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Clearly i'm dealing with some emotion problems,
There's a lot i have to figure out,
Sometimes i'm just sick to even think about it,
about what i'm going to do next, about how i feel.

It's my dream to have a perfect life, perfect job about 7 years from now,
I just don't understand why is it so hard for myself to figure out what i want to be,
I'm jealous with people who actually have in mind what they want to be,
at least they have their mission while i'm stuck here keep thinking what is it i want to be,
talking about this really makes me feel like a complete idiot, a moron and i hate it.

and currently, i've been thinking about someone who isn't supposed to be on mind,
i have no feeling for that bloody person but i keep wondering why is it his image appears in mind? and i can't get rid of it and it sucks.
and the hell,i don't know how to explain it
i don't know why and i don't want to care cause one thing i know, i'm going to make myself not to like him because he's not the one worth thinking about.

a question

how on earth do your feelings fade for like a day?

i've been liking this guy for almost a year,

not a crush, but i liked him like hell i can't tell how much i liked him. yes, liked, with a d

i tried sooooooo extremely hard to stop the feelings from growing but i failed,

but guess what/? by the time i'm getting closer to him, by the time our relation becomes better, the feelings just fade .

in a day? completely gonee not even a trace left

why?

ooh banyak banyak

stop it already!

aargh.

duh why am i in such a tense situation?



because, my friends always go,



"weh weh nanti mesti kau lupe aku kan,da tak ingat aku. lepas ni tak jumpe dah" whatsoever.



duh the thing is , i won't forget them. i just knew it.



come on, i still remember my ex-classmates when i was in standard 6. yeah i may not remember how they act whatsoever not that i want to remember clearly because i do not like them.

haha big confession ah?

i only keep in touch with some of them but dah, i still remember their faces and their names even that indian guy who sat behind me when i was in standard 1 i still remember him though i last saw him since like 9 years ago?



i'm the person who remembers whoever close to me.

and note this darlings

you guys remain in my heart, i'm telling you forever and ever,

we may not see each other like everyday or everyweek but memories remain so don't worry

i'm the one who should be afraid here, afraid that you guys will forget me,

duh, yeah i'm hoping 5 years from now when we walk into each other,

please do not pretend like we never knew.

that's what i've been doing to my ex-schoolmates not that i care cause i hate most of them not all of them but most of them gah!

another stupid confession i hope none of them read this.

and i love my friends, and i'm pretty sure i won't forget them

okay enough of this talk.





i've finished watching how i met your mother 3 and a half seasons.

britney was in 2 episodes of the show in season 3

hard to admit but she acted pretty well,

i mean i laughed out loud when she made her joke,

i laughed real hard

it's kind of hard to explain why i laughed since i'm sure you guys won't think what i watched is funny if i wrote her lines here,

so my suggestion ; "GO AND WATCH THAT BLOODY SHOW!"

you will laugh i bet .

haha



duh what else/?

aah i cut my hair

haha yayy i've been waiting for this moment,

haha my long hair pissed me off.

i love my hair but i think it grew too long and it's time for them to say bye byee.

so yeah sorry zue i still remember what you said to me

"nina jangan potongg, kalau kau potong kau akan menyesal mcm kitorangg. jgn potong rambut kau dahh oke kalau tak aku tanak kawan"



haha sorry la babe. kalau aku potong pun nanti tumbuh gak,

kalau tak potong nak potong bile lagi kan,





oh another thing, i got that twilight book thanks to syiqa.

now i'm going to read that book and compare it to the movie,

seriously i think they could make that movie even more awesome,

and legen- wait for it, wait for it................................................................................................DARY!
haha addicted to barney already go and watch HIMYM!

the movie was effin slow and kind of boring,

i don't understand why everyone wants to watch it for the second time,

haha i hope new moon movie is going to be better



oh yeah raye,

raye was kind of boring at first before kak aimi came over and i started to talk to sherry.

