moving on

I don't know whether i was high under the effect of high dose of caffeine or what,

but not being able to sleep last night, made me think a lot about the old times.

so i sent a message to aina

and im-ed ban

when i say we were really close, trust me, we were, indeed.

just imagine we've been in the same circle of friends since primary school.

some from kindergarten, and ended up in the same secondary,same class or from kelas sebelah for years, stucked together and live near each other too. same faces everyday

now you understand why i don't know how to mix in a new group of hamosapiens(!)

i moved on. ze friends here rock big time too. its just that ive been with them for so long that its not easy to forget and accept that everyone has a new life now.

but as the saying goes, new friends are gold, old friends are silver. what i know for sure is, all of them are way beyond awesome :)

There's so many things that i want you to know

So you understand how i feel

what im going through

and how hard I'm struggling with myself.

But i can't.

And it's going to be awkward if you know,

Because we're different.

In so many ways.

How we handle things, How deep we feel about something,

How sensitive i am with what's happening, some things that i take very seriously, and others don't,

Perhaps i overthink sometimes,

I think too much about everything

I think too much about what's going to happen,

how am i going to face things that's going to happen

and i have to say that it sucks

It's not fair you know.

Why am i the only only one who takes thing very seriously? who thinks and feels and wonders too much?

it's complicated. and i can't find a way to solve this.

adios

wait for me please :(

Since i deactivated my facebook

i've lost contact with my highschool buddies.

rinduu :(

lepas habis exam aku activate kejap aku tegur sorang sorangg :(

the tale of BK. :(

Hari jumaat tu aku menjalankan rutin mingguan membasuh baju

aku pun dengan semangat mengasingkan baju yang kena basuh dengan wash machine dengan yang kena basuh dengan tangan. antara yang basuh dengan tangan baju kurung favourites :D

yang ngeng jugak aku masukkan baju kena basuh dengan tangan tu dengan baju hard rock aku beli kat cairo. of course, the cheap one, nak pakai tidur je kut.

pagi tadi aku ushaa lah baju tu sebab semalam kelas balik lambat terlupa pasal baju tu.

aku angkat je tengok tengok baju kurung aku yang bewarna turqoise

tu, dah ada colour merah!

aku dahh nak menangis dah.

tapi aku cool je.

lepas tu aku pun gosok gosok tak hilang lagi.

takpelah, aku rendam dulu.

aku google google.

orang cakap google tu pandai, aku pun ikut lah cakap dia.

dia suruh rebus baju tu, jadi dengan lafaz bismillah aku pun rebus lah baju tuuuuu.

lama gila aku rebus tak hilang hilang jugak

aku teruskan dengan langkah terakhir, clorox baju tu. 'what's the worst that can happen?', dengan confident aku cakap kat diri sendiri.

lepas tu aku masuk bilik. dalam 30 minit dalam bilik tu ada benda terjadi dan secara tiba tiba aku jadi tersakit hati dan sedih yang amat sangat, macam nak menangis je dengan seorang manusia yang dirahsiakan identitinya.

aku pun hentak hentak meja kuat kuat.

lepas tu aku pergi toilet nak tengok perkembangan bajuu

aku angkat angkat, baju tu dah jadi.

jeng jeng jeng

KALER PUTIH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUWAAAAAAAAAAAAA aku pun menangis tersedu sedu satu rumah dengar!

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa baru pakai 2 kali baju tu!! 2 kali i repeat. dah lah aku sukaa

terkenang kenang memori dengan baju kurung tu

kalau baju biasa takpe jugak, ni baju kurung(!)

damn sejak bila aku suka baju kurung ni? hehe sejak datang egypt lah :)

ok apesal ada smiley aku tengah tension!

lepas tu aku cakap kat amie

"aku rasa ada hikmah dia. Allah bagi baju tu rosak lepas aku sakit hati sedih macam nak nangis dengan orang tu sebab taknak bagi aku sedih dah. skarang baju rosak sakit hati aku dekat baju tu lagi banyakkkk lemon lemon lemonnn dari dekat orang tuu. kan kann. baik aku sakit hati kat baju dari kat orang"

hehe.

nanti aku balik malaysia nak beli banyak banyak baju kurung ganti baju ni :(

see betapa sadisnya keadaan baju ni sekarang :( macam ada spot of hemorrhage + thrombosis + occlusion leading tu rupture of aneurysm :(

ok pardon gambar ss tapi ni je gambar dengan baju ni yang aku ada :( see? this thing the-tangkap-gambar-guna-webcam-sebab-kebetulan-tengah-bukak-komputer-sebelum-pergi-kelas does not always happen. only happens when i likee that bajuuu now that its gone i have no reason to live

*always exaggerating :(

adios

Tolong sikit boleh?

I have an advice for you,

*Please imagine as if im talking to myself

i'd like to advice you so that

You can continue sleeping all day long,

Please and please continue study for minutes then meronggeng for the rest of the hour.

Pleaseeeeeeeee when you mood is gone, go watch movie, then come back home late at night(!)
And continue looking at the watch constantly in the lecture imagining what you're gonna do when you get back home.

And yes, think about other things during your lecture, that's gonna help you in your exam

And be lazy. online a lot. its okay that you don't study that much and your result is gonna turun some more. nice kan?

And keep doing thing that you are not supposed to do :( DO ITTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!

*and pleaseee note the sarcasm.

-aku berambus-