This is such a torture
I am tortured.
Huwaaaa. T____________T *no, seriously i feel like crying right now*
It started last night, when i was staring at the laptop,
a thought came across my mind
nina : "weh ape kate kita puasa facebook ngn ym seminggu"
asilah tk : "oh okay set!"
and yeah, thats how it started. just like that
Its been almost 24 hours since i last signed in my facebook and ym account
and you know, studying with this bloody laptop in front of me,
You have no idea how i feel. knowing that i could just type my not-so-long id, click the log in button and tah-dah,
but i control myself, theres no turning back,
you have to finish what you started
and i have to be strong.
huwaaaa its normal for me to refresh my fb again and again, every half an hour, check my notifications, reply what needed to be replied, read peoples status.
another night , still staring at the laptop helplessly
i can stand the dont-online-for-a-week if,
a) there is no internet connection and i am aware that theres no possibility that i can go online
b) I am busy doing something else
c) I am away from home doing other things.
but no, this time the internet connection is, urh i cant say that its good, but the globe is there; and i can go online. and i am like super duper boring, and i dont have any other things to do other than revising hell yes for sure.
Facebook, ym are like caffeine in my nescafe,
An addiction i cant control.
But you know, if i dont stop now, then when/?
I have to put an end to this freaking addiction
I want to live a normal life.
These two shitty things are big destractions for me
luckily, blogger is not a part of the deal.
so here i am,
writing and writing. finding the right words to say.
ONE WEEK and its all over.
Just one week nina.
I hope i can make it. Im not sure myself. This one day feels like a year for me.
Go nina go!
p/s: tolong jangan contohi perangai saya. tak elok bukak facebook dengan ym tapi dah terbiasa hari hari online benda benda tu daripada form 1 lagi T_T. sangat teruk kan saya *sigh*