terima kasih

thanks ex roommate. walaupun kita selalu gila gaduh dulu, tak satu kepala, asyik lawan lawan cakap kadang kadang sampai menangis, kau memang terhebat, hafsah :D thank you do nak menanges ni. hehe rindu do kau serious. dengan asilah. dengan tk. rindu semua ;(


syera, peneman setia aku, mahu ke library, atau teman pergi makan, sampai lah ke tengok wayang.
Kau beli zirafah ni sebab sama macm sweater aku kan. mmg ngeng betul pun kaler sama.
hahaha thanks do comel gila pulak. aku tak ada nama lagi nanti kau pilihkan nama comel comel
sayang kau ketat ketat! thanks weh untuk segala galanya echeh :)


And to SYAKIR terima kasih belanja McD dan terima kasih kepada si kekasih hatinya kerana sudi meneman si boyfriend beli McD.
Hah nak sangat ada amik kau! Siap caps lock nama kau lagi. walaupun aku touching kau tak ingat aku belanja kau mcD tapi takpe, aku baik so aku pasrah :D



Terima kasih rakan rakan

My name is nina and i used to be a spy

Okay exam is over.
over
over
over
over
over.
i repeat


exam is over.
over
over
over
cut it out, nina -.-"



So nak buat cuti sendiri boleh?
please. please.


Malam ni aku nak pergi carrefour tengok megamind.
Ok, sangat pending kan orang lain dah tengok
Exam pulak sebelum ni mana boleh tengok?
Tak boleh ke? ke boleh? ke tak boleh? ke? ke?




So im gonna enjoy myself to the fullest today,
and then, back to books = ="



books.
books.
books.
books.
books.

And this enjoyable stressful life is going to continue for another month!
true story
im gonna cry my eyes out.




Bosan. aku benci kau, buku.


Anyway Mike, we meet again.
See, i told you we're gonna meet again after the exam *wink


Meet Michael Westen, the awesome-est spy ever.
*penat aku promote cerita ni kat orang. tengok jum seriouss cool ^.^"

Yo good luck bro.

Tak ke pelik
Orang lain time exam bukan main lagi tak update blog
aku ni bukan main active lagi. -,-"

Ok so lusa aku ada exam

Bukan aku je. rakan rakan lain juga

haha ni memang betul

This time aku tak as miserable as the previousss exams.
Entah sebelum ni kalau exam mata bukan main lebam, lesu gila, tak larat
Kali ni aku macam natural je. Mata tade lah lebam mana. Walaupun tido tak tentu masa.
Ok aku tipu. aku tidur banyak = ="

nak kata dah habis, harapan lah. lusa exam. banyak jugak lagi tak baca ni.
Tapi macam pasrah lah. Sebelum sebelum ni ada baca tapi habis semua terbang melayang entah ke mana.
Haish, memang payah. 2 buku pulak tu. Lepas habis ni practical pulak, assignment lagi, lepas tu final sem.
Hah yang ni memang mati lah.
Takpe takpe, jangan cakap mati dulu
Baca dulu, belajar dulu, struggle dulu, baru lah kalau nak mati, pergi mati
*metaphor je do, jangan buat.
Tapi daripada pergi mati, as in give up, baik kau tawakal dan baca mana mana patut कण

and yes you can do it :D

So rakanzz sekalian. LOL nak jugak z tu? = ="
Selamat Maju Jaya.
Majulah sukan medic untuk negara. :D

ze presentzzz. the f?

As i wrote in my previous post, imma post the pictures of the presents i received -.-"


this one is from anissku sayang. A jar full of CANDIES. say what? nice kan. ive always wanted these gula gula they always bring to class to prevent them from getting sleepy but i am always that lazy tak beli sebab malas. and then she gave me this and the jar is so nice also :) sukaaa :D thanks anis muah muah >.<" and this one is from nadia mira and zzzzz jujue. :D
i have always wanted a clock too haha semua nak ni apa cerita babe?
Yelah because its actually tak berapa nak best everytime i want to look at the time i have to go search for my phone yang terbang entah ke mana. or watches yang kecik gedabak dan separa rosak yang juga hilang entah ke mana. So sekaranggg ni tak payah lagi. =.= ok when i grow up, i seriously am going to buy a house exactly like that one. nice?


Ni pulak dari nenek. Unique kan? But then she always said "sorry nina tak lawa"
and i was like " apa kau merepek ni nek? cun pulak?"
hahaa dia cakap pelik lampu kat gitar but thats what makes the lampu so cool baybeh :)
thanks nenek sayang dikau. nenek terhebat alaf ini. true story.

