Monday, December 29, 2008
haha this is a big shock to me .
my uncle came to my house yesterday and went "nina, you're going on jan 9th, about 13 days from now"
how was i supposed to react,
should i cry, laugh, shout, cry or what?
haha that was a big shock since i am so not ready to leave home, to be specific, leave malaysia!
200 malaysian students went there last november so i'm the third batch, along with other 25 students. second batch, 25 students, will be going there on jan 2nd, a week earlier than me.;D
so when i get there, i need to rush a little because they actually want us to move to second year together with the first batch, which went there last month. so instead of having 3 months of holiday, we'll be having only 3 WEEKS of holiday. duh , and we need to pay real attention if we want to catch up. sucks right? but the thing is, i'm going to second year on september. hee. btw the name of that university is zagazig university. unique name right? haha
so my first step, took pictures for my passport which, i'm going to make tomorrow.
and then kene buat visa.
and i made a new spec.
weh weh dpt spec baru bes, spec lame ntah mane pegi.haha
wah i'm going to do everything on my own. and i got my own things. no need to share no more
so i'll have my very own laptop yay yay digital camera yay yay and my own house. okay la this one need to share. -.-"
but what i'm thinking right now is what am i going to do there
i mean, watch tv, duh i don't understand their language, um handphone, who the hell am i going to message pun, laptop, need time also to connect the internet line, so probably there won't be internet line for about a few days,
and books? i don't have books also. haha probably i'll buy all the books as soon as i get there.adoy
the best part is, it's cold there! so i can wear sweater all the time and that scarf at the neck, i dont know wth it is called. I'd like to wear them but we don't wear them in malaysia since it is effin hot here in this country. I don't have to worry about being called a retarded retard when i wear them there;D
Never ever will i forget everything valuable here ; my bed, my spot:in front of computer in my room, place i used to hang out, LOVELY school yeah, family, friends.
adoy. toodles/ see you next time;D
Saturday, December 27, 2008
namun setelah membace blog irfan aku rase baik aku tulis,
yela bile aku tanak tulis je kebetulan gile irfan tulis pasal bnde yang berkaitan
well. i think this is karma bak kate earl dalam cite my name is earl
don't worry aku tak mengumpat orang weh. aku mengumpat diri sendiri.gaha
tentang kejahatan aku, dan azam aku untuk berubah! yeah!
um ari tu mase dpt call free aku gayut la ngn zainol kan
tapi an bile tgh tgh call tu,
he went "weh kau mmg cani ke?aku tekejut duh"
aku pun.."er asal?"
"ye la kau mcm slambe gile padahal ckp baru due kali"
"eeh aku rase cm aku da ckp ngn kau banyak kali"
"aku jarang jumpe pompuan cm kau. yela aku terkejut oh mase msg tu kau ckp kasar kasar"
fyi,zainol ni schoolmate aku mase skola agame dulu. pna ckp la mase dulu so bile call rase cm da biase ckp. haha kalau bebetul la baru second time ckp ngn manusie tak kenal, tadenye aku jd mcm tu.hehe
ooo malas nk tulis pe kitorang ckp. sinopsis die, die ckp la yg aku ni tak mcm pompuan lain, die tekejut bile dlm msg aku cm"kpale hotak kau" "bodo gile" etc. i mean kasar kasar ar
yay fyi lagi mulut aku ni mmg jahat. sebab dah terbiase
tapi selalunye aku nk elakkan ckp bende tak elok i go "what the fish" instead of wtf kan,
or aku tgh bgg gile aku slalu nak ckp fuck tuu tapi insted of ckp fuck tu sebab jahat sgt aku pun "fish! fish!fish!fish!"
tapi kesimpulannye mulut aku ni slalu sangat nk keluar words yang tak elok . and bile da ckp pasal tu mulelah kitorang open pasal diri kitorang and bile aku cite mulelah aku tersedar yang aku ni jahat. smpai die pun mintak aku brubah kire aku teruk ar kan.
Betapa aku telah hidup dlm dosa. wah ayat mcm aku buat bnde jahat gile je. tapi mmg jahat la jugak,
aku mase form 1 to 3 aku baik ar gak, pegang pegang ni mmg tak pernah ar. aku mmg kene sket je tgn laki terus mengucap bebanyak. maybe sebab mase form 1 smpai 3 kitorang tak rapat sangat laki ngn pompuan. haha tapi kan lepas masuk form 4 ngn 5 ni, aku tatau ar, maybe sebab rapat sangat dgn diorang aku pun jadi ntah, cm jd tape je kalau pegang bende biase,
i mean selagi tade rase 'bzz' or ada butterflies bile pegang tangan laki tu, tape lah.
