ooo saya terdengar bunyi.apakah?

ooh yer hari ini saya akan berbicara dalam bahasa melayu
mengapakah?
kerana saya menerima aduan dari rakan rakan setugas mengatakan "weh aku malas nak bace blog kau ar malas nak pikir"
yer anda mmg rakan yang hebat.
saya meminta maaf atas kesulitan yang berlaku,
cuma, apabila berbicara berseorangan ataupun tengah emosi,
pasti bahasa inggeris akan terkeluar kerana dapat menggambarkan perasaan dengan lebih mendalam.


cerita hebat yang berlaku?
SPM sudah berakhir!
ulang suara, spm sudah berakhir,
ini adalah saat kebebasan yang dinantikan sekian lama,
saya faham, rakan rakan tingkatan 4, 2, 1 cemburu kerana mereka masih tidak bebas,
kerana perasaan tersebut telah saya rasai sekitar satu tahun yang lalu.


petang tadi saya hadir ke sekolah pada pukul 10 pagi,
kata aina, beliau mahu bergambar
dengan hebatnya, saya menggagahkan diri ke sekolah,
malangnya hanya kembar yang kelihatan
setelah membebalkan diri buat beberapa ketika, saaya menuju ke surau.

malas mau cite panjang panjang

dipendekkan cerita, est tadi agaklah sangat fuck*
minta maaf perkataan inggeris harus disertakan atas sebab dan masalah teknikal
hal ini kerana paper 2 agak sukar.
saya menggaru kepala beberapa kali kerana tidak memahami petikan terutama sekali tentang cd-rom.
apakah cd-rom?
apa gunanya google engine tool
pergilah search sendiri.
duniakan dihujung jari anda,

paper 1 membuatkan saya tersenyum sendiri
mengapa,?
kerana, karangan keluar topik yang sangat hangat iaitu nutrisi.
ya, hebat bukan?
sebelum peperiksaan bermula, saya kerap membaca tentang global warming
harap maaf perkataan inggeris harus digunakan kerana saya terlupa maksudnya dalam bahasa melayu.
malah saya menghafal beberapa informasi terkini tentangnya,
tambahan lagi saya menonton national geographic dan discovery tentangnya pagi tadi,
malangnya nutrisi keluar,
bukan malang, malah satu nasib
saya memasukkan segala informasi yang saya pelajari dalam biologi termasuklah enzim enzim maltose pepsin rennin insulin glucagon dan sebagainya.
yang menghairankan, saya baru berganjak ke perenggan ketiga, sudah kelihatan beberapa orang pelajar mengundurkan diri dari dewan
mengapa?
hebatkah mereka?
ooh hebat. mereka bergerak pantas dan berfikiran kritis.
saya tidak sempat menyemak dua kali kerana masa telah berakhir
syukur kepada Allah saya sempat menghabiskan menyemak karangan.

selepas keluar, kami menjadi monyet buat sementara waktu
bergelak ketawa sekuat kuatnya,
melompat seperti baboon,
baboon yang kachakk,
yang kacak dan bergaya,
seperti saya,

kemudian kami ke jaya jusco .
cadangnya hendak ke zoo atas permintaan aina namun malang tidak berbau,
zoo menutupkan dirinya pada pukul 5.
apa mahu buat, sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga.
kami pun bergembira berjalan jalan dan membeli belah
kadang kala menangkap gambar di dalam tempat persalinan baju
di situlah milah membeli baju perempuan buat pertama kali
hebat bukan/?

saya hanya membeli 2 helai baju,
dengan kos yang agak rendah,
berjimat itu penting,
tambahan pula banyak rancangan yang harus dilaksanakan menggunakan duit.

ooh jam sudah berbunyi
saya harus mengundurkan diri.
jumpa lagi di masa hadapan.
selamat tinggal.

problems

a week to go and i'm in heaven
yea yea,
before that,
3 more papers i need to do.
well, i actually want to write about the past papers
such as additional mathematics
which drove us all crazy.
yes, crazy
before exam started, a friend told me if the black sign at the paper is actually at the top of the paper then the questions are going to be hard.
so it was at the top
but the questions were not that hard,
at least most of us could answer all the questions,
so we went

