hello people :)

yaw. hehe . assalamualaikum :)

one day of ramadhan left ;( sob sob i could have done so much more ;(

and syawal is coming in a few days.

i haven't done my shopping yet. not planning to,

but come to think about it.

i don't have shoes or enough clothes. so i NEED to buy something tomorrow *alasan :p

so last week i had the chance to listen to ustaz azhar idrus alhamdulillah.

semangat adik aku "kakyang esok ada UAI kat masjid!"

last last dia yang tak pergi. ngok ngek :p

hee ive always wanted to listen to him live and it was an opportunity i couldn't miss :)

the mosque was full with people. my brother said even solat jumaat tak ramai macam ni.

i feel happy and glad. im proud and happy that people are starting to become interested in reminders and tazkirah. everyone wants to learn more about islam, halal wal haram and something related to akhirat not only dunya :) so say yay to everyone. YAY :)

i sat at the back because i was late :P can you spot UAI? hee

and last tuesday i had iftar with my ex-classmates :)

it has been a few years ;( and i missed them. especially this girl down here, milah!

glad i could finally see you! :)

one of my three best friends. i'll meet you soon mea :) and aina, selamat beraya di US sanaa haha tu lah hang tak mahu balik :p

i'll see you guys again after raya insyaAllah

So selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin :) sorry for all my wrongdoings. i know i made a lot of mistakes ;( i made a lot of stupid mistakes ;( thats even sadder. so again, im sorry :) 

p/s: well result is coming out in a few days (hopefully).

one thing i learned is is don't ever put 100% trust in them when they say result is coming out. their tomorrow means next month! (sometimes, eh, well most of the times ;p) so good luck people!

everyone's waiting anxiously for the previous sem's result to come out
well truth be told, last sem was hard. very very hard.
 but me?
'nak keluar, keluar. taknak keluar sudah'. tak tertunggu tunggu pun. i dont know why. unlike the previous year, dok usha bila exam nak keluar sampai berdebar debar haih.

lol.why? i dont know. serious tak expect apa apa. cuma doa lulus and kalau ada rezeki nak dapat A tu alhamdulillah but based on how i did, ehm, jauh panggang dari api.

anyway, Allah knows best :D
harapannya bila result keluar aku mampu tersenyum dan tidak menangis T.T

suatu malam yang hening

hah, *kira kira guna jari*
sedar tak sedar dah hampir setengah tahun aku tidak mengupdate blog.
itu pun hanya sekali. sekali dalam setahun.

kenapa? aku pun tak faham kenapa.
dulu mesti ada benda yang aku nak taipkan, satu persatu. dari cerita tak mendatangkan faedah kepada cerita yang mendatangkan faedah mungkin? aku pun tak tahu.
baca balik entri entri yang lalu pun aku malu malu sendiri.
alahai aku tulis ke ni, mengarutnya.

i even promised myself to write once in a while but still, i didnt find anything worth writing,
and even if i did, i kept telling myself that it would be such a waste of time spending an hour on this blog.
isnt it good if i use that time to study? or do anything i enjoy more?, bisik hati kecilku. hehe

twitter aku dah delete. dah lama sangat mentweet tweet. well the main reason is kind of stupid so let's just stick to 'dah lama sangat tu membebel di twitter'. tapi bila dah tak ada twitter tu rasa macam, hmm, bagus juga. kalau tak,  kalau gaduh, tak puas hati. tulis. luahkan perasaan. yang belah sana pula baca, dan seterusnya memberi kata kata balas. dan pertengkaran mula meletus, umpama gunung berapi yand sudah lama menunggu untuk meletuskan larvanya. apakah -.-"

last pre clinical year :D

ramadhan kareem. almost 3 weeks have passed. another week to go. when my brother told me that we only have 10 days more of ramadhan, i was like, really? that fast?
i want to make this one different from the previous ramadhan. but im not really sure how im doing.
but certainly not good enough, i can do better :( but i'll try insyaAllah.
its never too late, kan? oh it is too late when we are buried deep down there and not breathing.
but while we still can, it is not too late. yosh! berusaha!


oh semua dah buat statement ini tapi aku baru sahaja ingin menaip di atas papan kekunci ini dan menyatakan,
oh pre clinical year dah berakhir! is this the time to say YES! or NOOOO!
hmm ill go with the latter. hehe
im not sure if im ready but im afraid. T.T can i do it? will i survive? i dont knowwww.
spent a few days at the hospital and as i observed each and every single doctor i began to wonder
"nanti aku macam ni jugak eh?"

"busy jadi doktor. penat. tapi takpe dapat pahala. hehe", a doctor once said this to me.
and i went 'gulp'
haha i know i'll be busy but i dont want to. family comes first. walaupun tak kahwin lagi, i'd like to think ahead. haha. but insyaAllah, Allah will help us throughout our journey :)

p/s : aku ingat aku seorang yang tension bila makcik makcik refuse untuk rapatkan saf. when i hung out with other alexandrians they are having the same problem
suatu malam yang hening ketika solat isyak, aku cuba rapatkan saf dengan seorang makcik ini and then she said this to me
"ke sana sikit boleh tak?"
*blank*