Monday, December 29, 2008
haha this is a big shock to me .
my uncle came to my house yesterday and went "nina, you're going on jan 9th, about 13 days from now"
how was i supposed to react,
should i cry, laugh, shout, cry or what?
haha that was a big shock since i am so not ready to leave home, to be specific, leave malaysia!
200 malaysian students went there last november so i'm the third batch, along with other 25 students. second batch, 25 students, will be going there on jan 2nd, a week earlier than me.;D
so when i get there, i need to rush a little because they actually want us to move to second year together with the first batch, which went there last month. so instead of having 3 months of holiday, we'll be having only 3 WEEKS of holiday. duh , and we need to pay real attention if we want to catch up. sucks right? but the thing is, i'm going to second year on september. hee. btw the name of that university is zagazig university. unique name right? haha
so my first step, took pictures for my passport which, i'm going to make tomorrow.
and then kene buat visa.
and i made a new spec.
weh weh dpt spec baru bes, spec lame ntah mane pegi.haha
wah i'm going to do everything on my own. and i got my own things. no need to share no more
so i'll have my very own laptop yay yay digital camera yay yay and my own house. okay la this one need to share. -.-"
but what i'm thinking right now is what am i going to do there
i mean, watch tv, duh i don't understand their language, um handphone, who the hell am i going to message pun, laptop, need time also to connect the internet line, so probably there won't be internet line for about a few days,
and books? i don't have books also. haha probably i'll buy all the books as soon as i get there.adoy
the best part is, it's cold there! so i can wear sweater all the time and that scarf at the neck, i dont know wth it is called. I'd like to wear them but we don't wear them in malaysia since it is effin hot here in this country. I don't have to worry about being called a retarded retard when i wear them there;D
Never ever will i forget everything valuable here ; my bed, my spot:in front of computer in my room, place i used to hang out, LOVELY school yeah, family, friends.
adoy. toodles/ see you next time;D
Saturday, December 27, 2008
namun setelah membace blog irfan aku rase baik aku tulis,
yela bile aku tanak tulis je kebetulan gile irfan tulis pasal bnde yang berkaitan
well. i think this is karma bak kate earl dalam cite my name is earl
don't worry aku tak mengumpat orang weh. aku mengumpat diri sendiri.gaha
tentang kejahatan aku, dan azam aku untuk berubah! yeah!
um ari tu mase dpt call free aku gayut la ngn zainol kan
tapi an bile tgh tgh call tu,
he went "weh kau mmg cani ke?aku tekejut duh"
aku pun.."er asal?"
"ye la kau mcm slambe gile padahal ckp baru due kali"
"eeh aku rase cm aku da ckp ngn kau banyak kali"
"aku jarang jumpe pompuan cm kau. yela aku terkejut oh mase msg tu kau ckp kasar kasar"
fyi,zainol ni schoolmate aku mase skola agame dulu. pna ckp la mase dulu so bile call rase cm da biase ckp. haha kalau bebetul la baru second time ckp ngn manusie tak kenal, tadenye aku jd mcm tu.hehe
ooo malas nk tulis pe kitorang ckp. sinopsis die, die ckp la yg aku ni tak mcm pompuan lain, die tekejut bile dlm msg aku cm"kpale hotak kau" "bodo gile" etc. i mean kasar kasar ar
yay fyi lagi mulut aku ni mmg jahat. sebab dah terbiase
tapi selalunye aku nk elakkan ckp bende tak elok i go "what the fish" instead of wtf kan,
or aku tgh bgg gile aku slalu nak ckp fuck tuu tapi insted of ckp fuck tu sebab jahat sgt aku pun "fish! fish!fish!fish!"
tapi kesimpulannye mulut aku ni slalu sangat nk keluar words yang tak elok . and bile da ckp pasal tu mulelah kitorang open pasal diri kitorang and bile aku cite mulelah aku tersedar yang aku ni jahat. smpai die pun mintak aku brubah kire aku teruk ar kan.
Betapa aku telah hidup dlm dosa. wah ayat mcm aku buat bnde jahat gile je. tapi mmg jahat la jugak,
aku mase form 1 to 3 aku baik ar gak, pegang pegang ni mmg tak pernah ar. aku mmg kene sket je tgn laki terus mengucap bebanyak. maybe sebab mase form 1 smpai 3 kitorang tak rapat sangat laki ngn pompuan. haha tapi kan lepas masuk form 4 ngn 5 ni, aku tatau ar, maybe sebab rapat sangat dgn diorang aku pun jadi ntah, cm jd tape je kalau pegang bende biase,
i mean selagi tade rase 'bzz' or ada butterflies bile pegang tangan laki tu, tape lah.
In other word, aku jadi JAHAT and SOSIAL
um mmg aku jadi extremely rapat dgn diorang sampai kalau pegang pun tade ape.
Astargfirullah. aku memang jadi jahat.
But sometimes, it got me thinking, pegang tangan laki adalah HARAM but then, why do i keep doing that? And by that time aku ckp kt diri aku tanak jadi mcm tu dah, tapi bile kt skola some of the guys cm whatever la nk salam ke pukul ke, i go, "weh dose duh" and they go "eleh, bajet baik ah kau!"
oh i understand, maybe diorang ingat aku poyo sebab before this tape but tetibe tanak. i don't blame them because seriously aku mmg nak berubah time tu, tapi bile dah jadi mcm tu, aku jadi la mcm dulu balik.
ooh aku amik contoh lain, this happened yesterday
aku chat ngn kwn aku and tanye nk pegi tak kenduri kwn aku lagi sorang ni. aku ckp la tade transport.
"weh aku tade transport la nak pegi."
"kau naik la dengan *guy's name*"
"ooh tgk la dulu tapi kalau pegi ngn die, kang aku sorg je pompuan kt kete tu"
"eleh kau mcm tak biase pulak . before this tape lak"
see i told you so
the problem is, kawan aku kenal aku sebagai orang yang tak kesah kalau dgn laki an, so bile sekarang aku nak berubah, image aku sebagai 'that kind of girl' remains and diorang pun dah biase dgn that girl i used to be.
before this, i mean mase aku baik lagi la, kalau orang buat mcm ape aku buat tu , i go" teruk gile minah tu" and yes, i've became that 'teruk' person without realizing it.
Aku tau bile tulis post ni, aku mendedahkan keburukan aku seniri tapi i need to let go everything before starting a new phase of my life.
Before this, sebelum abis skola, aku tanak abis skola sbb aku sangat rindu and sayang kt diorang tapi tapi bile da abis skola ni it got me thinking again, this is the best way. maybe lepas ni aku dapat masuk U insyaAllah kalau dpt aku g Egypt, and aku mmg dah tanam azam untuk jadi a whole new person which is better. Sebab bile aku g tempat lain dpt kawan baru, aku mmg takkan brani nak wat cm ape aku wat kat kawan kawan aku dulu. Sepak diorang, pukul diorang and everything yang salah di sisi agama Islam yeah. Diorang pun panggil aku gangster sbb aku tak mcm pompuan lain, eh, betul la bukan zainol je la, ramai budak klas ckp aku cmtu. Deep inside me, i don't want to be that type of person. haha neither want to be too girly spending too much time on make-up etc nor being a 'tomboy' girl'. Aku memang tak boleh duduk diam but the thing is, kalau dlm family family mmg aku tak banyak ckp and i am known as a quiet girl. kelakar tak?haha and diorang asyik ckp yg aku ni takut and tak reti cakap padahal diorang tatau who i really am.haha ckp kt public tu kire nothing ah. aku mmg react ikut surrounding and sorry to say, surrounding aku dulu membuatkan aku jadi sosial. I don't want to be like that because clearly what i did was Haraam. And i really hope to change. Starting from now.
Tapi part cakap kasar tu slow slow la berubah. aku suke ckp mcm tu. haha, bile cakap mcm kasar kasar sket mcm aku bleh jadi kamcing. But kalau cakap baik baik sgt mcm care aku ckp to certain people, aku cepat bosan.haha stupid right? whatsoever it is.