oh yeah missy joins the club. diberikan oleh rakan seperjuangan kat alex ni. haha identiti dirahsiakan juga. seksi pulak missy ni. asal nurse ek? bukan kita nak jadi doktor ke? ngeng :D
although this present wasnt meant for me at first, but its okay i understand. at least ada jugak intention kan kan? :D

ini pulak from fatin(cadbury) wah sangat terharu sama anda :D the one i always hit and then hit me back. haish awak sorang je yang suka balas balik do you know that? :P

and my batchmate(ferrero) yang perlu dirahsiakan nama sebab nanti dia mengamuk pulak nama ditayang di sini haha
with hope that i stop being emotional.
" jangan emo emo dah lepas ni nina"
haha don't worry lah
act cool be cool stay cool
exactly what im gonna do but the same goes to him lah since he is ALWAYS unstable as in being emotional. jangan nak cakap orang sangat :P


and this last present. the one ive always wanted. since last year pulak?
wah a SWATCH *sila baca dalam nada euphoria, sekian*

weee walaupun agak nak marah sebab of course, aku pun tak sanggup nak beli sebab sayang duit. = =" and ive been wanting this so badly, for like a year already.
i even wrote on my board
'SWATCH, I WANT!' with capital letters, implying how much i want this swatch
but then amie erased it as soon as she knew i finally have one!
Saya sangat suka sampaikan saya pakai ini jam sepanjang malam sambil membelek belek dan mengusha dengan penuh semangat sehingga mengganggu konsentrasi terhadap pelajaran. LOL

So thanks, i was speechless, terharu, happy, malu at the same time ;(
perhaps he couldnt stand me staring at the swatches for a long long time before i went
"nakk swatch! waaaa" everytime kitorang lalu kedai jam. EVERYTIME. without fail. Kind of pathetic, come to think about it.
Im gonna wear this watch everydayyyy thanks thanks thanks, bff! ^.^"

Minus one item in my must-have list, only DSLR left :)

to ze housematezzz *again, what's with the z = ="
thanks for cooooooooooooooooking hari tu. :) nice
considered a present too. muah muah :D

Skill punya exam

Tak puas hati semua nak update pasal exam skill

Hah, tadi exam skill.
Sebelum ni masuk kelas, dia ajar, practice. Memang macam menarik
memang menarik pun.

Tapi dengar cerita diorang kata tak cukup masa lah apa lah
Aku pun dah mula gelabah tak semena mena
Duduk menghadap video dekat mumtazbazz. ulang ulang.
'boleh ke aku buat esok'

Sampai hari aku dengan muka cool, tapi gelabah sebenarnya masuk lah dengan muka confident
Lepas tu budak budak ni semua tanya soalan yang haram jadah tak pernah pulak aku dengar.
Buat muka cool lagi.
Berlatih dan berlatih dengan mimot shaq dan ami,

Sampai lah turn

Pertama, aku kena bagi cardiac compression. Memang best lah. tapi macam terkantoi pulak lupa location compression dekat midline of sternum
Dengan confident cakap midline of chest. Chest apa kejadah?

Kedua, aku kena intramuscular injection. Dengan gluteal region atau bahasa kurang supannya, dekat bontot patung tu. = ="
best jugak main cucuk cucuk ni. tersengih sengih aku sepanjang masa, Nasib tak gagap, step pun alhamdulillah tak ada tinggal.

Ketiga, aku kena bagi ampu bag. dann oropharyngeal airway.
Nasib baik aku tak payah buat mouth to mouth compression.
Kurang hygenic kira. Tapi kalau fikir fikir in real situation kena buat dekat orang betul yang penuh dengan darah darah dan segala jadah yang mungkin ada kat dalam tu. haish. payah, payah

station keempat aku kena buat choking. Bukan choke kan dia, tapi kenaa selamatkan orang choking tu. Bukan orang betul pun patung je pun.
Buat back blow 5 kali beserta abdominal thrust.

yang kelima dapat blood pressure. inilah yang paling aku cuak. Tapi tengok tengok tak ada susah mana pun. Bunyi punya kuat. Semacam ada speaker. Tapi tak nampak pulak speaker. Kena pakai stethocsope. Hah eja pun tak reti berangan nak jadi doktor

Lepas keluar tu senyum tak habis. Bukan sebab senang ke apa, tapi sebab suka. gembira. Macam taknak balik nak buat lagi
Hambik kau muka aku merah tak hengat lepas tu. Sebab sympathetic action take upper hand kut, tachycardia VD of skeletal muscle segala jadah mengambil tempat.

Tapi macam cool lah. Asyik dok menghafal buku je. Ni pun ada lagi satu buku kena habiskan dalam masa 3 hari. entah boleh entah tak. aku dah tension tak boleh belah dah ni.


Doakan aku. cuak. sumpah aku stress, metaphorically.
*kepada korang korang yang suka guna perkataan stress ni, jangan nak berangan sangat. Itu metaphor je symptoms symptoms stress tu kena ada jugak kalau nak cakap korang stress betul

Ok doakan aku berjaya.

oh yes its broken. thanks to you.

My HEART is completely broken, because of you
And you do not know. Never did. Never will
I wish I can just go and say
"GTFO of my life, my mind and my heart."

I cant stand watching, reading, thinking, or imagining.

Enough said.



p/s: tu lah kecik kecik dah pandai nak suka menyuka belajar tak habis lagi kan dah kena. padan muka kau. -.-"

just another day.

best friend baru, bak kata pika haha

the birthday girls :D

ze housematezzzzzz (okee teringat zaman zzz myspace = =)

loveee :D

roommates:)

:)
Just another ordinary day
Spent the day with reading, since exam is coming, in less than a week
and nothing else. nothing else.