"cheh tade la susah mane kan"

how confident we were
but for paper 2,
my comment; the questions suck

i couldn't really answer them
okay i could answer some of them but there were some questions that i didn't even know how to do
and when time was over, i cried,
the time given was not enough
everybody went 'susah gile tadi'
and even my friends from another school said the same thing
so hopefully graph turun and i can get 1a
i'm really hoping for that.

now chemistry:

chemistry was okay,
i did okay for paper 1 but was careless at some questions.
paper 2 was okay too. i didn't know some questions but i know most of them.
surprisingly, i knew how to anwer the questions in section b and c.
all of them.except for c section c haha i had the idea but i was not sure whether what i wrote was right.hehe

but paper 3, aiyoh latex came out.
i felt like crying because i didn't read a thing about it.
i prayed and prayed and prayed so hard,
i remember paying attention in class when teacher was teaching about it.
i remember i sat in front early this year and draw the diagram.
i prayed and prayed,
and surprisingly, one by o ne image appeared on my mind.
first, the diagram. roughly but okay.
then i tried and tried.
i remember drawing charges around the latex particles
and it went on quite a while and within half and hour i kind of knew the concept,
now that's why we need to do a lot of solat hajat for spm.
haha i thank Allah for his help,
without HIM i wouldn't be able to answer the questions.
i checked my book as soon as exam was over and i was right,
except for some terms haha i used latex particles instead of membrane etc.

biology and physics.
i hate physics i am worry about physics.
i want to do it well i just am not confident with myself.
so, pray for me guys!

6 to go

i am in the middle of SPM
haha before this we were all afraid of this bloody spm
but now i think spm is just normal,
i did my best,
hopefully i get what ive always wanted,
straight a's/


bm was great but the novel part was kind of confusing.
i already finished half the question when i finally realised i was wrong.
the question asked only for one latar masyarakat i was about to give 3!
thank God i realised my mistake and quickly asked for another paper and started writing
hopefully what i wrote is the right one.

english,too.
it took me only half and hour to finish the first question,
but it took me like 20 minutes to only choose what i wanted to write for section B
such a waste of time
then i started writing. i chose to write a story. i wrote half way that i went blank. i knew what to write i was not sure whether the way i did the essay was right.
i seldom write a story for exam. i do write story but i just write what i wanted to write i was not sure whether the way i wrote will be accepted in exm,-.-"
then i moved to question num 5. i only wrote a paragraph then i decided to stop and do number 3.
something like 'my future husband'
when i first opened the question i laughed. haha this ques is kind of interesting but i've seen somewhere ques no 5
stars; maybe in mrsm's trial paper i was not sure i saw one of my friend did it and i saw the paper too.= =
lucky them

history sucks kut. at the very last minute my friends said 'dpt soalan bocor!" like 15 minutes before exam started and most of the bocor chapters, i did not remember the points so i was like crying like hell. when exam started i read the questions and i smiled. nothing like what they said, i could answer most of the questions hopefully betul je

hee math was okay but i checked i did 4 mistakes. doom trial boleh betul semua spm betul salah pulak .i was kind of geram gile but paper 2 i did quite well oke lah hopefully i get 1a.

alamakk dah kene tagged kene jiwang kejap-.-"

jawapan anda mestilah JUJUR,AMANAH,IKHLAS,SOPAN-SANTUN DAN BERPEGANG PADA PRINSIP.(err)

1. 7 ciri wanita/lelaki idaman anda.
2. 7 wanita/lelaki yang pernah anda minati sepanjang hidup.
3. 7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan seseorang yang anda minati.
4. 7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda.
5. 7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin akan anda hadiahkan pada pasangan anda.
6. 7 tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda.
7. 7 rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat PERIHAL 7 ini.WAJIB!!mereka musti diberitahu akan perihal ini hehehe.