I would like to comment about couple couple thingy gak.hhaaha. Aku setuju ckp irfan couple ni nonsense. annoying gile bile orang couple over over mcm dah kawen. Nak couple? Up to you lah tapi tak payah buat mcm korg dah kahwin. ntah ntah nnti tak kwen pun terus tak contact cam ape je. Kalau pegang tangan tu, tanak lepas. Haha aku pun jahat pegang tangan kan DULU tapi tade la mcm tu skali. Dengan penuh emosi tanak lepas um because aku dah penah tgk bile diorang buat mcm tu akan bring them the a whole new level. what is it? pikir la seniri kan. Aku penah couple la kejap je tak sampai sbulan pun stiap kali couple tapi tak pernah cmtu, sebab geli ah weh. tangan diorang aku tak penah pegang tapi tangan kawan kawan tape plak an.haha. that's what i meant by pegang tade 'butterflies in the stomach' kalau ada tu aku tak brani sebab takut nnti bile da pegang lame lame jadi lagi jahat. haha kalau ngn bf ni lain sket kan kalau jadi jahat tu.
p/s: so this is it, pray for me supaye aku berjaye dlm mission terbaru. Jadi BAIK!
sekian terima kasih
Thursday, December 25, 2008
sebentar tadi saya menemani ayah saya ke low yat untuk membeli hard disc dan juga external sound card. kami mengambil masa lebih daripada satu jam walaupun kedudukan low yat tersebut tidak sampai 500 meter daripada lokasi kereta kami berada,
jikalau saya berjalan kaki, sudah tentu saya sudah selesai membeli semua barangan dan dapat menikmati big apple dengan tenangg dan menyamankan. mungkin juga saya sudah tiba di rumahh dan menikmati tidur yang nyenyak.
hal ini membuatkan saya terfikir sejenakk tentangg maslah yang melanda negarakuuu tanah airku yang berkemungkinan besar dielakkan tetapi disebabkan kebijaksanaan pemandu pemandu rakyat Malaysia , masalah ini terus berleluasa.
sebagai contoh, ada 4 side junctions tu, tatau panggil ape. Apabila jalan sedang sesak, dan traffic light berwarna hijau itu sudah hampir bertukar menjadi merah, sesetengah pemandu yang bijak masih lagi degil dan tidak mahu mengalah, tetap menekan padel minyak menuju ke hadapan, dan apabila hal tersebut berlaku, memandangkan jalan jam, kereta tersebut stuck di tengah tengah , maka apabila kereta di traffic light lain sudah boleh jalan, tak dapat la dia jalan kerana kereta tersebut sudah memblock jalan. salah siapa? kereta atau pemandu? jangan salahkan kereta, salahkah tuan punya kereta tersebut.
dalam keadaan sesak begini, berlakulah pencemarann bunyi, apabila kadar bunyi tahap hertz yang dibenarkan disebabkan bunyi hon dan juga tengking menengking
*untuk maklumat lanjut, sila refer buku biologi tingkatan 4 bab 8. ataupun buku agama islam bahagian akhlak. sekian terima kasih.
mengapa rakyat malaysia tidak bertoleransi dalam memanduu, gunakan otak apabila berfikir supaya fikiran menjadi lebih kreatif dan kritis, bukankahh begituu ?
mereka hanya mementinggkan diri sendirii tanpa memikirkan kesan dan akibat?siapakah yang harus dipersalahkan?anda?saya?mereka????
semua orang ingin tiba di lokasi dengan segera akan tetapi disebabkan kedesperate-an untuk cepat tu menjadikann mereka tiba di lokasi sepatutnye dengan lebih lambat, bukankah begitu? sesetengah mereka akan mencuba sesuatu yang tidak masuk akal, seperti masuk ke laluan kereta dari arah yang bertentangan untuk memotong. bukankah bahaya?
sayup sayup kedengaran satu dialog antara n, bukan nama sebenar dan s, bukan nama sebenar
n: kadang kadang malas tau nak ikut peraturan, drive betul betul. sebab, kalau kite pikir mcm tu pun, bukannye orang lain pikir mcm kite pikir. in the end, accident jadi jugak,
s : kalau sume orang pikir mcm kau pikir, sampai bile masalah nak settle. cube kalau sume orang pikir cm aku pikir, tak ke aman makmur, maju dan berjaya dunia?"
ayat tersebut telah diubah suai supaya menjadi lebih menarik dan untuk menyembunyikan identiti sebenar kedua dua pihak. harap maklum
masalah yang lain ialah kemalasan rakyat malaysia berterima kasih. kalau orang dah bagi jalan, mereka ini sangat lah susah untuk mengucapkan terima kasih. bukannya susah hanya mengangkat sebelah tangan sahaja. orang pun senang hati . bukan begitu?
berada di atas jalan raya yang sesak mudah sekali mengubah personaliti seseorang. orang yang penyabar pun akan menjadi pemarah apabila berada dalam situasi ini,
azam tahun baru : taknak amik lesen cepat cepat, naik kenderaan awam, kurangkan kesesakan jalan raya dan juga kemalangan;D
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
well thanks to maxis,
free call for one day
i've got to spend my birthday talking and talking and talking on the phone all day longgg.
i even slept for only a few hours because i kept bergayut on the phone with many many many people,
haha sakit duh telinge da panas da.
adoyy but dahh, once a year kut mane bleh lepas kan
so after 12 i quickly called hafiz, lame lame lame then call nisa, then mea, then aina, then zhafri then aina balik then fahriz
fahriz really really really really really got on my nerves.
sumpa sakit ati ckp ngn die.haha so we talked until like 4 am and i slept for a while pstu woke up again at 8. uh only 4 hours of sleep. i had to go to mid pulak to meet my friends. they walked so fast and i walked so slow because i was so sleepy so i was left behind. So i sat for a while on a chair in the middle of the crowd and tried to sleep. but aina called mara mara she said movie was going to start. aduh kacau je. we watched chihuahua tatau eje pstu tak concentrate pun sebb aina ah angau kejap tension je haha then makan dominos and surprisingly they bought us a cake,
i mean 6 of us, whose their birthdays are on dec,
that was my first cake though,
anywayy thanks a lot weh i love you love you love you love you all.
then went to jj and balik and gayut again with huda and then with zainol.haha ngn zainol ah lame gile.tade keje dari pukul 8 smpai nk dkt pukul 1 pagi stop kejap g smayang ngn chat chat.thanks maxis ckp until pukul 12 je but i talked to him until almost 1.haha thanks again for the extra one hour;D
Sunday, December 14, 2008
There's a lot i have to figure out,
Sometimes i'm just sick to even think about it,
about what i'm going to do next, about how i feel.
It's my dream to have a perfect life, perfect job about 7 years from now,
I just don't understand why is it so hard for myself to figure out what i want to be,
I'm jealous with people who actually have in mind what they want to be,
at least they have their mission while i'm stuck here keep thinking what is it i want to be,
talking about this really makes me feel like a complete idiot, a moron and i hate it.
and currently, i've been thinking about someone who isn't supposed to be on mind,
i have no feeling for that bloody person but i keep wondering why is it his image appears in mind? and i can't get rid of it and it sucks.
and the hell,i don't know how to explain it
i don't know why and i don't want to care cause one thing i know, i'm going to make myself not to like him because he's not the one worth thinking about.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
i've been liking this guy for almost a year,
not a crush, but i liked him like hell i can't tell how much i liked him. yes, liked, with a d
i tried sooooooo extremely hard to stop the feelings from growing but i failed,
but guess what/? by the time i'm getting closer to him, by the time our relation becomes better, the feelings just fade .
in a day? completely gonee not even a trace left
duh why am i in such a tense situation?
because, my friends always go,
"weh weh nanti mesti kau lupe aku kan,da tak ingat aku. lepas ni tak jumpe dah" whatsoever.
duh the thing is , i won't forget them. i just knew it.
come on, i still remember my ex-classmates when i was in standard 6. yeah i may not remember how they act whatsoever not that i want to remember clearly because i do not like them.
haha big confession ah?
i only keep in touch with some of them but dah, i still remember their faces and their names even that indian guy who sat behind me when i was in standard 1 i still remember him though i last saw him since like 9 years ago?
i'm the person who remembers whoever close to me.
and note this darlings
you guys remain in my heart, i'm telling you forever and ever,
we may not see each other like everyday or everyweek but memories remain so don't worry
i'm the one who should be afraid here, afraid that you guys will forget me,
duh, yeah i'm hoping 5 years from now when we walk into each other,
please do not pretend like we never knew.
that's what i've been doing to my ex-schoolmates not that i care cause i hate most of them not all of them but most of them gah!
another stupid confession i hope none of them read this.
and i love my friends, and i'm pretty sure i won't forget them
okay enough of this talk.
i've finished watching how i met your mother 3 and a half seasons.
britney was in 2 episodes of the show in season 3
hard to admit but she acted pretty well,
i mean i laughed out loud when she made her joke,
i laughed real hard
it's kind of hard to explain why i laughed since i'm sure you guys won't think what i watched is funny if i wrote her lines here,
so my suggestion ; "GO AND WATCH THAT BLOODY SHOW!"