Anyway i'm grateful Allah gives me a chance to live another year insyaAllah.


Happiness is all im asking for this birthday :)
and i hope i can become a better person, better muslim, better medic student, minus all the nonsense and those unnecessary things.


p/s: thanks for the tak-berapa-nak-jadi-surprise semalam korang :)

p/s/s : kebanyakan wish mesti disertai dengan " aku doakan kau jadi matang nina"
= ="
kenapa? aku tak cukup matang eh? adoy

p/s/s/s: gambar hadiah nanti boleh? :D

Berubah mari

Aku sedar entry aku semenjak dua menjak ni emo emo semuanya.

Okay masa untuk berubah

Mood transfrom: ON!

yang kurang baik tu letak jauh jauh sekarang ambil yang baik baik je

Exam nak dekat weh. Skill lah practical lah final module lah final sem lah. :O
Nak belajar pun tak boleh nak concentrate :l
Jadi kita haruslah gembirakan diri selalu supaya dapat belajar dengan aman dan tenang
*ok ok aku dah berazam ni

Yang lepas tu biar lepas. Ada hikmah dia. :)
Bukannya kau yang tahu mana the best mana the kurang best.
Allah je yang tahu, jadi kita ikut je dannn doa doa doa :D
*yeah exactly what i should have been doing = ="

Banyakkan solat banyakkan doa, jauhkan diri dari dosa.
Haish. Semoga berjaya semua.

Now you know

I hate myself for sleeping too much T.T
especially during this winter time
ERGH its just so hard to fix my sleeping time and then my schedule also went all serabut.
tried a lot of things to prevent this thing from happening.
you name it

nescafe, failed
sleep early and then wake up, failed
watch some series , failed.
listen to music, failed.
cook, well i planned on trying but you have no idea how hard it is to get out of this saratoga at night
I even refuse to go to the kitchen for a glass of water even when i was feeling effing thirsty!
see how unproductive this winter has made me = ="


ok any more ideas?


Bowling last friday :) It was super duper fun! :) thanks friends. come again next time and we'll do some other crazy things oookay!

p/s: My 2 best friend forever-s were there. :) along with some other good friends.
Now i miss my other 2 bffs :(

why?

location : STA tuition center
Time : About 3 years ago.

i was busy doing add math when i heard F , N, and H, my non-muslim friends were discussing about something and then i heard one of them said; "Go ask nina lah"

and i was like "yeah. what is it?"

H: Um, we were just wondering, you muslim need to wear tudung right. its a must kan. then why are there so many people who arent wearing tudung?

Me : erk, um... i dont know. its just something that we have to do its sort of wajib but they choose not to do it = ="

F : Oh means that its wrong not to do it lah?

Me : yeah right.

N : But why people eh, during puasa only they wear tudung

Me : Idk. i guess they just want to respect this holy month?

N : I have a friend kan, before puasa she wears tudung but during puasa she doesnt wear tudung anymore

H : Haha its supposed to be the other way round kan? haha terbalik pulak.


Okay i just remembered this conversation i had a few years back. Happening during ramadhan.
Well i know i gave such a bad answer. but i wasnt ready, i wasnt given time to think, and i was just not that knowledgeable = =

But come to think about it, i thought they already know
it was surprising that they actually wondered about this thing.

well if i ever meet you again guys, im gonna give you a different answer
way better answers!

i miss them :(

1612

then how come i still feel that 86 400 seconds per day is still not enough?

I am trying to make myself happy, full, occupied.
Somehow there are so many mountains that get in my way
and i cant seem to be able to climb those mountains
*yes im using the metaphor used by our friend last wednesday. thanks anyway for the great talk. or something like that.


sometimes i feel okay
most of the time i feel suck.
and i hate this feeling.

today Dec 16th 2010,
i feel down, i feel bad about myself, i feel so fucked up.
Im trying to get this bullshit things or feelings out of my mind and my heart.
yes, i am bloody emotional at times.
but it's normal, right?
its gonna go away, later.

Now, im gonna go calm myself down :(

Polar Bear.

Winter has changed me
From a normal human being. to a polar bear.
Not that im saying im getting fatter *heck no! although this statement is kind of true = =" T.T.

Its just that, i hibernate. just like them :)
yes, that kind of way


When I was younger I used to say,
"study overseas?. they get to play with snow thats sooooooooo cool!"
something like that.
although there is no snow here, except for that two days
but it's still winter.

now come to think about it
what the hell was i thinking?
cool kepala hotak.
Weather in malaysia is the bestesttttttttttttttttttt among the best
now i miss malaysia
I hate winter T.T
its effing cold and i cant do nothinggg. Please end now. and summer don't come
You're effing hot
why cant you have a normal temperature, eh, egypt?! -.-"

yes finally!