so we talked and talked and the bad day became okayy,

glad glad glad,

and i got to play with baby hani. so cute so small. yeah the baby's name is hani, her mother's name is hani too,the baby of kak aimi's brother's pun hani and me? hanina. ala hani la jugak kan, so 4 hanis in a house

asal sume nak name hani ah

haha if ever people call me hani i'm going to smash them and kich them. geli kut.

dec 1st 2008

the very first time i took a cab alone
i've grown up
finally!!
haha actually we went to klcc to hang out after spm and celebrate smira's birthday
but since my house if far far from theirs,
and i didn't know how to actually go there
i decided to take a cab
i never really took a cab alone because i was always afraid
stupid, yeah i know
but i made it! it was fun the taxi driver was so kind,
i mean he told me about his children, how his daughter died because of leukimia the hell i dont know how to spell it.haha
it was fun going alone, haha sounds lame but that's the truth
so i met milah fuad syafiq tan at klcc and we went to the food court before amir arrived and smira and kembar and some other people and i need to go down again i have to wait for my friend he was late. effin late
the movie started at 1.30 he arrived at 1.35 thanks a lot, friend
whatever it is,
we watched twilight i actually sat at row f and i just realized my friends ,14,all of them were sitting at row g just behind us. duh what a coincidence.
twilight was okay but it was so slow!

edward was cute but the way he stared at bella, haish
if ever a guy stares at me like that, i'll go kick his ass try me.
okay again edward was drop dead gorgeous but i prefer him as cedric in harry potter.
much cuter and stunningly handsome. woo,
haha then we went to burger king and ate and i asked aina to take care of my bag because i went to the toilet .
i went there for only like 10 minutes but by the time i reached at burger king, they were gone!
i cursed them like hell. haha
of course who wouldn't!
i didn't have even a cent on me! even my phone, my camera, my ticket were in the bag!
and yeah right, how was i supposed to find them klcc in not that small!
thank God a friend of mine went for asar prayer at the surau i waited for him and borrowed his phone and FINALLY i got my bag back!
to tell the truth, if he wasn't there, i dont know what will happen.
hahaa

then we went to aaa ape tuu name die,
kat lrt tu lupe name haha tangkap gmbar and they said they wanted to hang out at the park,
i felt dizzy actually after eating burger king i didnt know why. haha so i decided to go home early with a friend of mine
and yeah i reached home before 7!
haha i made it i made it!
it's been quite a long time since i made it
i mean reach home before 7.
how terer i am gahahaa

afterlife

okay spm is finally over
have i said that before?dah i donot remember and i do not care.
haha i thought this moment is the moment i've been waiting for
but, dahh.
since spm is finally over,
what do i do?
i just sit in front of this computer 24/7
okay fine minus 8 hours.i do sleep, .

my brother came home on sat and brought many many many many series i'm not going to list them out, because i do not even remember the title of the stories.
haha i watched gossip girl season 1 and finish them for only 2 days. woo.

watching gossip girl made me think and being grateful
i mean their lifestyle, american lifestyle.
to tell the truth, gossip girl is a 'jahat' one,
haha a lot of kissing scenes, free sex.
eww disgusting i know, i'm glad i'm nothing like them.


and now i'm watching how i met your mother.
it's about a father telling his children how he met their mother.
but actually everytime the story ends his children go

"is that how you met mom?"

"no, that was how i met your aunt ------"


my brother told me, until season 4 pun the story about their mom never comes out
bengong they should have changed the title of the story.haha
he kept talking about this series
"nina tgk ar.klaka cite ni...tgk tgk"
haha okay fine i watched it and yeah it was funny.
i laughed out loud everytime i watch it.
really, it was funny

i also spend my day like what? playing pool with friends.
the ym one not the real pool
haha and i keep losing,
damn i'm wonderinggg whyy do i keep losing
i just won several times,
i need to improve,
i don't want to spend money on people who won POOL for GOD'S SAKE
i need to win the bet, i don't care.duh