you will laugh i bet .
duh what else/?
aah i cut my hair
haha yayy i've been waiting for this moment,
haha my long hair pissed me off.
i love my hair but i think it grew too long and it's time for them to say bye byee.
so yeah sorry zue i still remember what you said to me
"nina jangan potongg, kalau kau potong kau akan menyesal mcm kitorangg. jgn potong rambut kau dahh oke kalau tak aku tanak kawan"
haha sorry la babe. kalau aku potong pun nanti tumbuh gak,
kalau tak potong nak potong bile lagi kan,
oh another thing, i got that twilight book thanks to syiqa.
now i'm going to read that book and compare it to the movie,
seriously i think they could make that movie even more awesome,
and legen- wait for it, wait for it................................................................................................DARY!
haha addicted to barney already go and watch HIMYM!
the movie was effin slow and kind of boring,
i don't understand why everyone wants to watch it for the second time,
haha i hope new moon movie is going to be better
oh yeah raye,
raye was kind of boring at first before kak aimi came over and i started to talk to sherry.
so we talked and talked and the bad day became okayy,
glad glad glad,
and i got to play with baby hani. so cute so small. yeah the baby's name is hani, her mother's name is hani too,the baby of kak aimi's brother's pun hani and me? hanina. ala hani la jugak kan, so 4 hanis in a house
asal sume nak name hani ah
haha if ever people call me hani i'm going to smash them and kich them. geli kut.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
the very first time i took a cab alone
i've grown up
haha actually we went to klcc to hang out after spm and celebrate smira's birthday
but since my house if far far from theirs,
and i didn't know how to actually go there
i decided to take a cab
i never really took a cab alone because i was always afraid
stupid, yeah i know
but i made it! it was fun the taxi driver was so kind,
i mean he told me about his children, how his daughter died because of leukimia the hell i dont know how to spell it.haha
it was fun going alone, haha sounds lame but that's the truth
so i met milah fuad syafiq tan at klcc and we went to the food court before amir arrived and smira and kembar and some other people and i need to go down again i have to wait for my friend he was late. effin late
the movie started at 1.30 he arrived at 1.35 thanks a lot, friend
whatever it is,
we watched twilight i actually sat at row f and i just realized my friends ,14,all of them were sitting at row g just behind us. duh what a coincidence.
twilight was okay but it was so slow!
edward was cute but the way he stared at bella, haish
if ever a guy stares at me like that, i'll go kick his ass try me.
okay again edward was drop dead gorgeous but i prefer him as cedric in harry potter.
much cuter and stunningly handsome. woo,
haha then we went to burger king and ate and i asked aina to take care of my bag because i went to the toilet .
i went there for only like 10 minutes but by the time i reached at burger king, they were gone!
i cursed them like hell. haha
of course who wouldn't!
i didn't have even a cent on me! even my phone, my camera, my ticket were in the bag!
and yeah right, how was i supposed to find them klcc in not that small!
thank God a friend of mine went for asar prayer at the surau i waited for him and borrowed his phone and FINALLY i got my bag back!
to tell the truth, if he wasn't there, i dont know what will happen.
then we went to aaa ape tuu name die,
kat lrt tu lupe name haha tangkap gmbar and they said they wanted to hang out at the park,
i felt dizzy actually after eating burger king i didnt know why. haha so i decided to go home early with a friend of mine
and yeah i reached home before 7!
haha i made it i made it!
it's been quite a long time since i made it
i mean reach home before 7.
how terer i am gahahaa
okay spm is finally over
have i said that before?dah i donot remember and i do not care.
haha i thought this moment is the moment i've been waiting for
since spm is finally over,
what do i do?
i just sit in front of this computer 24/7
okay fine minus 8 hours.i do sleep, .
my brother came home on sat and brought many many many many series i'm not going to list them out, because i do not even remember the title of the stories.
haha i watched gossip girl season 1 and finish them for only 2 days. woo.
watching gossip girl made me think and being grateful
i mean their lifestyle, american lifestyle.
to tell the truth, gossip girl is a 'jahat' one,
haha a lot of kissing scenes, free sex.
eww disgusting i know, i'm glad i'm nothing like them.
and now i'm watching how i met your mother.
it's about a father telling his children how he met their mother.
but actually everytime the story ends his children go
"is that how you met mom?"
"no, that was how i met your aunt ------"
my brother told me, until season 4 pun the story about their mom never comes out
bengong they should have changed the title of the story.haha
he kept talking about this series
"nina tgk ar.klaka cite ni...tgk tgk"
haha okay fine i watched it and yeah it was funny.
i laughed out loud everytime i watch it.
really, it was funny
i also spend my day like what? playing pool with friends.
the ym one not the real pool
haha and i keep losing,
damn i'm wonderinggg whyy do i keep losing
i just won several times,
i need to improve,
i don't want to spend money on people who won POOL for GOD'S SAKE
i need to win the bet, i don't care.duh
Thursday, November 27, 2008
kerana saya menerima aduan dari rakan rakan setugas mengatakan "weh aku malas nak bace blog kau ar malas nak pikir"
yer anda mmg rakan yang hebat.
saya meminta maaf atas kesulitan yang berlaku,
cuma, apabila berbicara berseorangan ataupun tengah emosi,
pasti bahasa inggeris akan terkeluar kerana dapat menggambarkan perasaan dengan lebih mendalam.
cerita hebat yang berlaku?
SPM sudah berakhir!
ulang suara, spm sudah berakhir,
ini adalah saat kebebasan yang dinantikan sekian lama,
saya faham, rakan rakan tingkatan 4, 2, 1 cemburu kerana mereka masih tidak bebas,
kerana perasaan tersebut telah saya rasai sekitar satu tahun yang lalu.
petang tadi saya hadir ke sekolah pada pukul 10 pagi,
kata aina, beliau mahu bergambar
dengan hebatnya, saya menggagahkan diri ke sekolah,
malangnya hanya kembar yang kelihatan
setelah membebalkan diri buat beberapa ketika, saaya menuju ke surau.
malas mau cite panjang panjang
dipendekkan cerita, est tadi agaklah sangat fuck*
minta maaf perkataan inggeris harus disertakan atas sebab dan masalah teknikal
hal ini kerana paper 2 agak sukar.
saya menggaru kepala beberapa kali kerana tidak memahami petikan terutama sekali tentang cd-rom.
apa gunanya google engine tool
pergilah search sendiri.
duniakan dihujung jari anda,
paper 1 membuatkan saya tersenyum sendiri
kerana, karangan keluar topik yang sangat hangat iaitu nutrisi.
ya, hebat bukan?
sebelum peperiksaan bermula, saya kerap membaca tentang global warming
harap maaf perkataan inggeris harus digunakan kerana saya terlupa maksudnya dalam bahasa melayu.
malah saya menghafal beberapa informasi terkini tentangnya,
tambahan lagi saya menonton national geographic dan discovery tentangnya pagi tadi,
malangnya nutrisi keluar,
bukan malang, malah satu nasib
saya memasukkan segala informasi yang saya pelajari dalam biologi termasuklah enzim enzim maltose pepsin rennin insulin glucagon dan sebagainya.
yang menghairankan, saya baru berganjak ke perenggan ketiga, sudah kelihatan beberapa orang pelajar mengundurkan diri dari dewan
ooh hebat. mereka bergerak pantas dan berfikiran kritis.
saya tidak sempat menyemak dua kali kerana masa telah berakhir
syukur kepada Allah saya sempat menghabiskan menyemak karangan.
selepas keluar, kami menjadi monyet buat sementara waktu
bergelak ketawa sekuat kuatnya,
melompat seperti baboon,
baboon yang kachakk,
yang kacak dan bergaya,
kemudian kami ke jaya jusco .
cadangnya hendak ke zoo atas permintaan aina namun malang tidak berbau,
zoo menutupkan dirinya pada pukul 5.
apa mahu buat, sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga.
kami pun bergembira berjalan jalan dan membeli belah
kadang kala menangkap gambar di dalam tempat persalinan baju
di situlah milah membeli baju perempuan buat pertama kali
saya hanya membeli 2 helai baju,
dengan kos yang agak rendah,
berjimat itu penting,
tambahan pula banyak rancangan yang harus dilaksanakan menggunakan duit.
ooh jam sudah berbunyi
saya harus mengundurkan diri.
jumpa lagi di masa hadapan.