In other word, aku jadi JAHAT and SOSIAL
um mmg aku jadi extremely rapat dgn diorang sampai kalau pegang pun tade ape.
Astargfirullah. aku memang jadi jahat.
But sometimes, it got me thinking, pegang tangan laki adalah HARAM but then, why do i keep doing that? And by that time aku ckp kt diri aku tanak jadi mcm tu dah, tapi bile kt skola some of the guys cm whatever la nk salam ke pukul ke, i go, "weh dose duh" and they go "eleh, bajet baik ah kau!"
oh i understand, maybe diorang ingat aku poyo sebab before this tape but tetibe tanak. i don't blame them because seriously aku mmg nak berubah time tu, tapi bile dah jadi mcm tu, aku jadi la mcm dulu balik.
ooh aku amik contoh lain, this happened yesterday
aku chat ngn kwn aku and tanye nk pegi tak kenduri kwn aku lagi sorang ni. aku ckp la tade transport.
"weh aku tade transport la nak pegi."
"kau naik la dengan *guy's name*"
"ooh tgk la dulu tapi kalau pegi ngn die, kang aku sorg je pompuan kt kete tu"
"eleh kau mcm tak biase pulak . before this tape lak"
see i told you so
the problem is, kawan aku kenal aku sebagai orang yang tak kesah kalau dgn laki an, so bile sekarang aku nak berubah, image aku sebagai 'that kind of girl' remains and diorang pun dah biase dgn that girl i used to be.
before this, i mean mase aku baik lagi la, kalau orang buat mcm ape aku buat tu , i go" teruk gile minah tu" and yes, i've became that 'teruk' person without realizing it.
Aku tau bile tulis post ni, aku mendedahkan keburukan aku seniri tapi i need to let go everything before starting a new phase of my life.
Before this, sebelum abis skola, aku tanak abis skola sbb aku sangat rindu and sayang kt diorang tapi tapi bile da abis skola ni it got me thinking again, this is the best way. maybe lepas ni aku dapat masuk U insyaAllah kalau dpt aku g Egypt, and aku mmg dah tanam azam untuk jadi a whole new person which is better. Sebab bile aku g tempat lain dpt kawan baru, aku mmg takkan brani nak wat cm ape aku wat kat kawan kawan aku dulu. Sepak diorang, pukul diorang and everything yang salah di sisi agama Islam yeah. Diorang pun panggil aku gangster sbb aku tak mcm pompuan lain, eh, betul la bukan zainol je la, ramai budak klas ckp aku cmtu. Deep inside me, i don't want to be that type of person. haha neither want to be too girly spending too much time on make-up etc nor being a 'tomboy' girl'. Aku memang tak boleh duduk diam but the thing is, kalau dlm family family mmg aku tak banyak ckp and i am known as a quiet girl. kelakar tak?haha and diorang asyik ckp yg aku ni takut and tak reti cakap padahal diorang tatau who i really am.haha ckp kt public tu kire nothing ah. aku mmg react ikut surrounding and sorry to say, surrounding aku dulu membuatkan aku jadi sosial. I don't want to be like that because clearly what i did was Haraam. And i really hope to change. Starting from now.
Tapi part cakap kasar tu slow slow la berubah. aku suke ckp mcm tu. haha, bile cakap mcm kasar kasar sket mcm aku bleh jadi kamcing. But kalau cakap baik baik sgt mcm care aku ckp to certain people, aku cepat bosan.haha stupid right? whatsoever it is.
I would like to comment about couple couple thingy gak.hhaaha. Aku setuju ckp irfan couple ni nonsense. annoying gile bile orang couple over over mcm dah kawen. Nak couple? Up to you lah tapi tak payah buat mcm korg dah kahwin. ntah ntah nnti tak kwen pun terus tak contact cam ape je. Kalau pegang tangan tu, tanak lepas. Haha aku pun jahat pegang tangan kan DULU tapi tade la mcm tu skali. Dengan penuh emosi tanak lepas um because aku dah penah tgk bile diorang buat mcm tu akan bring them the a whole new level. what is it? pikir la seniri kan. Aku penah couple la kejap je tak sampai sbulan pun stiap kali couple tapi tak pernah cmtu, sebab geli ah weh. tangan diorang aku tak penah pegang tapi tangan kawan kawan tape plak an.haha. that's what i meant by pegang tade 'butterflies in the stomach' kalau ada tu aku tak brani sebab takut nnti bile da pegang lame lame jadi lagi jahat. haha kalau ngn bf ni lain sket kan kalau jadi jahat tu.
