i know somehow this is not what we expected.
and i started to think too much about where this is going.
is this the right thing to do?
is this even appropriate?
i know somehow i denied way too much, that i have to think once and twice what really happened
I know i am afraid.
I know i am in doubt.
i know we are still haunted or affected by the past,
i know the hearts are still crushed.
but can i really give this a chance?
perhaps i dont know to what extend we mean the words we're saying.
perhaps right now i can just wonder.
wonder too much
and see where things go
perhaps i am in this half heartedly
because im not sure, i just cant believe too much.
or id end up suffering, crushed again
perhaps because i know too much
a bit too much
perhaps i know too well
a bit too well
i cant really see the clear picture of the thing that happened.
i dont know what am i supposed to do really.
But i just don't want to lose the precious thing.
perhaps im just lucky to have been where i have been.