My post the night before this happened

Berkat permintaan di bumi anbiya'
Now darling, you got what you wanted!

haha datang kelas setengah jam awal,
just to find out that the lecture hall was still closed.
waited in front of it,
with no atap whatsoever.
and then it started raining,
and we could see qifok and oon,

their payung terbalik already because the wind was so strong.
and thennnn jeng jeng jeng

hujan batu menimpa bumi.
haha berbekalkan payung kecik oon cover kitorang 8 orang.
sakit gila doh, kena kaki dah lah besar ais tu.
besar ais dalam peti ais tapi kecik sikit
lama lama baru kecik.
setengah jam jugak bermandi hujan batu dan hujan normal = ="

didnt wear gloves
didnt wear socks.
and it was effingggg cold
my hands were so numb that i could barely feel it.

although it was such a disaster, it was still coooooooooooooooool
love it! :P

p/s: otw balik dari library pun dah nampak banyak gila pokok tumbang, board jatuh
and diorang cakap 3 orang meninggal. 2 sebab bangunan collapse, satu sebab hempap pokok = ="
laut tukar kaler pulak
dasyat gila kut angin hujan semua = ="

kutub utara versi dalam mimpi.

pagi semalam aku bangun dalam pukul 3 pagi.

Dengar bunyi hujan. angin bertiup sepoi sepoi bahasa.
Bunyi pokok bergoyang.
Bunyi segala jadah macam sedang terbang menerbang.

Berejam meng-wonder betul ke hujan sebelum mengambil keputusan untuk keluar
*kes taknak percaya mesir capable untuk hujan lebat

"wah serious hujan lah!"

Fyi. sepanjang 2 tahun setengah aku duduk mesir,
tak pernah hujan lebat.
Um, sekali dekat zagazig.
Hujan tak lebat pun memang jarang lah.
Kalau hujan sikit berapa minit pun, kau bukak facebook, semua buat comment
'Wah hujan'
memang pathetic betul semua orang. aku pun.
Kira nya nak harap egypt hujan tu memang harapan lah. kain tu tak pernah nak angkat la
*kantoi pulak

Tu yang bila semalam hujan rasa macam whoaaa miracle gila
Lagi miracle bila hujan tak stop sampai malam ni. Dan dengar cerita bakal bersambung berhari hari.
= =" Kau ni sakit ape eh, mesir?
Tambah lagi dengan cuaca yang samar samar winter.
samar samar tu dah tak jadi samar dah.
Dah jadi winter betul dah.

Pergi kelas meredah arus angin sejuk.
Campur dengan hujan chips more.
dengan pasir pasir yang menerjah masuk ke dalam mata.
Sangat kental jiwa aku yang melangkah beratus, beribu langkah barangkali ke kelas?

Aku pulang, dan mula mengeluarkan saratoga.
cepat cepat balut dalam saratoga, menolak untuk keluar daripada kepompong meroon
*saratoga aku colour maroon weh.

memang waktu yang menarik untuk tidur.
aku musykil kenapa time winter ni lah aku tak mengantuk,
terbalik pulak
padahal time tak berapa nak winter, mata asyik take upper hand, tak reti nak bukak bukak = ="
bagus jugak

Jakun bila dapat tengok kilat.
pertama kali tengok kilat di mesir.
beserta dengan guruh kuat.
Serious feel malaysia
banyak kali pulak tu. ehem, dua kali je sebenarnya. banyak lah tu kan.

baru sejuk sikit, tak sampai 0 degree pun, dah mengada
dah nak demam la pening lah tak tahan lah,
ada hati nak pergi main ski nanti . pfft
tak kira nak main ski jugak >.<" p/s: ada seorang wanita arab berurusan dengan sekumpulan pelajar klinikal malaysia. Wanita ini gembira melampau sepanjang masa. Rasa diri dia paling hebat. Dia semangat pergi ke hospital untuk buat check up. konon nak membuktikan pada suami yang dia tak gila, normal lah gembira selalu. Malang bila keputusan keluar, didapati dia memang tidak normal, aka gila. Suami ceraikan dia, kena tahan di hospital. Kasihan bukan? Sesiapa yang terasa diri dia euphoria sangat, cepat cepatlah ke hospital ya.

pengajaran hari ini : sila jangan mengumpat :D

nak famous?

Satu cara paling berkesan untuk jadi famous di alexandria.



KAHWIN.


gerenti berkesan.
sudah terbukti.


*aku tak termasuk dalam calon ingin mencuba. sekian terima kasih

akhirnya!

Bunyi alarm *


arrrghh malasnya bangunnn,
*stretch kaki dan tangan

tiba-tiba

tup!*
(bunyi hanya rekaan)

Kaki cramp!


OUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCHHH SAKIT GILAAA!


okay terbukti winter sudah tiba akhirnyaa!
selamat musim sejuk tanpa salji semua! :D

waited two fucking hours like a stupid person at kfc just to know that everyone else is already home

nice.

