepaskan gumpalan teka-teki yang mula menyerabut fikiran.

"Tidak, wahai Abu Bakar. Kamu semua adalah sahabat-sahabatku tetapi bukan saudara-saudaraku,"suara Rasulullah bernada rendah.

"Kami juga saudara-saudaramu, wahai Rasulullah," kata seorang sahabat yang lain pula.

Rasulullah menggeleng-gelengkan kepalanya perlahan-lahan sambil tersenyum. Kemudian baginda bersuara, "Saudaraku ialah mereka yang belum pernah melihatku tetapi mereka beriman denganku sebagai Rasulullah dan mereka sangat mencintaiku. Malahan kecintaan mereka kepadaku melebihi cinta mereka kepada anak-anak dan orang tua mereka."

"Aku sungguh rindu hendak bertemu dengan mereka," ucap Rasulullah lagi setelah seketika membisu dengan berbaur kesayuan pada ucapannya itu

Tuesday, January 10, 2012


yea yea everyone is stressed out
we have to finish 3 books in less than a month and absorb every single thing written in that book :O


so my presentation will be on the 12th of january. this thursday :O
but i like physiology so its okay i guess hihihi

skill lab exam this monday :O

28th practical exam
4th mcq for genitourinary module :O

and i dont care about the rest. i just want to finish everything before 28th but i dont know if its possible :O

but i'll try *wink wink

reunion ksp

wa cakap sama lu wa rindu gila zaman ksp tak payah belajar makan free meronggeng 24 jam jalan jalan cari makan malam malam online dalam kelas guna laptop tengok movie dalam kelas dapat elaun jamuan disponsor hari hari online gelak tidur main main trip semua disponsor

our first reunion and there were a lot of dishes that everyone went :O
bbq was superb :D two thumbs up and there were a lot of udangssssss. :) bukan senang okay nak makan udang dengan hati gembira tanpa segan silu dekat sini memandangkan udang mahal nak mampusss. hihi

perempuan pulak bertungkus lumus masak dengan aku yg mula memasak sejak pukul 6 setengah pagi hahaha. thank you everyone :))

p/s : dulu ni ringtone kau. ringtone aku juga. bila bunyi aku gelabah cari. tengok tengok skrin kosong. rupanya telefon kau. selalu je panas. tapi dua dua taknak tukar ringtone ego sangat. hihi. tapi tu dulu :)


Friday, January 6, 2012

officially 20/21

Hellooo peoplee!

hehe ive been quiet for quite a long time, haven't i?well, not literally quiet lah but just quiet from ze blog. and ze social network.
other than twitter. but now pun ive been lazy to open it or write anything etc. i want to retire from all of zese. im gettin' old now.

and i want to talk about a lot of things because i wanted to update this blog since a long time a go but i didnt have time :'( how sad. but if i write about everything it will take more than a day :O
so im just going to sum up everything meshi? :D

ooh talking about old, im now officially 20! :D and unofficially since we're
in 2012 now *say what? i am now unofficially 21 :D
that 2+ used to be something scary when i was in high school. but now i think that 2 doesnt make much different, no?

so how was my birthday *nak jugak ka cerita? haha

thank you for those thoughtful presents and cakes and wishes :)
may Allah bless you all. :)
I can't repay those kindness but insyaAllah they will be rewarded by Him :)

2 new members on ze bed :D

and Happy new year guys! well perhaps im a little bit late. but a week late is acceptable kan? boleh lah.

my new year resolutions! :)

1. try harder to become a better muslimah. try even harder to have the 'cinta kepada Allah dan Rasulnya'. it is not easy but we'll try insyaAllah :)

never gave a serious thought about it but since last year i heard a lot about it and you know, i came to realize that yea, we need to have that. we NEED to. period.

2. Balance my time between dunya (medic, friends, social life *not that kind of social life ya know what im sayin?* and akhirat :) wah wah. yeaaaa we can't just stare at ze books and spend our 24 hours studying without trying to gain knowledge about ze afterlife, right?

3. Study even harder! dont be lazy lah nina a future doctor insyaAllah shouldnt be lazy = =

4. get ready for the next phase of life tho im not sure when is it going to happen. hehe. well everyone should you know. that thing of well-you-know-what.

5. Forget about all the bad things that happened before. As everything happens for a reason. Take those things as lessons and i'll try hard not to repeat the same mistakes again ;(


. well i lost my grandmother. our grandmother. the only one i got to spend my time with. other than my arwah tok, who passed away when i was in standard 6. but it was kind of cloudy since i was still a little kid and all i ever thought was, fun.

i was on my way home. To Malaysia. How ironic?
It happened on my way home. i was a few hours late. Arwah pah was buried in the evening and i arrived there at night. and until now it feels like a dream to me. :(

May Allah bless her soul. Amiin.

. and last year i started to see a lot of changes in that person :)
and it makes me happy :) although they dont see it, or they don't even realize, i do :) dont give up. lets keep trying :)and may we both have a good future insyaAllah :)

. and a lot of things i can't tell. A LOT. some things are better left unsaid :) but well its a pretty rough + challenging yet beautiful year indeed :)

p/s : ouh and yea. i cancelled my swiss trip and im going hope this winter break. gonna fill my stomach until there's no place left in there gahaa *evil laugh

p/p/s : nasal decongestion. ;( been having sore throat, flu, fever sometimes and its very annoying. i want to study lah der not to sleep because of all of you *geram
ouhh i hate winter! ;( and its pretty tak sopan to blow in the class or in front of people. sorry but i couldnt breathe! dah tak kisah dah sopan ke tak! haha

p/p/p/s : exam this end of january and to be honest, im not ready. this module is veryyyyy tough ;(( wahhh i'll try my best lah and the rest is up to Him :)

p/p/p/p/s : seronok gila dapat pegang baby! kthxbai