My Beautiful answer:-

soalan 1: 7 ciri lelaki idaman anda.
things i like about guys?hehee



1. nice, kind, funny (eh dah 3?)

2. knows how i feel and if i feel bad, he'll try to comfort me though tak reti. haha

3. knows how to make me laugh

4. respect me and accept me, who i really am and will always be beside me at my best and worst. hee

5. smayang cukup knows about Islamm (can guide me wehh penting ni.haha)

6. not not not a smoker . if and only if he smokes, he'll try to stop because i hate smoker.

7. a good role model.hehe


2nd ques: lelaki penah aku minat?haha big secret weh kene bagitau kee?

1. zahrul izadi (when i was in standard 3 . p/s: mati kalau die or anyone who knows him bace. btw no hard feeling kecik lg time tu.haha)

2. afiq ra________ fill in the blank. haha (okay i was stupid, i kno)

3. hariz ( lagi lah stupid my own friend.-.-")

4. syawal (hahaa sumpa stupid stupid double triple = =)

5. ikhzad (sumpa kejap je)

6. ouh m______ r_______ (he's bloody cute but oke i admire him i dont really like him)

7. i used to like someone who is now a good friend of mine (i wonder how the feeling died?um,)

soalan 3: 7 perasaan sekiranya keluar dengan seseorang yang anda minati.



1. butterflies in my stomach -.-"

2. tak sabar sabar nak jumpe.haha

3. cermin cermin all the time.;DD

4. cuakk and afraid and shy = =

5. wanna stay the way we are. time, please stop

6. uncomfortable

7. happyy

soalan 4: 7 tempat istimewa yang ingin dilawati bersama pasangan anda.

1.Italyyy

2. island. any breathtakingly beautiful island ;))

3. on the boat. just the two of us;D

4. japannn

5. makkah. (hee buat haji doa kitorang stay)

6. niagara falls (OMG)

7. heaven((:


.soalan 5: 7 barangan/sesuatu istimewa yang mungkin akan anda hadiahkan pada pasangan
anda.

1. a song. i'll write a song for him;DD

2. candle light dinner;D

3. t-shirt

4. his fav car? (kalauu ada duit)

5. a vacation for us?

6. um, chocolate?

7. a watch.


soalan 6: 7 tajuk lagu yang akan anda nyanyikan untuk pasangan anda.

1. my guardian angel.

2. love bug!

3. only one

4. when you look me in the eyes

5. kiss me (gempak tak?:D)

6. crush

7. thunder

2.soalan 7: 7 rakan yang anda tag dan mahu mereka buat PERIHAL 7 ini.WAJIB!!mereka musti diberitahu akan perihal ini

tatau sape.haha nak suro syiqa die yg bagi so no one;DD

these facts made me think for a while.

1. Donald Duck comics were banned from Finland because he doesn't wear pants

2. During your lifetime, you'll eat about 60,000 pounds of food, that's the weight of about 6 elephants.

3. Einstein couldn't speak fluently when he was nine. His parents thought he might be retarded.

4. Every time Beethoven sat down to write music, he poured ice water over his head.

5. Women's hearts beat faster than men's. (ooh patutlaa;D)

6. The average person falls asleep in seven minutes.

7. The average person has over 1,460 dreams a year. (A YEAR??? )

8. The average person is about a quarter of an inch taller at night.

9. The average person laughs 15 times a day

10. Over 1000 birds a year die from smashing into windows.

11. Owls are one of the only birds who can see the color blue.

12. Mosquitoes have teeth

13. Kotex was first manufactured as bandages, during WWI

14. Barbie's measurements if she were life size: 39-23-33.

15. More people are killed annually by donkeys than die in air crashes

16. It cost 7 million dollars to build the Titanic and 200 million to make a film about it. (no wonder/the movie is awesomely awesome!).

17. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair

18. Colgate faced big obstacle marketing toothpaste in Spanish speaking countries. Colgate translates into the command “go hang yourself.” (hahaa)

19. It's physically impossible for you to lick your elbow. (or can you?

20. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying (I'll try this tonight!)