Friday, November 21, 2008
a week to go and i'm in heaven
3 more papers i need to do.
well, i actually want to write about the past papers
such as additional mathematics
which drove us all crazy.
before exam started, a friend told me if the black sign at the paper is actually at the top of the paper then the questions are going to be hard.
so it was at the top
but the questions were not that hard,
at least most of us could answer all the questions,
so we went
"cheh tade la susah mane kan"
how confident we were
but for paper 2,
my comment; the questions suck
okay i could answer some of them but there were some questions that i didn't even know how to do
and when time was over, i cried,
the time given was not enough
everybody went 'susah gile tadi'
and even my friends from another school said the same thing
so hopefully graph turun and i can get 1a
i'm really hoping for that.
chemistry was okay,
i did okay for paper 1 but was careless at some questions.
paper 2 was okay too. i didn't know some questions but i know most of them.
surprisingly, i knew how to anwer the questions in section b and c.
all of them.except for c section c haha i had the idea but i was not sure whether what i wrote was right.hehe
i felt like crying because i didn't read a thing about it.
i prayed and prayed and prayed so hard,
i remember paying attention in class when teacher was teaching about it.
i remember i sat in front early this year and draw the diagram.
i prayed and prayed,
and surprisingly, one by o ne image appeared on my mind.
first, the diagram. roughly but okay.
then i tried and tried.
i remember drawing charges around the latex particles
and it went on quite a while and within half and hour i kind of knew the concept,
now that's why we need to do a lot of solat hajat for spm.
haha i thank Allah for his help,
without HIM i wouldn't be able to answer the questions.
i checked my book as soon as exam was over and i was right,
except for some terms haha i used latex particles instead of membrane etc.
biology and physics.
i hate physics i am worry about physics.
i want to do it well i just am not confident with myself.
so, pray for me guys!
Friday, November 14, 2008
haha before this we were all afraid of this bloody spm
but now i think spm is just normal,
i did my best,
hopefully i get what ive always wanted,
bm was great but the novel part was kind of confusing.
i already finished half the question when i finally realised i was wrong.
the question asked only for one latar masyarakat i was about to give 3!
thank God i realised my mistake and quickly asked for another paper and started writing
hopefully what i wrote is the right one.
it took me only half and hour to finish the first question,
but it took me like 20 minutes to only choose what i wanted to write for section B
such a waste of time
then i started writing. i chose to write a story. i wrote half way that i went blank. i knew what to write i was not sure whether the way i did the essay was right.
i seldom write a story for exam. i do write story but i just write what i wanted to write i was not sure whether the way i wrote will be accepted in exm,-.-"
then i moved to question num 5. i only wrote a paragraph then i decided to stop and do number 3.
something like 'my future husband'
when i first opened the question i laughed. haha this ques is kind of interesting but i've seen somewhere ques no 5
stars; maybe in mrsm's trial paper i was not sure i saw one of my friend did it and i saw the paper too.= =
history sucks kut. at the very last minute my friends said 'dpt soalan bocor!" like 15 minutes before exam started and most of the bocor chapters, i did not remember the points so i was like crying like hell. when exam started i read the questions and i smiled. nothing like what they said, i could answer most of the questions hopefully betul je
hee math was okay but i checked i did 4 mistakes. doom trial boleh betul semua spm betul salah pulak .i was kind of geram gile but paper 2 i did quite well oke lah hopefully i get 1a.
Sunday, November 9, 2008
1. 7 ciri wanita/lelaki idaman anda.
2. 7 wanita/lelaki yang pernah anda minati sepanjang hidup.
3. 7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan seseorang yang anda minati.
4. 7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda.
5. 7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin akan anda hadiahkan pada pasangan anda.
6. 7 tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda.
7. 7 rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat PERIHAL 7 ini.WAJIB!!mereka musti diberitahu akan perihal ini hehehe.
My Beautiful answer:-
soalan 1: 7 ciri lelaki idaman anda.
things i like about guys?hehee
1. nice, kind, funny (eh dah 3?)
2. knows how i feel and if i feel bad, he'll try to comfort me though tak reti. haha
3. knows how to make me laugh
4. respect me and accept me, who i really am and will always be beside me at my best and worst. hee
5. smayang cukup knows about Islamm (can guide me wehh penting ni.haha)
6. not not not a smoker . if and only if he smokes, he'll try to stop because i hate smoker.
7. a good role model.hehe
2nd ques: lelaki penah aku minat?haha big secret weh kene bagitau kee?
1. zahrul izadi (when i was in standard 3 . p/s: mati kalau die or anyone who knows him bace. btw no hard feeling kecik lg time tu.haha)
2. afiq ra________ fill in the blank. haha (okay i was stupid, i kno)
3. hariz ( lagi lah stupid my own friend.-.-")
4. syawal (hahaa sumpa stupid stupid double triple = =)
5. ikhzad (sumpa kejap je)
6. ouh m______ r_______ (he's bloody cute but oke i admire him i dont really like him)
7. i used to like someone who is now a good friend of mine (i wonder how the feeling died?um,)
soalan 3: 7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan seseorang yang anda minati.
1. butterflies in my stomach -.-"
2. tak sabar sabar nak jumpe.haha
3. cermin cermin all the time.;DD
4. cuakk and afraid and shy = =
5. wanna stay the way we are. time, please stop
soalan 4: 7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda.
2. island. any breathtakingly beautiful island ;))
3. on the boat. just the two of us;D
5. makkah. (hee buat haji doa kitorang stay)
6. niagara falls (OMG)
.soalan 5: 7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin akan anda hadiahkan pada pasangan
1. a song. i'll write a song for him;DD
2. candle light dinner;D
4. his fav car? (kalauu ada duit)
5. a vacation for us?
6. um, chocolate?
7. a watch.
soalan 6: 7 tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda.
1. my guardian angel.
2. love bug!
3. only one
4. when you look me in the eyes
5. kiss me (gempak tak?:D)
2.soalan 7: 7 rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat PERIHAL 7 ini.WAJIB!!mereka musti diberitahu akan perihal ini
tatau sape.haha nak suro syiqa die yg bagi so no one;DD
2. During your lifetime, you'll eat about 60,000 pounds of food, that's the weight of about 6 elephants.
3. Einstein couldn't speak fluently when he was nine. His parents thought he might be retarded.
4. Every time Beethoven sat down to write music, he poured ice water over his head.
5. Women's hearts beat faster than men's. (ooh patutlaa;D)
6. The average person falls asleep in seven minutes.
7. The average person has over 1,460 dreams a year. (A YEAR??? )
8. The average person is about a quarter of an inch taller at night.
9. The average person laughs 15 times a day
10. Over 1000 birds a year die from smashing into windows.
11. Owls are one of the only birds who can see the color blue.
12. Mosquitoes have teeth
13. Kotex was first manufactured as bandages, during WWI
14. Barbie's measurements if she were life size: 39-23-33.
15. More people are killed annually by donkeys than die in air crashes
16. It cost 7 million dollars to build the Titanic and 200 million to make a film about it. (no wonder/the movie is awesomely awesome!).
17. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair
18. Colgate faced big obstacle marketing toothpaste in Spanish speaking countries. Colgate translates into the command “go hang yourself.” (hahaa)
19. It's physically impossible for you to lick your elbow. (or can you?
20. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying (I'll try this tonight!)
21. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning. (good fact for spm candidates. no more coffee babyy)
22. A duck's quack doesn't echo and no one knows why
23. Almost everyone who reads this will try to lick their elbow.
24. . TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row of the keyboard.
Friday, November 7, 2008
ahahaa we waited for like half and hour for teachers to finish their morning prayer.
i read sejarah instead of joining them talking about blah blah blah = =
then finally teacher arrived.
after some babblings, it's our turn to ask for forgiveness from the teachers.
so my class was the first class to go and i saw the guys, including raes, his mother was there as penolong kanan.
everyone was like waiting for rais's turn to go to his mom and when he hugged his mom everyone was like 'wooo'
hahaa he cried, pn rahmah too. touching siot. hahaa.
it's not easy to see guys cry but most of them cry. i tried not to cry yayy but i cried a little only.
then we ate ate ate like hell and went upstairs
got some taklimat about spm.
when i received the slip i was like 'gosh, spm nak dekat!!!'
i just can't believe it.
the day i've been waiting to come.
hahaaa it's coming now it's coming
there's no turning back. lalalaa.
my hand was shaking you know when i received the slip
and everyone was like hugging each other and asked for forgiveness.
i was bloody evil
i waited for 12.00++ to come to say sorry to my friends.
i wanted to punch and kick them as many as i can baru mintak maaf.
hahaa so diorang mintak maaf dah and i went 'ooh aku mintak maaf lambat sket."
haha then i kicked them and run.
inilah kerja kami 3 hari sebelum spm.
aina punched me and i punched her back and then boleh pulak main kejar kejar kt dlm dewan.
haaha then milah pulak.
tan even took our pictures punching each other = =
then baru lah mintak maaf.
hee sedih sedih banyak buat dose wehh.;DD
it was a sad situation
realizing we won't be meeting each other everyday like we used to.
sitting in the middle of everyone, seeing them laugh, kicking, punching each other made my tears fell.
i won't be sitting around them like this anymore
i won't be laughing out loud with them anymore.
it hurts to know that this is the end
-gosh,i do love them so much God please don't take them away from me. amin..
