Kau ganas tapi feminin?

the heck with the title?

well, ive been receiving this so called 'compliment' for so many times.
and i was like ' err, okay?'

cut-the-crap-everyone.

no no, i am not angry. do not, and do not get me wrong.
The thing is, i grew up around boys.
my siblings are all boys,
I played boys' games. used to play football, the bodoh bodoh one with the gate as tiang gol -___-
baling baling slipar, tumbuk tumbuk with cousins and everyone, tutup botol, i do not have barbies. yeah i did once, but my brother cut the hair and i never got a new one. i was blamed for the botak barbie.

Thanks a lot, brother.

I never had teddy bears. maybe some poohs. the free one from mcD
I used to get robot robot stuff, because my siblings got one. and i got one too
I used to hate skirts. Yes, i was forced to wear them when i was a kid and i cried, like the whole day. *memberontak sekuat kuatnya. lmao*

I HATED SKIRTS LIKE SO MUCH

i wore my brother's t shirts and trousers. and i used to walk like a gangster
and people used to call me tomboy.
Until at one point, i was forced to learn how to walk straight.
i climbed the tree outside my school almost everyday while waiting for the bus,
I did not get out from the school by the main gate, but i climbed the gate behind the school for short cut.

I didnt play the sims or stuff, i played counter strike since i was in standard something i dont remember and was quite good with the game.
i used to try to play red alerts, command and conquer. okay i didnt really know how to play them but watching my siblings played them almost everyday, i became a little interested. a little. i highlighted that okay

whenever I went out with my cousin Afiq, he'd tell my friends

"kau tak kenal dia dulu. Gile gangster doh"

Thanks a lot Afiq. yes, thanks a lot. LOL

But you know, as time passed, i knew a lot of girls and became close with them.
And i learned a little bit how to be a girly girl. LOL
not that much but still,
so my walk became better, not like before.
and i wear girls clothes, handbags and stuff.

Some things do change, but some things don't

Maybe i am not as tomboy as before. I do not wear guys stuff anymore.
Not anymore. Urm sometimes maybe.
But I still love to beat people up. haha
Used to punch and kick everyone at school
especially tan ban and fuad yaw! maaf lah rakan ;p

i couldnt kick the girls because , um because they are girls?
hahaa mati lah menangis kalau sepak. Lol except for milah and aina, i can do that with them :)
but here and now, i cant kick or punch people as hard as i can no more :(
only punch the girls a few times itu pun diorang bising T_T

when i wear kebaya, wedges, heels, or anything feminine,
they went

" waaaaaaaaaaaahhhh nina ayu nyaa!"

or

"semenjak datang mesir dia da jadi smakin sopan kut"

"ehhh kau pakai wedges, gila lah?"

erk i used to wear them since high school kut!
haish,

the point is, however boyish i used to be or still am, ganas, garang or anything, i am still a girl,
a grown up one.
and will always be



thank you

money money money money

"duit dah masuk!"

"waaaaaaaa!!! aaaa!!! "

along with so many other sounds from different people
yes, everyone was excited, except for me.
But please dont get me wrong. i love money, everyone does.
But along with the money, comes another task;
money planning

duit rakyat is finally here.


Well since i have no plan for this holiday,
I used the money for shopping
Havent had this feeling of satisfaction for quite a long time.
Hahaaa didnt even have the guts to go to the mall.

But since my shoes are like koyak rabak already,
kept borrowing friends'.
i felt segan already, so i bought some new shoes and clothes to replace the old ones ;).


This is my first time having my own money
and i dont know how to manage them -____-"
whats the point?



p/s: money is the root of all evil
so watch out, the enemy may be near :)

kabut

Jadual menjadi semakin padat.

Waktu menjadi semakin suntuk

Hidup menjadi semakin tidak terurus

Otak menjadi semakin serabut.

Hati menjadi semakin kosong

Aku menjadi semakin runsing





When can i ever have a perfect break?

everyone is leaving for holiday.
Almost EVERYONE.
i still dont know what to do during this fkng holiday


p/s: seriously i feel lost. i feel empty. I feel dull. I feel nothing.

second

So the plan was cancelled,
again

remember when i said im going to terjun dalam gaung if the plan is cancelled for the second time,
not exactly im going to do it,
but thats exactly what i feel like doing.

yes.

end of this shitty stupid holiday planning
i've had enough T_T

why so excited?

it is funny when a bunch of artists came to our asrama mara,
yeah not to forget, which is in Alexandria, Egypt.

Its true i dont know half of them, perhaps seen them on tv for a couple of times,
One i do respect; Ramli Sarip. and others like Erra, Fizo and some i only recognize but never knew their names.

Some who dont even know who the heck they are pretended as if they know and admire them.
shouted as hell, so excited.
-________-"
after clearing some of my curiosities, i was like 'why was i a little excited again?'. come to think about it, theres nothing big about that. lol thats it.


heard that they are going to make a movie entitled something like selamat tinggal alexandria.
Well seems like this place will become more famous later.
dah-ah.