21. Apples, not caffeine, are more efficient at waking you up in the morning. (good fact for spm candidates. no more coffee babyy)

22. A duck's quack doesn't echo and no one knows why

23. Almost everyone who reads this will try to lick their elbow.

24. . TYPEWRITER is the longest word that can be made using the letters only on one row of the keyboard.

3 days before spm

ouh today got majlis restu.
ahahaa we waited for like half and hour for teachers to finish their morning prayer.
i read sejarah instead of joining them talking about blah blah blah = =
then finally teacher arrived.
after some babblings, it's our turn to ask for forgiveness from the teachers.
so my class was the first class to go and i saw the guys, including raes, his mother was there as penolong kanan.
everyone was like waiting for rais's turn to go to his mom and when he hugged his mom everyone was like 'wooo'
hahaa he cried, pn rahmah too. touching siot. hahaa.
it's not easy to see guys cry but most of them cry. i tried not to cry yayy but i cried a little only.
then we ate ate ate like hell and went upstairs
got some taklimat about spm.
when i received the slip i was like 'gosh, spm nak dekat!!!'
i just can't believe it.
the day i've been waiting to come.
hahaaa it's coming now it's coming
there's no turning back. lalalaa.



my hand was shaking you know when i received the slip
and everyone was like hugging each other and asked for forgiveness.
i was bloody evil
i waited for 12.00++ to come to say sorry to my friends.
i wanted to punch and kick them as many as i can baru mintak maaf.
hahaa so diorang mintak maaf dah and i went 'ooh aku mintak maaf lambat sket."
haha then i kicked them and run.
gahahahaahaa.
inilah kerja kami 3 hari sebelum spm.
aina punched me and i punched her back and then boleh pulak main kejar kejar kt dlm dewan.
haaha then milah pulak.
tan even took our pictures punching each other = =
then baru lah mintak maaf.
hee sedih sedih banyak buat dose wehh.;DD
it was a sad situation
realizing we won't be meeting each other everyday like we used to.
sitting in the middle of everyone, seeing them laugh, kicking, punching each other made my tears fell.
i won't be sitting around them like this anymore
i won't be laughing out loud with them anymore.
it hurts to know that this is the end

-gosh,i do love them so much God please don't take them away from me. amin..

today

ouh i woke up at 7 and went to school i just realized i forgot to bring my brother's surat beranak so need to go back home. haha i asked aina to teman and we went out from school while teachers were having their meeting and i took the surat beranak and asked her

"weh takkan nak g skola balik. alang alang serong jum serong terus"
"ooh aku tak kesah"
"jum ah g jj"

and aina borrowed my jeans and a man u t-shirt and we went to seven. i texted ban otw asking whether he wanted to go. then i remembered something

"weh bukan ke jj bukak pukul 10"
"haah lupe plak.abistu carrefour?"
"carrefour pun same"
"lah bistu takkan giant"
"besol la nak pegi sane!"

hahaa it was like 8 am and we were in front of school waited for ban to serong.
and we took a cab and went to kfc behind carrefour.
carrefour pun tak bukak lagi.hahaha
so we ate and ate and went to school back
before that salin baju skola balik kt toilet kfc
bapak malu kut ==

we reached school at like 9.30 am and ban asked
"kau nak masuk chem?"
we replied "kau nak mati? kite da lambat almost an hour!"

so we just hang out at an empty class and started to read history.
i borrowed ban's hp to transfer some of my pictures to my phone
but then terkantoi i was also transferring -'s picture.
hahaa shuhhh weh jgn gtau org sape.
dah la raihan was there tu tak pasal pasal die tau gak

then i went to makmal bio and met milah

"milah, kite ngn die da tade pape!haha"

*i won't going to tell who that die is*

"hah?ulang balik" milah said,

"er ape yg milah dgr tadi lah"

" ckp balikkk"

"kite ngn die da tade pape"

and she was like 'YAY!! and sepp sepp and called her bf and informed him and both of them were bloody happy

"apsal korg plak yg over over/?patut aku yg happy. haha"

"yela nak nina ngn amer!"

