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OKAY SOOOOO EXAM IS OFFICIALLY OVER

the only weird thing is, i dont feel that excited

not like the previous three semesterssss. why?

i dont know perhaps ive grown up. gah perasan.

okok hidup aku sekarang, sangat menyedihkan, bermulaaa minggu lepas

habis exam cvs, air tak ada . *sobs

kalau kejap kejap tak apa

ni langsung! naah nada nil zip zero nothingggggg

aku pun terpaksa lah menumpanggg rumah orang

bajet nak tumpang kejap lah bajet kejap je air tak ada

ni FINAL DAH HABIS AIR TAK ADA LAGI APA CERITA?

nak puasa gano? hishhhh

makan free, masak pun tak. erk sekali je :( menyemakkan rumah orang, menyepahkan rumah orang, memanjangkan queue nak mandi. membisingkan rumah orang. anything else you wanna add?

habis psycho balik rumah dengan harapan air ada, tapi bukan setakat air, elektrik pun tak ada :(

doakanlah air ada sebelum puasa kalau tak aku meraung. tak tipu.

ooh lepas exam tadi aku melantak . well, itu kan rutin harian

makan lah sini. sedap :) kut. kena pandai pilih lah. yang penting kenyanggg :D

Peking, downtown, Alexandria :)

Pemelantak #1

Pemelantak #2 *abaikan tudung yang horror sepanjang gambar :)

Siapa nak mandi swimming pool tengah alam ni ?

Fried fish with mushroom

Beef sweet chilli

Mixed vegies with mushroom

Muka tak berapa nak teruja nampak makanan -.-" *padahal dalam hati ..

Muka sangat teruja nampak makanan

Hasilnya..

dah reti pakai chopstick sikit. sape ajar sape ajar? :P

panas dunia.

kau tahu sekarang musim apa?

aku tahu kau tahu,

tapi yang menarik aku dah kurang mengomel. kurang membebel seperti tahun tahun sebelum.

"nak winter nak winter"

selepas aku menyedari. aku juga membenci winter.

sekurang kurangnya, musim panas aku boleh mandi dua puluh empat tujuh.

bukan?

sekurang kurangnya aku boleh juga, uhm tidak berbalut dengan selimut dua puluh empat tujuh, juga.

sekarang aku sedar aku harus bersyukur dengan nikmat Malaysia.

jangan duduk merungut lagi.

panas itu mungkin satu ujian juga. kau diam, kau dapat pahala :)

tapi bila time tak kena tu,

macam semalam. aku balik exam cvs

penat aku perah otak kan? soalan mcm tut. ok tak tut mungkin. salah aku yang tak boleh nak perah otak seperah perahnya time exam :O

Jujurnya juga aku tak meletakkan apa apa harapan.

Mungkin aku rasa aku dah berusaha, mungkin lah, tapi hanya Dia yang lebih tahu.

ok balik rumah, panas. dalam kepala otak aku mahu mandi solat tidur sebelum ke cofe roastery untuk urusan seterusnya.

Malang bila mendapati aku tak bawa kunci. Betapa manusia boleh menjadi lalai dan leka.

Duduk di luar, mencangkung, bersila mengereng, selama lebih kurang sejam

bertemankan nokia E71 dengan internet bernama TENDA. hampir menangis. hampir menghentak kaki. memang tak ingat dunia panas panas. terguling seketika sebelum jiran depan memanggil masuk. kesian dengan aku barangkali.

Terima kasih. jasamu dikenang. :)

ooh aku ada 5 hari lagi nak habiskan respiratory. Alhamdulillah, masih ada lagi informasi yang lekat di kepala.

juga berjuta ribuan terima kasih buat teman baik selamanya merangkap BFF untuk stokin spongebob yang kuning menerang senang nak lekat di hati. sangatcomel tak rugi aku menangis seharian.

p/s: being ignorant. does that make you a forgiver or a hypocrite?

p/s/s: sejujurnya aku mahu keluangman terus menerus melekat bersama tiongman sampai bila bila sampai mati sampai tua. kerana mungkin, tiongman tidak lengkap tanpa keluangman begitu juga sebaliknya.

perhaps

i know this is complicated for me at least.

i know somehow this is not what we expected.

and i started to think too much about where this is going.

is this the right thing to do?

is this even appropriate?

i know somehow i denied way too much, that i have to think once and twice what really happened

I know i am afraid.

I know i am in doubt.

i know we are still haunted or affected by the past,

i know the hearts are still crushed.

but can i really give this a chance?

perhaps i dont know to what extend we mean the words we're saying.

perhaps right now i can just wonder.

wonder too much

and see where things go

perhaps i am in this half heartedly

because im not sure, i just cant believe too much.

or id end up suffering, crushed again

perhaps because i know too much

a bit too much

perhaps i know too well

a bit too well

i cant really see the clear picture of the thing that happened.

i dont know what am i supposed to do really.

But i just don't want to lose the precious thing.

perhaps im just lucky to have been where i have been.