p/s: so this is it, pray for me supaye aku berjaye dlm mission terbaru. Jadi BAIK!
sekian terima kasih
Thursday, December 25, 2008
sebentar tadi saya menemani ayah saya ke low yat untuk membeli hard disc dan juga external sound card. kami mengambil masa lebih daripada satu jam walaupun kedudukan low yat tersebut tidak sampai 500 meter daripada lokasi kereta kami berada,
jikalau saya berjalan kaki, sudah tentu saya sudah selesai membeli semua barangan dan dapat menikmati big apple dengan tenangg dan menyamankan. mungkin juga saya sudah tiba di rumahh dan menikmati tidur yang nyenyak.
hal ini membuatkan saya terfikir sejenakk tentangg maslah yang melanda negarakuuu tanah airku yang berkemungkinan besar dielakkan tetapi disebabkan kebijaksanaan pemandu pemandu rakyat Malaysia , masalah ini terus berleluasa.
sebagai contoh, ada 4 side junctions tu, tatau panggil ape. Apabila jalan sedang sesak, dan traffic light berwarna hijau itu sudah hampir bertukar menjadi merah, sesetengah pemandu yang bijak masih lagi degil dan tidak mahu mengalah, tetap menekan padel minyak menuju ke hadapan, dan apabila hal tersebut berlaku, memandangkan jalan jam, kereta tersebut stuck di tengah tengah , maka apabila kereta di traffic light lain sudah boleh jalan, tak dapat la dia jalan kerana kereta tersebut sudah memblock jalan. salah siapa? kereta atau pemandu? jangan salahkan kereta, salahkah tuan punya kereta tersebut.
dalam keadaan sesak begini, berlakulah pencemarann bunyi, apabila kadar bunyi tahap hertz yang dibenarkan disebabkan bunyi hon dan juga tengking menengking
*untuk maklumat lanjut, sila refer buku biologi tingkatan 4 bab 8. ataupun buku agama islam bahagian akhlak. sekian terima kasih.
mengapa rakyat malaysia tidak bertoleransi dalam memanduu, gunakan otak apabila berfikir supaya fikiran menjadi lebih kreatif dan kritis, bukankahh begituu ?
mereka hanya mementinggkan diri sendirii tanpa memikirkan kesan dan akibat?siapakah yang harus dipersalahkan?anda?saya?mereka????
semua orang ingin tiba di lokasi dengan segera akan tetapi disebabkan kedesperate-an untuk cepat tu menjadikann mereka tiba di lokasi sepatutnye dengan lebih lambat, bukankah begitu? sesetengah mereka akan mencuba sesuatu yang tidak masuk akal, seperti masuk ke laluan kereta dari arah yang bertentangan untuk memotong. bukankah bahaya?
sayup sayup kedengaran satu dialog antara n, bukan nama sebenar dan s, bukan nama sebenar
n: kadang kadang malas tau nak ikut peraturan, drive betul betul. sebab, kalau kite pikir mcm tu pun, bukannye orang lain pikir mcm kite pikir. in the end, accident jadi jugak,
s : kalau sume orang pikir mcm kau pikir, sampai bile masalah nak settle. cube kalau sume orang pikir cm aku pikir, tak ke aman makmur, maju dan berjaya dunia?"
ayat tersebut telah diubah suai supaya menjadi lebih menarik dan untuk menyembunyikan identiti sebenar kedua dua pihak. harap maklum
masalah yang lain ialah kemalasan rakyat malaysia berterima kasih. kalau orang dah bagi jalan, mereka ini sangat lah susah untuk mengucapkan terima kasih. bukannya susah hanya mengangkat sebelah tangan sahaja. orang pun senang hati . bukan begitu?
berada di atas jalan raya yang sesak mudah sekali mengubah personaliti seseorang. orang yang penyabar pun akan menjadi pemarah apabila berada dalam situasi ini,
azam tahun baru : taknak amik lesen cepat cepat, naik kenderaan awam, kurangkan kesesakan jalan raya dan juga kemalangan;D
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
well thanks to maxis,
free call for one day
i've got to spend my birthday talking and talking and talking on the phone all day longgg.
i even slept for only a few hours because i kept bergayut on the phone with many many many people,
haha sakit duh telinge da panas da.