:)

Ok the debate competition ended just now.
And i suck, big time.
But its okay i liked it :D

Im not that good, as other people are.
I just love the challenge, love the talk
Thats why i entered this competition knowing that there are going too many awesome people who have much more experience

i was so freaking nervous before the competition and after my maghrib prayer i became okay
but then i started freaking out again, i was shaking when everyone started attacking me about the definition! = =
and all my words became berserabut, i forgot my points and everything.
i even hentak the meja before i went
"ops, sorry sorry lupa pulak tak boleh = = "

My teammate, chong kind of saved the day.
he defended our motion, rebutt the case and everything.


Hee if i say i didnt want to win id be lying
who doesnt want to win right?
But deep inside, i also want to lose!


Because of this debate, i havent revise yesterday's lectures yet
i only touched to book for a few minutes before i blacked out :P


it kind of freaked me out seeing other people in this house study while i keep on practicing !
and i so dont want to enter the semi!
another stressfulness that will make me go half insane!
and another week of not-holding-the-book
H-E-L-L-O! another 20 days before your final lah weh!

anyway thanks teammate,
thanks wani. :P hehe

thanks chong jugak , and congrats do best speaker kau memang mantap!
kalau kau group lain mesti menang so sorry do! haha.

not so good news

English debate for boom2

location : Asrama Mara

Date : Tomorrow

Current status : dying. not literally, of course = ="

Wish me luck.

End.

Everytime i see your face my heart beats fast
everytime i see you smile, i smile along.
But the best i can do is watch you from far away.
And it's not fair i don't get to see you that often.
It's not fair i dont even have the guts to talk to you. = ="
Even when we're in the same room. Same place.


I know i am in no position to put much hope. And im not .


End.

i want these things T.T

DSLR.

Swatch. not necessarily this design. but this one is kind of nice :)

The top two things on my must-buy list
Both i can live without but still, i want them so much
the problem is i dont think my scholar money is meant for these things.
i want a swatch! i want a dslr. :(

:) alhamdulillah

So it has been decided
after weeks of thinking and planning and cancelling
after days of being stressed out about this whole thing
i have finally come to a decision

im gonna join my housemates for a 9 days trip to chezch (heck i still dont know how to spell this right!) , hungary and also austria
wee :) *ok ini muka jakun.


insyaAllah :D


p/s: apis bising cakap nina tak pernah taruk nama apis kat blog. Hah nak sangat kannnn amik haa amikk
Sila pergi gym selalu balik nanti nina nak tgk apis kurus
*tak guna punya adik

ok end

Post si pemalas

Aku menang thunderbrain do.
Hahaa suka suka
First time menang benda alah dekat sini :D
Alhamdulillah

Lepas tu borang BOOM
aku ingat semua kena isi lepas tu aku isi lah
rupanya siapa nak masuk je isi.
Aku bajet nak campak buang je.
tapi Fikri selalu macam bajet nak ambik borang aku.
Aku pun tengah hesitate sebenarnya nak hantar ke tak.
Hah nak sangat kan, ambik lah kau.
kalau nama aku dapat pun tak semestinya kena masuk kan.

Bukan apa, menarik memang menarik
Tapi macam tak boleh nak yakin sangat.

Sumpah do, sekarang malas menjadi jadi.
macam nak rotan diri sendiri, boleh?
Takpun bebel kat diri sendiri

Nina, nina apa nak jadi ni? Awat hang ni pemalas bebenor. Namo budok medic. Belajar tak mahu,.
Gano ni gano?

siapa siapa sudi nak bagi wake up call dekat aku?
ke buat intervention ke = ="
amat dialu alukan


Wah mereka bilang jangan keluar rumah malam ni
Orang arab berkumpul bawak parang sebab mogok pilihanraya
semalam pilihanraya aku lupa nak bagitahu.
So sini macam tak betul sikit kalau masuk bab bab mengundi ni
Biha pun dah nampak. Aku teringin pulak nak tengok
Bukan senang nak dapat peluang
tapi bak kata jijie, mahunya dia nampak aku usha dari atas, mati = ="
okay lah cancel plan. duduk diam diam atas kerusi ni sudey


Sumpah tak tahu lagi nak pergi mana.
Turki macam ramai sangat orang pergi pulak. Bapak bosan jadi.
Argh sumpah dilemma

sakit!

You know, sometimes when i think about it, i got pretty fucked up.
Yes, I always wonder what the heck am i doing here,
I know, im getting used to this kind of life,
But sometimes when i think about it, it got ugly.
I ended up being emotional all day long and the mood to study, hmph, GONE!
But come to think about it, its better to sacrifice right now than later.
Then i started to think about all other people that desperately want to come here, but not everyone gets the chance.
I should be grateful though i have to lose half my life plus some friends. erk many friends. = ="

Winter holiday is coming
Everyone has started planning where to go.
Me?
I want to go to Turki. It costs me not as much as going to other places.
Yes some of them even asked whether i want to join them
Some wants to go to switzerland? some Australia? Some chezch? Rome? blah blah
But sorry guys, i just dont like the idea of spending a lot of money for holiday but suffer afterwards
Plus, i dont have that much money in my bank account.
especially when i spent thousands in malaysia last summer holiday.
But IF turki still doesnt call me, in these few weeks,
I may think about joining their trips
The one that doesnt cost me much money.
Or last choice, im gonna go home . MALAYSIA
I dont want to spend my holiday here please no :(


Oh i curse this teeth that's about to grow
It gave me headache, fever, ache, all kind of nasty sickness that i can possibly feel,
And this started during the 2 hours anatomy and histology lectures just now.
With an empty stomach and the heavy lectures. Yes the professor said the anatomy lecture was supposed to be a two hours lecture not an hour :(
and it still hurts right now, while im typing T.T
take this pain away please i cant stand this anymore = ="

Harry potter

Just now i watched Harry Potter along with some friends.
Well i thought only a few friends were going to be there
But it turned out HECK half kut malaysian students,
Second years semua to be exact. LOL.