I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

ze squarepants

perhaps because of this, the twitter background

and this

tumblr background

this, the desktop one

this one as my phone wallpaper

and this as the screensaver *this picture is supposed to move :/

I got this cute spongebob! :D wee thank youuuu kak sehaa. comel suka :D

I might be smiling

But can you really tell whats playing in my mind

or whats in my heart? :/

:))

even when i was so semangat and i cooked but it went hangit and tasted not as good,

even when i tried to eat on the bed because i was so bajet makan pun kena tengok buku lah konon and all the kuah kacang tumpah on the bed, and on the text book

even when i had to cut 10 pages of the epidemiology text book so the other pages won't get affected as well

even when im gonna have my epidemiology exam tomorrow and 10 pages are missing

even when i tried to scan and print (such a stupid thing to do just because i was effing lazy to go to the kedai fotostat) but i failed and wasted an hour on that. maybe less :/

even when i cooked one more time something i never tried before and it tasted , uhm not like what its supposed to taste :/ again. two times in a row.

even when i still have to study a lot for the coming exam

I still have to be thankful because everything happens for a reason. :)

so im thanking Him :)

and luckily, i have ze keluangman so it wasnt that bad really :P

nasi kampung.

wa cakap sama lu, the best dinner we had in months and its just, what?

nasi putih kicap kipas udang, ikan kering, ikan goreng, timun, sambal belacan.

haha mana tak, semangat nak makan nasi goreng dengan sambal dengan ikan goreng macam petang tadi, bila air ikan sambal semua dah siap untuk malam pulak, tiba tiba tgk nasi dah spoiled.

meraung raung aku. nasib baik jie masak nasi putih. sebab aku dengan pikah dah malas pulak.

hehe perhaps semua dah bosan dengan lauk sama

kari masak lemak nasi lemak masak merah masak pedas sup tomyam paprik singgang asam pedas ikan taucu ish ish. ulang ulang benda sama je = =

masak 2 pot selalu setengah tak habis kadang kadang 4 orang

ni 3 orang 2 pot besar pulak, tak cukup kitorang makan sampai berebut.

hehehehe :)

seronok :D ok tu je nak cakap excited terlebih :P bye

arigatou ghozaimas :))

never had the chance to thank the person who gave me this :)

thank you. i was being such a jerk

i should have thank you sooner kan :)

im gonna put a lot of pictures of me and friends here, in alexandria.

becauuuuseee im starting to love it yaw.

im starting to love the pantai, im starting to love my new housee, im starting to love the new section (yes all girls section rocks big time. ive experienced both. do i need to explain more?)

and naz dapat hadiah aku. the odds is, aku pergi beli hadiah tu dengan dia pulak -______-"

hampeh. aku pulak yang tanya dia

"nas balang mana comel? balang ni comel takkk? comel kann yang ni"

and a little bit of

"nasss nak amik mouse mana? yang hitam ni ke kereta? ok tak? kalau dapat kau suka tak?"

lol sekali betul dia dapat. ok sorry kalau kau tak sukaa. kekekekeee

you recognize this thing? yes the small pink and some green ones. sampai tercampak dekat egypt baru dapat makan macaroon ni selalu dekat malaysia dengan bersusah payah cari tak dapat pulak. lol. tapi manis pulak = ="

and the last itemmmm in this post, the must-eat menu for me lah, at coffee roastery. chicken tandooori/ guess cannot let go of the mamak back in malaysia hah? :P but seriously lah suka pulak makan, tapi kena bawak blackpepper sauce pergi lah kalau tak harapan aku nak makan. and the white sauce pasta dia sedap. although aku tak suka sebab nanti sure tak habis, sebab you know how it is with this white sauce kan, aku order jugak, walaupun tahu makan beberapa suap dah give up :P

ok dah shut up nina. baru sedar final epidemiology lagi 3 hari. gila apa? gila gila. eh final lagi 5 hari. mcq lagi 3 hari ni kerja malas backspace. hehehe. gila cuak. = = jangan lagha dah. ok bye :P

Terlalu banyak persoalan yang aku nantikan jawapan,

Terlalu banyak teka teki yang jawapannya tak dapat aku keluarkan.

Terlalu selalu aku mengharapkan superpower supaya aku dapat baca semua yang tersimpan dalam kepala otak kau, dia dan mereka.

Bukan aku tak tahu semua itu tak mungkin

Aku sedar bukan aku sahaja malah semua.

Tapi aku bosan, aku malas, aku tak tahan.

Hidup dengan rasa bersalah. tapi tak mampu nak ubah semuanya

aku tak mampu atau aku tak mahu?

haih. asyik mengeluh. bila mahu bersyukur?

Jangan diikutkan sangat perasaan, nanti hati kau mati.

its coming again ;"(

wahh dah lama tak update? well ive been busy lately. busy?

perhaps lah.

baru habis exam module respi kena masuk terus module epidemiology.

best? memang tak lah. i mean, i do love maths but to memorize all the advantages and disadvantages of each formula? HANDS UP I SURRENDER.

see this? yummy.

hehe so i want to thank Nadia, Mira and also Liyana for those deliciciciciiciouss muffins.

theh why four? lol i want to thank the anonymous who gave me the other one since i do not know who you are, and i hope you read this entry. hehe.

and a month to go before ramadhan. cuak lah kena puasa dekat sini. summer pulak? tapi tak sabar jugak selalu tengok dalam gambar je terawih sampai ke tengah jalan nak jugak tengok live kan kan kan? hehehe.

btw aku puasa sini 10 hari means aku balik hari kesepuluh puasa and aku cuti dalam 2 bulan

naiceee. yang tak nicenya tak boleh nak shopping sakan macam selalu sebab duit tak ada T.T and i have to start saving because i want to gooooo for holiday next winter break ;(

haaa and lepas tu sekarang tengah ada love exchange we're supposed to exchange gifts.

hehe macam macam aku letak selagi boleh sumbat = =. balang comel satu *nak jugak comel = = yang diisi gula gula daripada syera. lepas tu aku taruk mouse laptop. lol patut beli headphone kan ;"( lepas tu taruk key chain and then maggis and milos lol whats the point of putting those things pun aku tak tahu. is this present is supposed to be a rahsia? -.-"i dont know. siapa dapat lepas tu tak suka jangan marah diam diam sudah blame them for giving us such a short time to buy anything good. hehe.