adoyy but dahh, once a year kut mane bleh lepas kan
so after 12 i quickly called hafiz, lame lame lame then call nisa, then mea, then aina, then zhafri then aina balik then fahriz
fahriz really really really really really got on my nerves.
sumpa sakit ati ckp ngn die.haha so we talked until like 4 am and i slept for a while pstu woke up again at 8. uh only 4 hours of sleep. i had to go to mid pulak to meet my friends. they walked so fast and i walked so slow because i was so sleepy so i was left behind. So i sat for a while on a chair in the middle of the crowd and tried to sleep. but aina called mara mara she said movie was going to start. aduh kacau je. we watched chihuahua tatau eje pstu tak concentrate pun sebb aina ah angau kejap tension je haha then makan dominos and surprisingly they bought us a cake,
i mean 6 of us, whose their birthdays are on dec,
that was my first cake though,
anywayy thanks a lot weh i love you love you love you love you all.
then went to jj and balik and gayut again with huda and then with zainol.haha ngn zainol ah lame gile.tade keje dari pukul 8 smpai nk dkt pukul 1 pagi stop kejap g smayang ngn chat chat.thanks maxis ckp until pukul 12 je but i talked to him until almost 1.haha thanks again for the extra one hour;D
Sunday, December 14, 2008
There's a lot i have to figure out,
Sometimes i'm just sick to even think about it,
about what i'm going to do next, about how i feel.
It's my dream to have a perfect life, perfect job about 7 years from now,
I just don't understand why is it so hard for myself to figure out what i want to be,
I'm jealous with people who actually have in mind what they want to be,
at least they have their mission while i'm stuck here keep thinking what is it i want to be,
talking about this really makes me feel like a complete idiot, a moron and i hate it.
and currently, i've been thinking about someone who isn't supposed to be on mind,
i have no feeling for that bloody person but i keep wondering why is it his image appears in mind? and i can't get rid of it and it sucks.
and the hell,i don't know how to explain it
i don't know why and i don't want to care cause one thing i know, i'm going to make myself not to like him because he's not the one worth thinking about.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
i've been liking this guy for almost a year,
not a crush, but i liked him like hell i can't tell how much i liked him. yes, liked, with a d
i tried sooooooo extremely hard to stop the feelings from growing but i failed,
but guess what/? by the time i'm getting closer to him, by the time our relation becomes better, the feelings just fade .
in a day? completely gonee not even a trace left
duh why am i in such a tense situation?
because, my friends always go,
"weh weh nanti mesti kau lupe aku kan,da tak ingat aku. lepas ni tak jumpe dah" whatsoever.
duh the thing is , i won't forget them. i just knew it.
come on, i still remember my ex-classmates when i was in standard 6. yeah i may not remember how they act whatsoever not that i want to remember clearly because i do not like them.
haha big confession ah?
i only keep in touch with some of them but dah, i still remember their faces and their names even that indian guy who sat behind me when i was in standard 1 i still remember him though i last saw him since like 9 years ago?
i'm the person who remembers whoever close to me.
and note this darlings
you guys remain in my heart, i'm telling you forever and ever,
we may not see each other like everyday or everyweek but memories remain so don't worry
i'm the one who should be afraid here, afraid that you guys will forget me,
duh, yeah i'm hoping 5 years from now when we walk into each other,
please do not pretend like we never knew.
that's what i've been doing to my ex-schoolmates not that i care cause i hate most of them not all of them but most of them gah!
another stupid confession i hope none of them read this.
and i love my friends, and i'm pretty sure i won't forget them
okay enough of this talk.
i've finished watching how i met your mother 3 and a half seasons.
britney was in 2 episodes of the show in season 3
hard to admit but she acted pretty well,
i mean i laughed out loud when she made her joke,
i laughed real hard
it's kind of hard to explain why i laughed since i'm sure you guys won't think what i watched is funny if i wrote her lines here,
so my suggestion ; "GO AND WATCH THAT BLOODY SHOW!"
you will laugh i bet .
duh what else/?
aah i cut my hair
haha yayy i've been waiting for this moment,
haha my long hair pissed me off.
i love my hair but i think it grew too long and it's time for them to say bye byee.
so yeah sorry zue i still remember what you said to me
"nina jangan potongg, kalau kau potong kau akan menyesal mcm kitorangg. jgn potong rambut kau dahh oke kalau tak aku tanak kawan"
haha sorry la babe. kalau aku potong pun nanti tumbuh gak,
kalau tak potong nak potong bile lagi kan,
oh another thing, i got that twilight book thanks to syiqa.