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
"weh takkan nak g skola balik. alang alang serong jum serong terus"
"ooh aku tak kesah"
"jum ah g jj"
and aina borrowed my jeans and a man u t-shirt and we went to seven. i texted ban otw asking whether he wanted to go. then i remembered something
"weh bukan ke jj bukak pukul 10"
"haah lupe plak.abistu carrefour?"
"carrefour pun same"
"lah bistu takkan giant"
"besol la nak pegi sane!"
hahaa it was like 8 am and we were in front of school waited for ban to serong.
and we took a cab and went to kfc behind carrefour.
carrefour pun tak bukak lagi.hahaha
so we ate and ate and went to school back
before that salin baju skola balik kt toilet kfc
bapak malu kut ==
we reached school at like 9.30 am and ban asked
"kau nak masuk chem?"
we replied "kau nak mati? kite da lambat almost an hour!"
so we just hang out at an empty class and started to read history.
i borrowed ban's hp to transfer some of my pictures to my phone
but then terkantoi i was also transferring -'s picture.
hahaa shuhhh weh jgn gtau org sape.
dah la raihan was there tu tak pasal pasal die tau gak
then i went to makmal bio and met milah
"milah, kite ngn die da tade pape!haha"
*i won't going to tell who that die is*
"hah?ulang balik" milah said,
"er ape yg milah dgr tadi lah"
" ckp balikkk"
"kite ngn die da tade pape"
and she was like 'YAY!! and sepp sepp and called her bf and informed him and both of them were bloody happy
"apsal korg plak yg over over/?patut aku yg happy. haha"
"yela nak nina ngn amer!"
yeah best sbenarnye. tak pasal pasal name mamat tu kuar
bosan bosan sume org keep gossiping us around padahal bukan ade pape pun -.-"
and then aina came and said teacher's waiting for me
ban and i went to computer lab to meet teacher to apologize for ponteng kelas and she was like
"haa korg ingat ni skola mak korang mentang mentang nak abis skola suke hatii je.esok takya masuk klas saye"
"ala cikgu..sorry ah cikguu saya kene balik jugak nk amik surat beranakkk adik. bukan sengaja tadi mesyuarat etc"
and she was like mara mara and i was kind of cuak aina said teacher didn't scold her apsal kitorang kene.
so after like 5 minutes i could see her smiling
chehh penat je cuak saje je nk buat muke mara tadi sebenarnye
"hah esok siapkan sume keje saya nak tgk"
she was still smiling and we went "ooh okay no hal da siap da"
the stupid thing is, my paper is gone don't know where. ni kt rumah raes la teramik ketas aina ketas seniri hilang == punye confident ckp boleh anta mati besok/
and i stayed back with raje and ban and afif to study biology for like 2 hours.
haha sitting with them made me crazy. for a while.
then before we went home we took the baju lab and took pictures. if teacher find out mati ah.
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
to know that you will never be with the one you love hurts
to know that someone you love will never loves you hurts.
and it hurts when everything that has to do about someone you love hurts you.
you can't force someone to love you,
and you can't stop yourself from loving someone.
but i wonder, why the feeling of love is so strong that it can take a life of something we call human?
i fell in love,
i was not sure whether it was just stupid love or a real one.
i fell many many times and sometimes the feeling just fade and the hell, i don't even know why.
to see the face, or picture, or whatever of someone you love every single day talking to someone else hurts hoping that you will be the person he will talk to. but he never does.
well, to cry over someone you love is just so stupid
i did it, that means, i was stupid for crying over a useless person.
to really want to know what he's doing every single day, while that person never wants to care about you.
to have to open your messenger hoping that he will online but he was not there hurts, too.
to have to figure out what that person is thinking, hurts too.
to have to keep your feelings all by yourself hurts ,even more.
its actually a fcking situation that i never want to be in, especially when my exam is coming in just a few more days.
to think about that person every single day really make my life even more mmiserable
i mean i forced myself many times to just forget about everything thats bothering me and continue thinking about it after spm,
but i failed
i just couldn't stop thinking about it though i want to.
i've been wondering what is that person thinking .
and i just hope i will have the power of matt, (in heroes) so that i can read what is everyone thinking about so i do not have to complicate myself wondering what on earth are on their bloody minds.
because i wont kno
nobody tells me i have to figure out by myself, or i dont have to
just let the thoughts die, together with the memories
if ever i can choose/
i will choose not to have feeling to no one until one time when i grow up,
that is, at least 10 years from now
Monday, November 3, 2008
well they asked us to go there at 9 am
i met aina and atiqa at seven at 9.30
and she said "weh raes ada class smpai 11"
damn i had to wait
so we took a cab to giant setiawangsa and lepak at mcd till 11
i was actually not in the mood so i talked less. hahaa i seldom shut my mouth so for me to be quiet was a little weird.
so at 11 we walked to rais's house.
his mother was not at home so did his dad and sisters,
it was only him by the time we arrived there we saw ban entering the house.
so we just followed him and guess what?
raes was cooking pasta.
hahaa he cooked that was kind of surprising *evil laugh*
we planned to study but we only opened our book at 12++ pm
then i felt hungry and i asked raes whether he has anything to eat but there was nothing
haha no rice, no chilli no anything just a sardine. so i cooked it and ate it with bread.
aiyoh cili padi tade cili merah tade limau tade cane nak masak ?-.-"
then afif came with a guitar so besolla study kan
i went to raes's room and borrowed his history book and online kejap.
and then we talked and talked and just main main
and then sambung blaja
rais wanted to go to jj to buy some cds.
lucky afif was there so we didn't have to take a cab there.dah la hujan
at 2 pm my dad called suddenly asking when will i going to be home and i was kind of cuak terus jawab "aaa 4 kut ke 5"
haha then we went downstairs and i took afif's guitar and started playing it mcm sial je tak reti.
hahaa raes played that hujan song aku skandal and aina,atiqa and i started dancing like hell and raes recorded it. haha
exactly !a week before spm.
we were supposed to be stitting quietly praying and studying to get straight a's insted of dancing like retarded retards.
haha yeah we only went to jj at 6 pm after i forced them to take their butts off raes's house and quickly move!
jj was packed it took us like half and hour to find a parking.
and it was raining heavily, too.
and yes we were already there, at last
i was shocked to see the cd's place has turned into big apple, my fav!
ketinggalan kan pdahal da lame da.hahaa.
so after makan makan at 7 aina's mom called asking her to go back
i was also actually worried because i was afraid my dad was going to kill me
so i keep bising bising asking them to make everything a little faster but they were all so relax.
haha i rushed to memory lane and bought a birthday card for zhaf and went back to my friends and i forced them to move.
in the car, i was so noisy "ish da lambat da lambat" and ban went "weh lek ah bapak aku pun mara" yes bes gile his dad called but he didn't want to answer.adoi.
afif sent atiqa and ban first then he sent me i kept asking them to pray for me so my dad wont be angry and aina went " weh kau kan balik lmbat mcm mane pun ayah kau tak pna mara asal nak takut".
haha actually she was right. that day i went home almost midnight but he was just okay.
i went to ts and i waited 2 hours just to get into monorel and finally i reached home at like 10? and a lot more situations but my dad was okay all the time. i had no reason to be worry but i dont know why i still was. adoi.
so i reached home finally and as i went into the house i could hear my friends screaming "go nina" thank god my neighbours were all inside house or else i'm going to hang myself to death trust me.
then my dad asked, "nape lambat" .
"singgah beli cd"
penat penat je from 4 pm to 8 pm risau tak pepasal.
i suffered for 4 hours thinking what the hell will happen
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Such a bad day,
i woke up at 7, received a text msg from a friend saying sorry for not replying my text yesterday.