I always have trouble understanding british accent.
Because idk, people here and there dont normally use it, They use american accent
that why im more familiar with it and can laugh to every single joke they make in the movie which i cant do much when watching british movies. :(
ahh this one, with no subtitles. i sure am gonna download this movie and watch it again WITH ENGLISH SUBTITLES thank you :(

But i just love british accent.
Id love to be able to use it
Its just so nice and beautiful
Its a shame that idk how to use it = ="


BTW The movie was okay. Im not really a die hard fan of this movie
its just that it is so famous that HP becomes my must-watch movie.

The story is kind of slow, made me quite sleepy
And too many dramas = ="
But it wasnt that bad lah. I mean HP kan.
I almost cried you know when dobby died hes just sooo cute T.T

And there're some parts that made me LOLed.
So funny that i couldnt stop laughing. true story


Okay enough crap. Go perform your isya' prayer, watch chuck and sleep
Dont forget that you HAVE CLASS TOMORROW SAYANG!

okay okay im gonna go now = ="

I am the champion

Hari ini aku amat berbangga dengan diri sendiri
Aku tak sangka aku mampu bertahan hingga ke saat ini

Buat pertama kalinya dalam sejarah aku hidup di Mesir dalam tahun 2
aku berjaya untuk tidur lewat
Tanpa perlu tidur pada petang hari
Tanpa perlu tidur beberapa jam pada sebelah malam sebelum bangun semula
Tanpa perlu melagha langa menonton movie
Tanpa perlu membazir masa menggodek godek application yang terdapat dalam laptop


Adakah hal ini disebabkan keaktif-an limbic system aku
Yang dapat mendetect aku melagha lagha di library sebentar tadi
Hanya sempat baca beberapa muka surat sebelum pergi makan di taberna
Dan di McD sejurus selepas itu?
*Dengan ini aku mengumumkan plan diet aku gagal

Ataupun adakah ini kerana keterujaan belajar anatomy yang memerlukan aku melukis dan mewarna?
Atau ketakjub-an pada diri sendiri yang dapat menghasilkan lukisan spinal cord yang agak comel?



Aku sendiri tak tahu

Apa apa pun
Alhamdulillah :)
Syukur pada Allah atas kurniaan otak yang agak tidak ngeng malam ini :)
Semoga hari esok berjaya laagi



*padahal esok nak lagha pergi tengok harry potter. LOL


Oh ini katil saya. Saja nak tunjuk :P
bersepah sebab orang tengah tidur. Kalau tak kemas ok :D

Tolong faham

Kadang kadang aku tak faham
satu tempat yang sepatutnya buat aku bahagia, sepatutnya buat aku gembira,
Jadi satu tempat yang paling selalu buat aku sakit hati
selalu buat aku rasa bodoh, teruk, jahat, tak diperlukan.

Aku tahu aku jahat, aku tahu aku ni tak baik, aku tahu.
Aku tahu semua. Aku tahu aku banyak buat salah,, annoying in a way, i curse a lot? I talk a lot? Im selfish? never think about others?
Nak kata aku mengada? gedik? bajet? Nahhhhh!
Say every bad words that you know right on my face.
But just so you know, i already know. So you dont need to remind me over and over again

But dont you understand that i came from nowhere you came from
Its not that easy to change the way you live for 10 years in just a year or a month or a day.
Just imagine you in my situation
Just put yourself in my shoes
You should know that im trying so hard to figure out what am i supposed to do,
what am i supposed to change where to start ? what should i do?
By myself, with no one that i think can offer a hand and help. Just me and only me.
Im being independent enough to figure this shit out.



So stop! stop making my life miserable
Stop making me feel bad
What i feel about myself right now is bad enough.
At least please dont make me feel like im an outsider,
Because currently i feel like i dont belong anywhere.
You feel me?
Thank you.

desktop dah comel
saya suka :)

T.T

One

Okay a debate competition and also a public speaking competition will be held and i was like

WARGHH BEST GILA!!

But come to think about it, the last time i was in a competition was 2 years ago


LOL Okay sekarang dah ada and i was like
DAMN I WANT TO ENTER THOSE COMPETITIONS BUT HECK, HOW THE HECK AM I GONNA COMPETE AGAINST ALL THOSE AWESOME PEOPLE

I bet the others are going to be awesome. They're all from boarding schools where everyone is so clever and awesome T.T seniors too they surely have even more experience :(

Im gonna cry my eyes out.