now i'm going to read that book and compare it to the movie,
seriously i think they could make that movie even more awesome,
and legen- wait for it, wait for it................................................................................................DARY!
haha addicted to barney already go and watch HIMYM!
the movie was effin slow and kind of boring,
i don't understand why everyone wants to watch it for the second time,
haha i hope new moon movie is going to be better
oh yeah raye,
raye was kind of boring at first before kak aimi came over and i started to talk to sherry.
so we talked and talked and the bad day became okayy,
glad glad glad,
and i got to play with baby hani. so cute so small. yeah the baby's name is hani, her mother's name is hani too,the baby of kak aimi's brother's pun hani and me? hanina. ala hani la jugak kan, so 4 hanis in a house
asal sume nak name hani ah
haha if ever people call me hani i'm going to smash them and kich them. geli kut.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
the very first time i took a cab alone
i've grown up
haha actually we went to klcc to hang out after spm and celebrate smira's birthday
but since my house if far far from theirs,
and i didn't know how to actually go there
i decided to take a cab
i never really took a cab alone because i was always afraid
stupid, yeah i know
but i made it! it was fun the taxi driver was so kind,
i mean he told me about his children, how his daughter died because of leukimia the hell i dont know how to spell it.haha
it was fun going alone, haha sounds lame but that's the truth
so i met milah fuad syafiq tan at klcc and we went to the food court before amir arrived and smira and kembar and some other people and i need to go down again i have to wait for my friend he was late. effin late
the movie started at 1.30 he arrived at 1.35 thanks a lot, friend
whatever it is,
we watched twilight i actually sat at row f and i just realized my friends ,14,all of them were sitting at row g just behind us. duh what a coincidence.
twilight was okay but it was so slow!
edward was cute but the way he stared at bella, haish
if ever a guy stares at me like that, i'll go kick his ass try me.
okay again edward was drop dead gorgeous but i prefer him as cedric in harry potter.
much cuter and stunningly handsome. woo,
haha then we went to burger king and ate and i asked aina to take care of my bag because i went to the toilet .
i went there for only like 10 minutes but by the time i reached at burger king, they were gone!
i cursed them like hell. haha
of course who wouldn't!
i didn't have even a cent on me! even my phone, my camera, my ticket were in the bag!
and yeah right, how was i supposed to find them klcc in not that small!
thank God a friend of mine went for asar prayer at the surau i waited for him and borrowed his phone and FINALLY i got my bag back!
to tell the truth, if he wasn't there, i dont know what will happen.
then we went to aaa ape tuu name die,
kat lrt tu lupe name haha tangkap gmbar and they said they wanted to hang out at the park,
i felt dizzy actually after eating burger king i didnt know why. haha so i decided to go home early with a friend of mine
and yeah i reached home before 7!
haha i made it i made it!
it's been quite a long time since i made it
i mean reach home before 7.
how terer i am gahahaa
okay spm is finally over
have i said that before?dah i donot remember and i do not care.
haha i thought this moment is the moment i've been waiting for
since spm is finally over,
what do i do?
i just sit in front of this computer 24/7
okay fine minus 8 hours.i do sleep, .
my brother came home on sat and brought many many many many series i'm not going to list them out, because i do not even remember the title of the stories.
haha i watched gossip girl season 1 and finish them for only 2 days. woo.
watching gossip girl made me think and being grateful
i mean their lifestyle, american lifestyle.
to tell the truth, gossip girl is a 'jahat' one,
haha a lot of kissing scenes, free sex.
eww disgusting i know, i'm glad i'm nothing like them.
and now i'm watching how i met your mother.
it's about a father telling his children how he met their mother.
but actually everytime the story ends his children go
"is that how you met mom?"
"no, that was how i met your aunt ------"
my brother told me, until season 4 pun the story about their mom never comes out
bengong they should have changed the title of the story.haha
he kept talking about this series
"nina tgk ar.klaka cite ni...tgk tgk"
haha okay fine i watched it and yeah it was funny.
i laughed out loud everytime i watch it.
really, it was funny
i also spend my day like what? playing pool with friends.
the ym one not the real pool
haha and i keep losing,
damn i'm wonderinggg whyy do i keep losing
i just won several times,
i need to improve,
i don't want to spend money on people who won POOL for GOD'S SAKE
i need to win the bet, i don't care.duh