*not that i care*
then i couldn't sleep and i watched desperate housewives
yay such a perfect timing to watch tv;DD
then i slept.
then i woke up at 10 and yes it all started.
my family and i went to our neighbour's house for a kenduri.
and guess what.
i had a really bad stomach ache and headache and a fever, too.
really really, not a perfect timing because i have to study for my spm
in this condition, i couldn't even absorb what i read.
then i went home and i online and saw two of my friends onlining.
and actually they were studying at my friend's house.
and guess what? i knew nothing about it.
salahke touching? sape suro tak ajak most of my friends are there and i know nothing about it ,
ish mesti la bengang.
whatever it is ban made me even more bengang?
ckp ngengade nk mrajuk
the hell he didn't know how i felt so why didn't he just stfu?
with my dizziness, and everything i cried and cried and cried,
i read history but my headache was so terrible that i couldn't even understand what i was reading.
and i slept for about 2 hours and i woke up and cried again because the pain was still there and i need to study for my examination.
haish i took my bath and started reading again
10 minutes ,history then i changed to agame then chem then agame then chem balik
haha i couldn't concentrate because of the pain.
damn i hope tomorrow i'll be okay.
going to rais's house to study.
ouh yeah right study.
Friday, October 31, 2008
am i too busy studying? heck no.
i'm trying to find a time to concentrate on my study but i just failed.
just because this bloody computer is in my room and everytime i try to study i go "ala lepas ni on kejap lah"
haha stupid my kejap is for like one and a half hour?
if i use that time to read history, i can cover a lot okay.
2 reasons for me to online
a) checking myspace, friendster etc. takes me about 5 minutes per day.
b) because of him (that stupid bloody guy i hope you dont kno who you are)
haha if myspace, friendster, etc and him do not existed then i won't feel like onlining for so long oke. so blame them for ruining my life >.<"
i just can't wait to do my paper.
i just can't wait to finish my papers.
-bad news i have to take amateur radio examination. i'm not interested in it but my dad suroh jugak since my bro took it he wanted to make this as a family tradition? ahaha .
okay i'm sure some of you never heard of amateur radio thingy though it's quite famous ngeng.
even that mustapha muzaffar whoever he is used it when he was in space to contact people on earth? i think so my dad told me.
WIKI- Amateur radio, often called ham radio, is both a hobby and a service in which participants, called "hams," use various types of radio communications equipment to communicate with other radio amateurs for public service, recreation and self-training
i just love to use the call sign it's like a code you call other like my dad's, 9M2NL they call that 'nine might two november lima' and my brother's is 9W2MHZ aka 'nine whiskhy two might hotel zulu. kind of cool kan?
and and yes a few more days before school ends and i won't be a 'budak skola' no more.
am actually sick of people who go ' oh kau budak skola lagi'. damn them padahal they used to be one jugak cakap je lebih. -.-"
haha actually i feel so bad leaving school. not that i love that school but i won't be meeting my friends everyday no more. it's kinda sad you know. i can't imagine my life without school that sounds stupid but that's the truth i hv to face the fact dummie.
i'm going to miss them so badly but first i have to try my best in answering all the papers. i want to do it and i can do it! hee
Saturday, October 18, 2008
Time is running out
We’re rushing, it won’t wait
Now it’s time to say goodbye
Pictures of us in my desktop
Letters of theirs in my drawer
Can I ever pull them aside?
Moving on, with a new life
It’s hard to say goodbye
It hurts to turn away and leave
Wishing we can stay the way we are
But no, goodbye is the only way
Fifty years will be gone,
I’ll be standing here again
With pictures and letters in hand
Recalling the times we spent
And the laugh we shared
We’re meant to meet
We’re meant to leave
Maybe goodbye’s the only way
But never our memories fade away.
*dedicated to: my forever friends
-mea, milah, aina, atiqa, tasha, zue, smira, syiqa, ban, tan, amer, irfan, firdaus, afif, raje, fuad, raes, fazmie, ali, habib, raudhah, nisa, fateen, fatehah, adie
i used to always hear that sentence but i never really feel it.now i know how it feels,how it feels to say goodbye to people you love so much.maybe it isn't a real goodbyemaybe we'll meet someday but who knows by the time we meet, the feeling, the spark will not be the same.
i meet my friends almost everyday,some of them even are at the same class with me for like 5 years?we've been through many things together.we laugh we cry we fight we argue.hahaa.
how can i ever forget the time when we made the hounted house a success.yes, we were so tired and sometimes were angry with each other but hey, that's normal.
friends i will never forget.aina,i've been in the same class with her since 2003.gaga weh kite da same klas 5 taun la weh!we sneaked out from school together, ponteng skola together,ponteng kelas together.we had so much fun though sometimes we don't agree with each other.but hey,that's what friends do.ily smpai mati;DD
mariam jamilah. some call her milah and guess what?i gave her that name!hahaa.we've been friends since form 4.though we only met last year, i really really love her.hee;DDsayang milah sangat sangat smpai bile bile.nnti kwen ngn tan jangan lupe ajak oke;DD
how can i ever forget the time when tan first came into our class in 2005we all hated him like hell. he was so perasan and soo poyo we talked bad about him like million times.but who knows we'll actually been best friend when we started being in form 4?he became my best buddy ever now.haha tan i love you weh.
and habib.i've also been in the same class with him since form 1. but when we were in form 1 we weere kind of baik/well kelas arab le katekan but then since form 4 everyone became different.haha semakin jahat and everything including him. dahh siap bercouple couple ngn fatehah.heee friends forever weh;DDD
um imran yusof as known as ban.wewere close before this but not as close as this year.haha i dont know why but i do love him so muchh!!:D he's tall and thin tak abes abes "lps abes spm aku nk pegi gim nk gemok" wehhh why dont you take some of my fat because i want to be thin! damn you;DDD ilysm jugaa.0.0
and then natasha a very nice girl and a very sensitive one.hee she's clever. yes she is very clever. and also very baik.haha kalau mara die sket die da sedih though i was only joking. sory tashaa.;DD
here goes amir zulzafri the nicest guy on earth, BESOL! haha. he used to be very quiet nk gelak pun diam diam dont know wth happened to him sejak masuk form 4 he became crazy and not as quiet as before.hee. die tak pena mara orang i wonder whether he's an alien or what.or a GAY?;DD jgn maraa.
and then atiqa tiqa tiqa. a very pretty girl. hee. it's funny how we get to become kind of close because our class used to be enemies. well a and b slalu gado je. hahaha. she's nice nice and baik also. sayangg tiqa;DD
raja izzudin a very emotional guy. hee we had a very terrible argument a few months ago. and i hated him sooo much but then i realized we've been friends for 4 years. just an argument won't end our friendship. so we became friends again. hee he's a very nice guy although he looks like he's kind of crazy;DD
afif another emotional guy. haha jgn la merendah diri lagi weh. you have good things inside you but u never realize it. hee he's a very good guy afiff thanks weh hantar aku balik though aku bagi duit minyak tak cukup nnti aku bg lg eh;DD
rais rahimi;DDD hee die ni merengg la jugak. we've been friends since form 4. he made us laugh a lot and he's a nice guy. haha aina and i have seen him NAKED weh.gahaha of course in picture only when he was a little boy. hahaa kau da tak suci padan muke.;DDD
fuad ramathan he used to be a very very nice guy but he changed after a girl cheated her. adoyy jadi smakin playboy and menyakitkan hati;DD but still, i love him la because he's my friend and i always punch him and he punches me backk adoy sakit kut;D
kembar they are very brilliant bijak nak mati tension je. adoyy. always get num 1 and 2. faten and fatehah haha they're alike kut of course la name pun kembar hee. bes gado main main ngn fatenn sebab die ckp takut bile kene mara.hahaa.
hasmira. hahaa madukuu. he stole my husband. YEAH RIGHT;DD her mouth dasyat gak kadang kadangg he we used to be enemies kut when we were in form 1 to 3. when we were in form 4 mule mule gado but end of the year jadi baik plak
hehe same goes to syiqa. same story we used to be BIG BIG enemies but dah jadi baik ouh.hee he likes al-j a lot. and a very good friend to count jugak. nice to know you,girl!
zueeee. hehee she calls me minah hindustan just because i took picture in the garden that is so unfair oke!!she's fun and laughs laughs a lot. bes jugak kwn ngn die.hee
fidaus. haha he used to be the 'alim'est guy in our school but what happened? he has become so crazy. hahaa ckp pun dah lepas. hee but still, his kindness ada lagi just die tak tunjuk je. hebat hebat teruskan usaha!
irfan, bapak terer lukis. his drawings and sketchings are awesome. haha same geng ngn firdaus gak. jenis yg baik baik. hee
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
i have 2 papers waiting to be filled tomorrow;Biology
and yes, here i am, writing this stuff.