Sumpah rindu sumpah nak gilaaaaaaa, tapi heck, i'll pass T.T

hilang

The saddest thing is to lose your best friends.
Not the we-seldom-meet-but-we-chat-or-text-each-other-almost-everyday kind of bestfriends.
But the one you always and always meet and laugh together
the one who has always been there for you for years

kawan sepak terajang,
as we call it


Yes i miss them and i cant bear losing any more best friends
So best friends, im warning you. Dont go. Dont leave me
Stay by my side and be a shoulder i can cry on :)

aku keliru. kau pulak?

aku buat macam ni

aku sendiri yang sakit hati
aku sendiri yang sedih
aku sendiri yang bosan
aku sendiri yang tak gembira

Kadang kadang rasa bodoh
tak tahu apa yang aku buat.
tak tahu apa yang aku nak
tak tahu motif.

Boleh tak kalau aku taknak fikir?
Boleh tak aku hidup sendiri je?
Boleh tak aku stop being such a spoilt brat?


Sumpah aku tak ada idea apa nak jadi nanti
boleh tak aku nak go with the flow je?
Apa nak jadi jadi lah.
Sayang memang sayang
Sedih memang sedih
tak biasalah katakan
tapi kadang kadang rasa macam memang patut macam ni
semua orang relek je
yang kau nak mengada sangat nina apehal.

Kadang kadang rasa 'alah lepak sudah suka hati aku lah nak buat apa'
kadang kadang rasa semacam tak patut, macam buat dosa pulak = ="
Entah lah aku sendiri keliru
Aku mintak maaf. aku tengah lost.
Mungkin aku overthink
tapi kalau kau fikir balik,
kau sendiri tahu memang tak patut kan.

raya holiday

the dinner

24 hours free drinks bar :D

our rooms

ookay since i already have some of the pictures of Sharm el sheikh
I guess im going to update since im in no mood to study
NOT AT ALL

im currently in a not-holding-the-book-until-holiday-is-over mode
anyone in?

Okay okay so we went there by bus in the morning
2 am and we spent 12 bloody hours on the bus.
The longest journey ive ever had
and it was exhausting. T.T


so so we arrived at 2. spent the day at the hotel.
and went shopping at night.
all the stuff there are BLOOOOODY EXPENSIVE
Even the Big Mac costs 27 genih instead of 15!


And then the next day we went snorkelling at some island i dont remember the name
it was breathtakingly beautiful
all the colourful fishes.
MasyaAllah :)
We had fun. we really did.




And then the next day we went on a glass boat
Ni macam ok jelah best tu best jugak but not as exciting as the day before.
Hehee sebab sekejap kut?
tapi memang time ni serius lah banyak gila nampak ikann udang segala jadah
ikan pari ikan couple ikan butterfly you name it
everyone was hoping to see sharks but they were nowhere to be found
T_________________T
*mengangis hentak hentak kaki



Okay fun fact about ikan butterfly.
Dia selalu jalan jalan in group. but when one of them die, they will all together commit suicide by getting into the deep ocean and let the pressure kill them
So sweeeeeet
not the lets-kill-ourselves part, the loyalty part.



at night we watched belly dance
it was, boring
i slept during the show.
I thought the guys would be excited
they were excited before the show
but after the show i could hear them complaining too much about how boring it was.


and the next day we went to something called safari
so at first i thought i was gonna watch animals in the zoo.
i didnt know that safari here is wayyy different than the safari in malaysia. LOL
I drove the atv or buggy or whatever
it was epic!
We raced in the middle of the dessert.
Hell, it was fun , unexplainably fun
You could see our eyelashes and hairs went white because of the dusts. lol




okay so the 4 days were over
we went home
and the boring life starts again T.T

Raya yang menyedihkan

Im back honey Im back

the trip was aweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee- wait for it- some!
true story :)


5 star hotel,
snorkelling.
Glass boat.
Jeep race in the middle of the dessert.

So my raya haji was in Sharm El Sheikh
tak sempat balik Alex T.T
And for breakfast instead of eating ketupat nasi impit rendang and stuff i ate pancakes omelet sausage cereals and fruit cocktail T.T
the raya mood wasnt even there
Wearing baju kurung was the only thing that brings the raya mood/
You know , baju kurung in the middle of people with bikinis and short skirts.
LOL
Semua pandang.
Terasa bangga. gahaha.



im going to update about the trip soon
currently im so lazyyyyyyyyyyy
all i want to do is eat and eat and eat.
I dont get to eat rendang yet.
Or anything
i want the real raya celebration with lemang ketupat rendang kuah kacang soto laksa anything T.T


Shut up already and go MASAK lah!

Thomas Cup

Pukul 7 pagi aku dah terpacak kat muka pintu bersedia untuk ke kelas yang mula jam 8

"Aku pergi kelas dulu" ,
"apesal semangat sangat?"
"nak cop tempat la. Kan ada budak private tu suka duduk tempat aku duduk tu"

Tengah perjalanan aku memikir mikir cara untuk melintas jalan. Rasa nak patah balik pun ada jugak. Takut punya pasal dengan pemandu pemandu arab yang tak hengat dunia bila bawak kereta.


