Well today I was having such a bad day You know, when you thought everything is going wrong-__-
when suddenly just in a blink of eye, you felt not needed, youre in the wrong place with no one to hold on to
so after class, i rushed back home, because even if i waited i didnt know with whom im going back with, as i said, i dont really have a 'geng' here, just go with different people everyday
on the way, i thought about all the things thats happening how im feeling so alone, as if nobody cares, and worse, i started to compare life now with old one, so not good, not cool. i know. -_- friends around, never felt alone, sure thing is the problem is my own self, i dont know how to mix around. you know, im cool. with everyone, its me, im wrong for not knowing how to fit in i just don't and im sorry
and i reached home finally, watched a movie to clear my messy mind, then stopped for maghrib prayer, i heard my phone vibrated. but i was praying so i ignored it, i checked and my buddy called. then i heard someone screamed "oi sape punye kek ni?"
i was like, er is that mine? well usually if theres something outside, its either for me or dib/ LOL put stuff in front of the lift. the fastest and easiest way to deliver stuff
and i called him back, and he said
"ada kek tu. amik la. ktrg tengok kau moody tadi, aku. bla bla, bla bla ngn bla bla belikanla kek utk kau."
"ooh susah susah je"
"takpe lah. amik tau. jgn moody moody dah"
i felt touched, seriously but i just dint know how to show it.
They are like my best buddies, but other friends, who're supposed to know better, care better, dont even care dont even notice. except for one or two yeah when i was damn moody she came to my room and brought me a cake. others, who used to be so close just ignored. Im not sad or angry or anything, i dont expect anything, seriously. but its weird because when someone close to you but not as close as you WERE with other friends, care more, concern more, i dont know whether they dont care, or they dont know, or they dont want to know, or they dont even bother.
Thanks for your concern, buddies. for all the gifts,
even my roommates went "kau ni ramai gile orang blanje oh tuka ah nk jadi kau. LOL rezeki namenye tu". hee
ada ke die ckp esok ada tbl. oke fine ada tbl pastu suruh bace lipoprotein sbb esok ada test.
N.B. : lipoprotein tak pena belajar die suruh belajar sendiri dulu pstu buat test pstu baru bincang. the whole concept of tbl
oke fine jugak bila aku balik dan bukak link, wtfishhhhhhhh/?!
how am i supposed to answer and understand the whole 8 pages = 2 hours lecture normally, without explanation from no one = =
+ nota biochemistry dan physiologyy yang blaja tadi belum buat lagi. ergh ergh tension tension
dahlaa balik lambat, 530 pm bersamaan lepas maghrib jalan gelap gelita jalan sorang sorang dikelilingi orang arab ergh.
dengan sakit perut yang melampau sejak beberapa jam laluuu smbil membuat nota = =
kelaparan tahap maksima. oke fine aku dah makan carbohydrate= yang paling awal utilized sepatutnye aku energetic kan but NOT. tak pun. sakit perut lagi ada. think i need to eat fat yang akan produced kan energy lagi 7-8 jam bersamaan pukul * tengah tgk jam * 6 am?
erk, dah pukul 11??!
dan juga berhadapan dengan kemungkinan blackout lagi malam ni, setelah 3 hari berturut turut blackout. terima kasih kalian atas khidmat kooperasi yangg sangat mengharukan -_________-
salam...adq abg yg sombong... bz ke???? bru abg jmpe page adq...adq cmner skg???? hopefully u r always in happy in ur life, sis.... anyway gud luck 4 ur future and have a nice day, adq... abg da keje tau, deq... bler adq nk jmpe abg??? heheheehehe....papepun abg t'lbh dulu nk minx maap ats sgale slp abg yg abg penah bt kat adq abg ni... kemaafan 2 abg jus dpt dr adq je..abg hrp adq dpt maafkn abg... mne tau adq may b xkn jmpe abg bt slamenye...abg minx maap sgt2... gud luck, dear...askm
5 months ago. came across this comment. i hate that we became so close that you became my bestfriend. well kind of a brother to me. i hate that i started to get rid of you i hate that i hurt you a lot i hate how you tortured me back i hate that you were so nice, so caring, i hate that you were so skema your words were like so baik and everything you dont know about styles but you were there for me.