"apehal plak?!"

haaha

yeah best sbenarnye. tak pasal pasal name mamat tu kuar
bosan bosan sume org keep gossiping us around padahal bukan ade pape pun -.-"

and then aina came and said teacher's waiting for me

ban and i went to computer lab to meet teacher to apologize for ponteng kelas and she was like

"haa korg ingat ni skola mak korang mentang mentang nak abis skola suke hatii je.esok takya masuk klas saye"

"ala cikgu..sorry ah cikguu saya kene balik jugak nk amik surat beranakkk adik. bukan sengaja tadi mesyuarat etc"

and she was like mara mara and i was kind of cuak aina said teacher didn't scold her apsal kitorang kene.
so after like 5 minutes i could see her smiling
chehh penat je cuak saje je nk buat muke mara tadi sebenarnye

"hah esok siapkan sume keje saya nak tgk"

she was still smiling and we went "ooh okay no hal da siap da"

the stupid thing is, my paper is gone don't know where. ni kt rumah raes la teramik ketas aina ketas seniri hilang == punye confident ckp boleh anta mati besok/

and i stayed back with raje and ban and afif to study biology for like 2 hours.
haha sitting with them made me crazy. for a while.
hahaaa.
then before we went home we took the baju lab and took pictures. if teacher find out mati ah.
hahaaa.
kesah tak?

-the end-

Love

to know that you actually love someone hurts
to know that you will never be with the one you love hurts
to know that someone you love will never loves you hurts.
and it hurts when everything that has to do about someone you love hurts you.

you can't force someone to love you,
and you can't stop yourself from loving someone.
but i wonder, why the feeling of love is so strong that it can take a life of something we call human?

i fell in love,
i was not sure whether it was just stupid love or a real one.
i fell many many times and sometimes the feeling just fade and the hell, i don't even know why.
to see the face, or picture, or whatever of someone you love every single day talking to someone else hurts hoping that you will be the person he will talk to. but he never does.

well, to cry over someone you love is just so stupid
i did it, that means, i was stupid for crying over a useless person.

to really want to know what he's doing every single day, while that person never wants to care about you.
to have to open your messenger hoping that he will online but he was not there hurts, too.
to have to figure out what that person is thinking, hurts too.
to have to keep your feelings all by yourself hurts ,even more.
its actually a fcking situation that i never want to be in, especially when my exam is coming in just a few more days.
to think about that person every single day really make my life even more mmiserable
i mean i forced myself many times to just forget about everything thats bothering me and continue thinking about it after spm,
but i failed
i just couldn't stop thinking about it though i want to.
i've been wondering what is that person thinking .
and i just hope i will have the power of matt, (in heroes) so that i can read what is everyone thinking about so i do not have to complicate myself wondering what on earth are on their bloody minds.
because i wont kno
nobody tells me i have to figure out by myself, or i dont have to
just let the thoughts die, together with the memories

if ever i can choose/
i will choose not to have feeling to no one until one time when i grow up,
that is, at least 10 years from now

p/s: please, whoever read this. it is NOT you. dont simply think i was writing about YOU because i was actually writing about another person. it is not easy for me to like someone that easily you know. i hate it when someone thinks i like him while i actually do not.

021108

yesterday i went to rais's house.
well they asked us to go there at 9 am
i met aina and atiqa at seven at 9.30
and she said "weh raes ada class smpai 11"
damn i had to wait
so we took a cab to giant setiawangsa and lepak at mcd till 11
i was actually not in the mood so i talked less. hahaa i seldom shut my mouth so for me to be quiet was a little weird.
so at 11 we walked to rais's house.
his mother was not at home so did his dad and sisters,
it was only him by the time we arrived there we saw ban entering the house.
so we just followed him and guess what?
raes was cooking pasta.
hahaa he cooked that was kind of surprising *evil laugh*
we planned to study but we only opened our book at 12++ pm
then i felt hungry and i asked raes whether he has anything to eat but there was nothing
haha no rice, no chilli no anything just a sardine. so i cooked it and ate it with bread.
aiyoh cili padi tade cili merah tade limau tade cane nak masak ?-.-"