I woke up at 10. earlier than usual
and i watched grey's anatomy and ugly betty.
then i had a conversation with syiqa till 1.
and then i read biology for about half and hour and then i opened the tv again,
damn i love the show but i couldn't really watch every single episode on tv because i'm too busy.
so the thing is, i already asked my brother to bring back manyy and manyy shows;
such as, desperate housewives of course, prison break season 3 and 4, ugly betty, private practice japanese dramas etc.
I bet i can finish them all in less than 3 months!
but dah, after spm oke.
oh i'm worry.
everytime i tried to read or study i went 'aah, ape nk bace?'
then i gave up and closed the book and here i am.
i texted almose everyone and asked whether or not they study and this is what one of my friend replied
"dah! dari pagi!"
now i feel like a lazy monkey spending half of her time a day in front of her bloody computer. haish -.-"
what's wrong with me?
i really hope and hope i wont go "oh i should have read this yesterday!'
when i get the bloody paper tomorrow or else i'll stab myself to death.
a few weeks ago i went to lcct to take my brother yg baru smpai,
and then we went to low yat.
my father helped his friend to buy a new laptop;
so we waited at starbucks which is beside big apple and waited there for quite a long time
5 hours, uh not quite a long time but a really long time
so we ordered some doughnuts and ate them all
makan je tauu.
well to be honest the doughnuts were kind of delicious.
i only bought 2 boxes, each box containing 6 doughnuts.
but a big no no to the green one,
haha as you can see in the second picture,
maybe because i hate green tea. yeucks. i wonder how some people can even drink the tea. adoy
and people keep comparing big apple with j co. some say j co is better some say big apple is better but i think both are the same.
hahaa. not good in comparing . i eat everything tak kire sedap ke tak.haha
i was so boring that day, you know, low yat.
everything is about electrical stuff really not something i'm interested in
so after waited for some time and had a conversation with my cousins i went inside and i saw a famous amos shop . kebetulan that time i was messaging one of my friend he asked me to buy famous amos for him.
luckily i have extra money kalau tak jgn harap nk beli -.-"
then i walked inside to find something interesting to do but there was nothing.
i went home at 6 tak sempat pulak pegi tusyen.
the first thing i do when i know my parents won't be home for a couple of days;
invite some of my friends to come over my house and cook!
yea, for me, cooking is fun,
if and only if the food i'm going to cook is something that i love to eat
so there was a day my parents were out somewhere so i invited hannah, nisa and raudhah to come over.
our menu for that day;
1) fried macaroni
2) mashed potato
3) float and jelly
i cooked penuh a periuk kut and we were all 5 including my little brother so imagine, us eating all the food!
uh that's one of the reason , me, become too chubby -.-"
don't blame me, blame the food;DDD
fried macaroni was okay, mashed potato, er hannah liked it but we didn't. haha it was okay but not extremely delicious .
hee first try not bad right.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
this song was introduced by Amir a couple of months ago and i fell in love with it;DD
btw, this song is the song you're listening to because i put the vid in this blog.;D
enjoy the song!
SWEET AND LOW
anywhere you go, anyone you meet
remember that your eyes, can be your enemies
I said, hell is so Close, and heaven's out of reach
but i ain't givin' up quite yet
i've got too much to lose
hold me down, sweet and low, little girl
hold me down, sweet and low, and i'll carry you home
hold me down, sweet and low, little girl
hold me down and i'll carry you home
the rain is gonna fall
the sun is gonna shine
the wind is gonna blow
the water's gonna rise
she said, when that day comes,
looK into my eyes, no one's givin' up quite yet, we've go too much to lose
hold me down, sweet and low, little girl
hold me down, sweet and low, and i'll carry you home
hold me down, sweet and low, little girl
hold me down and i'll carry you
all the way,
and you say your fine
but your still young
and out of line
when all i need's to turn around
to make it last to make it count
i ain't gonna make the same mistakes that put my mama in her grave
i don't wanna be alone
hold me down, sweet and low, little girl
hold me down, sweet and low, and i'll carry you home
hold me down, sweet and low, little girl
hold me down and i'll carry you home
Monday, September 15, 2008
and thanks to teacher yazlina for comforting me,
and made me think more rationally.
about how i'm feeling,
about what i was about to do.
about someone i wanted to forget.
about someone i tried to hate.
uhm, teacher said i will regret if i forget him.
just go with the flow and act normal.
i really wish i can do that,
i really wish i can pretend nothing is happening,
i'm not that strong,
i'm a weak person trying so hard to become strong,
to just ignore my own feeling,
and i hate it.
this heartache is killing me dude!
deep inside me wanting to just throw the memories away
but she said 'when you grow up, everything happens will become your memory'
and yes i believe that.
i believe that everything happens for a reason.
i believe that this is what i need to face to become a stronger person.
this is what i have to face to face a bigger and bigger challenges and obstacles.
this is just something stupid.
a feeling that a normal person feels.
be strong nina!
you're not alone .everyone is around you whenever you need them,
everything is meant to happen.
Allah almighty knows better
He knows the best,
I will try my best to keep on working hard in facing all my problems in life;D
thanks for being my shoulder to cry.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
hee we ate a lot,
eh a lot ke,?
boleh tahan laa.
with milah,ena.tasha,teha,fateen,habib.tan and amer.
wooo as usual milah wanted to sit with tan,
habib ngn tehaa.
and then pegy umah milahhh,
tgk iqbal,the baby boy.
and then pegy smayangg trawikh at a surau in front of milah's house.
i never knew the surau even exists.
and then balik balik balik.
have you ever feel like stabbing yourself to death?
have you ever feel like screaming at the top of your lung
you don't want to look at the person,
you don't want to even see the person,
because you feel like dying,
i'm dying to know the answer for the question that i don't even know what.
i'm sick of waiting for something that i know i will never get.
i'm sick of everything.
no one knows how bad my heart bleeds.
no one knows how i'm suffering
this heartache is killing me,
i had enough.
i want things to stop.
i want things to end.
i dont want to even think about it.
i really had enough.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
A couple of days to go before rayaa.
and and how i'm looking foward to start planning how to get banyak duit raya this year.
simply because i have lotsss of plans waiting. that's my what-to-do-after-spm.
yeah first thing, burn all my books o.o
and textbook also i don't care pinjaman or not.
we''re planning to go to sunwayy lagoon and masuk that rumah hantu thingyy.
and watch movie every week
*aduh suddenly remember need to blanje nicholas mcd/pokai pokai
and work work work = money money money $$$$$
before i can ever think about all those stuff i planned, i need to go through something almost everyone hates ; SPM
and i'm in the middle of trial .;DDD
i didn't get enough sleep. baru bm bi est sej ag wehh.
next week biologyy and physics and chemistry and and add math.
i'll die before the week ends i'm quite sure. -.-"
okay interesting fact; we got soalan bocor for est
the day before exam est tu i went to tusyen la suddenly i heard francesca tanye jija 'eh NGV eh kuar?' and i was like 'what?NGV?'
and i went home and i received text msg from hasmira also said NGV's going to come out.
so i searched for the info and alhamdulillah i was quite ready lah to answer
and then kuar exactly NGV and i was so excited smpai terlupe i was supposed to write a report. What i did was a normal essay. i mean that karangan type with no to title sign everything.
gaaah i was like so pissed off! 4 marks gone!
Damn damn damn
that's going to be a BIG lesson for me; never ever be too excited answering the paper and read the question and instruction very CAREFULLY!
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
"Did-Did you hear that?" I asked.
"What sound was that?" Replying to my question. She heard it too. I could see fear on her face.
"Wanna go and check out?"
"No way, Stacy! I'm afraid!"
"So you're just going to ignore the scream?"
"I've told you I’m afraid! Don’t you?"
"No I'm not! I am going! Someone may need our help!"
"What if anything bad happens?"
"Believe me, nothing will" I said, confidently.
I was not too sure with my decision but I pretended to be brave, in front of Jessica. Jessica is my best friend and also my next door neighbour. We were always together, day and night. Since our parents were not home, we took the chance watching movie at town and we were on our way home when we heard the scream, a very terrifying scream at a silent road which we seldom use because it was kind of creepy. Jessica and I were already late, so we decided to use the road instead of taking the main road, which will take us longer time to reach home.
I started to move towards the sound, silently. Jessica followed behind until we reached a place where bushes were around us. Uncomfortably, we moved faster and faster for about a few minutes before stopping at a spot, with a big tree in front us. We peeped from behind the big tree and started to look for something. It was way too dark but I could see something unusual, with the help of the moonlight.