It has been almost 4 years since our story ends. since our good sister-brother relationship ends. and you are nice to me, even until now but then i hate you for saying that i will always become your friend, whatever happens i hate you saying that you still care i hate to know the fact that i dont know you anymore i hate receiving a raya card with your sign on it. i hate everything about you i deleted your number, didnt put your num in my new phone, because i dont want to hear from you nomore i dont want to feel alone and night and text you i want to stop hearing anything from you know anything about you
somehow at times i remember us being close you care, i care. and those memories. all vanished. I dont know what to say maybe we'll walk into each other some times, and we will ignore each other.
biochemistry, especially lipids is becoming harder and harder lol i learnt them already back in zagazig but i didnt understand nothing at that time, now i have some ideas about some things i learnt before, but didnt understand. lol haha and my mind is getting mereng-er from day to day but lets pray i can do well in the exam :) and every exam .LOL o_O
learnt about healthy lifestyle realized that my lifestyle isnt healthy at all -__- lol at least im tring to eat something better. hahaa but just now after class i went to pizza hut for lunch with my bestfriends, syafik ezy and nasuha :) so i consider today as a cheat day LOL wrong! EVERYDAY IS A CHEAT DAY haha
fyi for those who do not know what is cheat day, it is supposed to be that one day in a week when you can grab unhealthy things to eat such as pizza, kfc, burger etc.
but erk, i already have 3 days of cheat days this week? how can i consider today a cheat day -_- lol whatever as long as i am not hungry, i'll be happy :))
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR COUSIN, Zhafri Nadzri
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR BROTHER; Muhammad Hafiz Nasir
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY EX HOUSEMATE; amirah muhyidin :))
adik adik rakan rakan kanak kanak sahabat andai cucu cucu adik saudara sepupu sepapat yang berada di tingkatan 5 sekolah menengah kebangsaan seri keramat, sekolah sekolah bersekutu, bersepadu sbp, mrsm argh semua jenis sekolah lah lah
tak sabar sabar nak habis spm kan dan BERAMBUS KELUAR dari hell, ops sekolah itu.
aku, dan rakan rakan aku NAK SANGAT patah balik dan masuk ke hell, ops sekolah itu semula beribu berjuta, kenangan hitam putih sepanjang 5 tahun berada di sekolah yang sadis, kecik dan tidak lawa itu *maafkan aku sekolah. seburuk buruk mana pun engkau, aku tetap sayangkan engkau okey. pfffttt -_____________- *
rinduuu rinduu serindu rindunya *masuk lagu old school kejap*
weh tolonglah sehari je sehari je. kalau boleh hari yang kita lepak gelak sakan makan ramai ramai pegi mekdi, makan mac besar, dabelcisbeger.
tak pun masa aku engkau dia dan semua menyamar jadi hantu ?
ataupun zaman sepak terajang antara kau dan aku lepak after kelas. belajar . belajar lah konon
argh aku rindu. aku nak balik aku jealous dengan korang, korang pulak jeles dengan aku sebab dah abis sekolah kan -___-
semua dah ada kawan baru, tinggallah aku terkapai kapai keseorangan di sini LOL oke fine, aku pun banyak kawan baru jugak *taknak kalah* sayang kawan baru jugak. haha tapi aku sayang korang semua ketat ketat
okay dah tengah malam otakku mereng salahkan biochemistry. aku sayang engkau encik profesor karbohaidrattttt.
yeah yeah the real class has started o________O went from biostatistic --------> biochemistry, which are different in manyy many many many ways -______________-
haha first class already made me feel like falling. Oh no! LOL need to study harder revision every night revision?? pfffttt!
and winter also has started its f-r-e-e-z-i-n-g
egypt is supposed to be hot, eh? NOT seriously, it's freakin cold! just wait for december i bet it will be colder and colder -___-"
everyone is also starting to buy that long coat, mafla and gloves kind of thingy but i dont have the mood to buy em' just, not yet haha i dont want to waste my money, ops 'duit rakyat' on something i already have i already have a few sweaters but i want that long coat. i want it i want it~ wearing those stuff make me feel cool, just like in that korean movie, and some western. LOL BAJET