then afif came with a guitar so besolla study kan
hahaa.
i went to raes's room and borrowed his history book and online kejap.
and then we talked and talked and just main main
and then sambung blaja
rais wanted to go to jj to buy some cds.
lucky afif was there so we didn't have to take a cab there.dah la hujan
at 2 pm my dad called suddenly asking when will i going to be home and i was kind of cuak terus jawab "aaa 4 kut ke 5"
haha then we went downstairs and i took afif's guitar and started playing it mcm sial je tak reti.
hahaa raes played that hujan song aku skandal and aina,atiqa and i started dancing like hell and raes recorded it. haha
exactly !a week before spm.
we were supposed to be stitting quietly praying and studying to get straight a's insted of dancing like retarded retards.
haha yeah we only went to jj at 6 pm after i forced them to take their butts off raes's house and quickly move!
jj was packed it took us like half and hour to find a parking.
and it was raining heavily, too.
and yes we were already there, at last
i was shocked to see the cd's place has turned into big apple, my fav!
ketinggalan kan pdahal da lame da.hahaa.
so after makan makan at 7 aina's mom called asking her to go back
i was also actually worried because i was afraid my dad was going to kill me
so i keep bising bising asking them to make everything a little faster but they were all so relax.
haha i rushed to memory lane and bought a birthday card for zhaf and went back to my friends and i forced them to move.

in the car, i was so noisy "ish da lambat da lambat" and ban went "weh lek ah bapak aku pun mara" yes bes gile his dad called but he didn't want to answer.adoi.
afif sent atiqa and ban first then he sent me i kept asking them to pray for me so my dad wont be angry and aina went " weh kau kan balik lmbat mcm mane pun ayah kau tak pna mara asal nak takut".
haha actually she was right. that day i went home almost midnight but he was just okay.
i went to ts and i waited 2 hours just to get into monorel and finally i reached home at like 10? and a lot more situations but my dad was okay all the time. i had no reason to be worry but i dont know why i still was. adoi.

so i reached home finally and as i went into the house i could hear my friends screaming "go nina" thank god my neighbours were all inside house or else i'm going to hang myself to death trust me.

then my dad asked, "nape lambat" .
"singgah beli cd"
"ooh okay"

that's it.

penat penat je from 4 pm to 8 pm risau tak pepasal.
i suffered for 4 hours thinking what the hell will happen
haishh.

stomach ache, headache, heartache

Such a bad day,

i woke up at 7, received a text msg from a friend saying sorry for not replying my text yesterday.
*not that i care*

then i couldn't sleep and i watched desperate housewives
yay such a perfect timing to watch tv;DD

then i slept.

then i woke up at 10 and yes it all started.
my family and i went to our neighbour's house for a kenduri.
and guess what.
i had a really bad stomach ache and headache and a fever, too.

really really, not a perfect timing because i have to study for my spm
in this condition, i couldn't even absorb what i read.
then i went home and i online and saw two of my friends onlining.
and actually they were studying at my friend's house.
and guess what? i knew nothing about it.

salahke touching? sape suro tak ajak most of my friends are there and i know nothing about it ,
ish mesti la bengang.
whatever it is ban made me even more bengang?
ckp ngengade nk mrajuk
the hell he didn't know how i felt so why didn't he just stfu?

with my dizziness, and everything i cried and cried and cried,
i read history but my headache was so terrible that i couldn't even understand what i was reading.
and i slept for about 2 hours and i woke up and cried again because the pain was still there and i need to study for my examination.

haish i took my bath and started reading again
10 minutes ,history then i changed to agame then chem then agame then chem balik
haha i couldn't concentrate because of the pain.
damn i hope tomorrow i'll be okay.
going to rais's house to study.
ouh yeah right study.