"Ouch!" I saw a dead body, a woman, covered with blood. Her face was so terrible. Seems like she had been killed violently. Her eye sockets were empty. I could not see her eyes, they weren't there! Then I saw a guy beside her, playing with the dead body, stabbing her again and again. I was so terrified. I couldn't think of nothing. I couldn't even hear the sound of Jessica's breath. After a moment, I turned to Jessica. I was sure she felt the same feeling as I did. I tried to open my mouth, forcing words to come out from it.
"Jes-Jessica, can you see that?" I asked
"What are we supposed to do? I am afraid. Let’s get the hell out of here!"
"You mean, we should just leave the body, in that condition?"
"I don't care. There's nothing we can do right now. I just want to get the hell out of here. This isn't a request, this is a decision!"
I had no choice but to follow. Silently, Jessica started to walk, but after a few steps, something bad happened. I accidentally stepped on a dead branch, causing a crack sound.
"Shit!” I said while looking behind. I could see the man felt disturbed. I saw him starting to leave the body, searching for the sound and after a moment, he found us. My adrenaline suddenly increased unexpectedly as I saw him staring straight into my eyes, fiercely. I was stunned. I didn’t know why I didn’t move even for one step. I started to sweat badly. Jess was also drenched in sweat as we saw the mad man started chasing us-with a bloody axe on his hand.
I could hear Jessica's scream and my body automatically ran.
Run, run, run, I said to myself.
The sky was clear. No stars, not even one and we're running from death! I didn't look back even once, I was so afraid. The only thing in my mind was to reach home as soon as possible. I could see Jessica too, which was already a few meters ahead, running from death. We reached our neighbourhood and I saw Jessica looked behind. I forced myself to look, but the mad man wasn't behind us. We looked around, still, we couldn't find him. He was nowhere to be found. Finally, we reached our house. We stopped and took a deep breath.
"Stacy, I’m afraid"
"Cool babe, he's gone"
"What if he comes back?"
"He won’t, believe me"
"You're asking me to believe you? You asked me to believe you and I did but what happened? He will come back for us I'm sure!" she yelled. There were tears in her eyes. She tried to prevent the tears from flowing out but failed. They flowed, on her cheek.
"I'm sorry" that's the only sentence that I could say. I knew I was wrong.
"Gosh, I'm going crazy! I don’t want to see you right now. I need some time alone, okay. “She quickly took her steps into her house.
She must be so angry. I was afraid any bad thing will happen but I couldn't do anything. She didn't want to see me. I stepped inside my house, headed straight to the toilet. I stared into the mirror at the reflection of myself. Then I opened the pipe, I let the water flowed for some time. I put my hand under the flowing of water and put my hand on my face, reducing the level of my adrenaline. Then I closed the pipe and cleaned myself under the shower for quite a long time. I went out from toilet and dried myself with a towel. I took a t-shirt and a track in the drawer and wore it. I went to my room and laid there. I wanted to forget everything happened just now but the image of the woman and the mad man kept playing in my mind. The man seems so familiar. I've seen his face somewhere.
"Eh!" suddenly I remember. I quickly went to my computer, which was just beside my bed. I opened Google engine search tool and typed 'escaped criminal'.
After searching for a few moments, I found something shocking.
"OH MY GOD!!This was where I saw his face. No wonder he seems so familiar!" There he was, his face on my computer screen. He was an escaped criminal who was also suffering for mental illness. I remember seeing him while searching for my class presentation a week ago. I closed my computer and get out of my room and went downstairs. I went to the kitchen, took a glass of water and drank it, trying to calm myself down. I took a very deep breath and started to think.
"I need to warn Jessica," I said to myself.
Immediately I went out to her house but the door was open! I remember seeing the door closed before entering my house just now.
“This is weird,” I said to myself. I entered her house and called her but no one replied.
"Jessica, where are you? Stacy's here!"
Again, no one replied. I searched at the kitchen, living room, toilet, everywhere but she was nowhere to be found.
“Where is she?” I moaned. Then I move upstairs. Everything seems okay. I headed to her room. Her door was closed, I opened it slowly.
She was lying on the floor, with blood all over her body. The same way with the woman who was killed earlier. Her face was so terrible that I could barely recognize her. Tears started flowing .I tried to wake her, I shake her body, but she was not breathing.
"I have to call the police!"
I was looking for the phone when I saw something strange.
On the mirror not too far from where I was standing, I could see something written on it. I moved closer to the mirror and suddenly my tears stopped. I cleared my throat. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't speak, I couldn't even move my body.
"IF ONLY YOU GUYS WEREN'T THERE, I WONT HAVE TO KILL BOTH OF YOU", written with blood, on the surface of the mirror.
“Both of you? What does he mean? “
Am I the next victim? The thought came across my mind.
Then I heard something. From the mirror, I saw the image of the mad man who was standing at the door. He was covered with blood, holding an axe-which was also covered with blood. He was smiling staring at me through the reflection of the mirror.
"Are you ready for the moment? I can't wait for it, can you?" he said with a smile still on his face.
I couldn't even move my body but tears started to flow . I felt like in a death sentence sitting on an electric chair waiting for my life to end. I could see the man moving towards me. Within a minute, he was already behind me, swinging the axe towards my head.
Hah ha hah, he laughed
I could feel the pain, but I couldn't speak. I put my hand behind my head and I felt the warmth of blood. Then I fell, everything became darker and darker.
But still, I could hear a voice, a very evil voice,
“Have a good night sleep, darling”
Written by: Nur Hanina (5BS1)
Comments: Imran Yusoff / Fazmie (5BS1)
People may cry
The sun might disappear
When the world starts to fright
The rain may fall
The river may dry
One life may be lost
When everyone starts to fight
How can I ever live in a place like this?
A place where everything seems to go wrong
Where the light seems to disappear
Where the laugh seems to stop
In this world of ours
The egos of the humans
Kill the hopes of the children
Their lives are lived in fears
And all we got to see
Are the faces of disappointment
This world is getting darker
Darker and darker
Now we can no longer see
The smiles of the children
The joy of the fun
And when the time comes
We sure can no longer see
The faces of tomorrow
By: Nur Hanina January 5th 2008
Okay it is holiday but we still have extra class on sat, mon and and tuesday. Physics and Biology on tuesday which we finished the light chapter in just 2 hours. yes, TWO hours. Cool? Yeah cool because I didn't understand a thing about it!
To tell the truth, I hate Physics. No matter how hard I try to love it, i failed. I felt like dropping the subject but um they keep saying, "no no you can do it,girl" but dah, they are NOT in my situation. Okay I don't know why but alhamdulillah, maybe Allah is trying to help me because, no matter how much I hate Physics and no matter how much I feel like killing myself answering Physics questions, in exam, i never failed. I remember that one time only 7 people passed the subject and i was one of them though before that, I was bloody sure i was going to fail.But I didn't and Alhamdulillah i was glad.
Okay back to the point. So i need to do something to overcome this situation which, i went to Titian tuisyen at 9 oclock on Tuesday. The thing is, I am already in STA, a tuition centre which is situated just BESIDE Titian Cahaya and the best part is, I have class in Sta also from 8pm-10pm. So i went to STA for an hour for math, with the teacher who goes 'eh,eh eh' and 'are you not interested here? aiyoh just wasting your time and my time also . Waste money also.Why dont you keep quiet instead of go hu ha hu ha' everytime the class is noisy. haha she's funny but need to respect her also as a teacher although i keep talking and talking in class with Miera.;DD .Back to our topic AGAIN.
Hum so at 9 pm i just 'buat muke slambe' join the other guys who do not take English class and went out. Thank God the woman at the counter didn't recognise me or else I'm dead because i don't know what the hell to answer. So I texted Syiqa and told her i was downstairs and she came out. I followed her to the class where hell yes i knew about 3/4 of the students which I didn't really want to meet such as my ex-schoolmates and my classmates. And I just look nowhere and just sit at the place Syiqa 'booked' for me.haha.
Damn he taught well. The thing is, that was my first time learning LIGHT. Okay fine, i learned light once that morning with my school teacher. I just couldn't concentrate and she asked us to read some of the parts which she thinks we can read by our ownselves. The thing is i read that chapter before and i just understand about 20%. And back in tuiton. Al-j taught us light and they went 'ooh okay okay' everytime he explained something. But me, i went 'WHAT THE HELL'! I was trying to understand the concept of concave and convex and i tried to sketched the arrow arrow thingy in the book but some of the students had already done the spm questions he asked us to do after doing the arrow arrow thingy.
Adoy how hard life can be.
I really want to get straight a's for my spm including physics and i'm working on it/ er am i? I've been so lazy nowadays don't know wth is wrong with me but i know i have to work harder and harder so that i will get what i always wanted; all a's on my slip!