Tiba di jalan raya besar, hati aku mula berdebar debar
Aku pandang kiri. Aku pandang kanan.
Tiada langsung kelibat orang yang mahu melintas

Dengan tak fikir apa, aku redah je lari secepat yang boleh.
Memang satu cara bodoh untuk melintas lah bak kata semua orang.
Tapi aku tak ada cara lain.
Aku selamat juga sampai. Mulut tak habis habis cakap
'Alhamdulillah aku hidup lagi'

Dengan muka bangga aku mempercepatkan langkah menuju ke gate universiti yang masih agak jauh. Lebih kurang 10 minit jalan.
Aku tengok jam
7.20
'takkanlah dah ramai orang. ada can nak jadi orang first ni'. confident je aku.

Lagi 500 meter sampai di gate aku yang rabun jauh, tanpa bantuan spec yang tersimpan kemas dalam beg dapat melihat gate masih tertutup
Dan aku dapat juga melihat kelibat manusia berbaju kurung di depan gate
"Ouh, damn dah ada orang sampai!" Perasaan kecewa membuak buak

Aku cepatkan lagi langkah dan bertambah kecewa bila mendapati perempuan yang sedang terpacak di depan gate adalah si dia yang suka duduk tempat aku duduk slash the reason aku pergi kelas awal.
Aku pun berdiri disebelah dia. Menanti nanti isyarat daripada guard yang sedang berdiri di sebelah untuk masuk

Aku memandang2 jam. Dia pun tak senang duduk. Semacam berada di garis merentas desa menantikan bunyi wisel ditiup

Aku pandang jam lagi
Dah 7 30 ni.

"Saah kam?" (pukul berapa)
aku bertanya sambil menjeling ke arah pengawal tersebut
Dia tersengih sengih lantas menunjukkan isyarat boleh masuk.

Dia dah mula melangkah.
Aku taknak kalah. Aku pun melangkah dengan lebih laju.
Aku lihat dia percepatkan jalan
Aku juga memanjangkan lagi langkah aku
Terfikir nak lari tapi macam semangat sangat je aku batalkan niat.

Tiba je di tangga dia dah mula berlari
Aku pun apa lagi. dia lari satu step, aku lari 2 steps tapi aku masih di belakang.
Tingkat ketiga aku lalu jalan lain. Dia terus naik tangga situ sampai tingkat 6
Dengan sekuat hati aku lari
Mentang mentang jalan kosong lagi , sebiji manusia pun tidak kelihatan.
Aku sambung lari naik tangga 2 tingkat
Penat tak payah cakap.
Dah jalan punya jauh setengah jam nak kena daki tangga 6 tingkat pulak

Memang tak hengat dunia punya mengah.

Sampai je aku usha pintu kanan, tutup lagi?
Aku pun menuju ke pintu kiri.
Ouh damn, dia kat depan!
Siap berdiri depan tombol lagi taknak kalah
Time tu aku dah agak pasrah dah. Meja number 3 pun jadi lah
Kau amik la meja number 2 kau tu.

Aku tercungap dia tercungap
tapi dua dua buat muka cool.
Memang tachycardia betul time tu sympathetic action segala jadah mengambil tempat.
Pintu masih tak terbukak. Seorang demi seorang mula memunculkan diri.

"Bila nak bukak pintu ni!" aku merungut sambil hentak hentak kaki.

Pekerja arab sampai.

"Hena , hena!" kami menjerit.
Dia cuba membuka pintu namun tak berjaya

'alah tak boleh pulak?'

panas je aku.
Setelah agak 1o minit tunggu kami terdengar bunyi dari dalam kelas
"Siot mesti dia bukak pintu belah kanan" aku dah panas dah time tu.

Aku pun lari lah apa lagi. sampai lorong pintu kanan aku tengok pintu dah terbukak luas
Masuk dalam 3 row semua dah penuh

Memang panas lah aku cakap.
Penat penat aku keluar awal jadi budak third terpacak depan gate kuliah.
Semangat lah konon,
Diorang yang cool datang lambat yang dapat tempat.

Tapi panas aku tu agak hilang bila aku nampak atas meja aku dan dia berebut tu ada beg amie
Wah amie jaga tempat aku
Dengan muka bangga aku duduk
Memang perasaan macam menang thomas cup betul.
Lantakla, aku tak dapat masuk first janji aku dapat duduk sini
walaupun dalam hati dah mencarut carut buat penat je main kejar kejar lumba lumba
Last last jadi orang yang ke entah berapa puluh entah yang masuk dalam lecture hall

Pengajaran hari ini : Jangan nak dengki sangat nina. Buat lek sudah
Kau lek dapat tempat. Kau tak lek duduk belakang pulak. Padan muka dekat diri sendiri

aku tahu jugak budak private tu takkan baca blog ni sebab haram jadah, aku tak kenal pun dia sape. Nama pun tak tahu. Memang tak guna punya lecturemate.
Tapi mintak maaf lah kalau terasa ek ek :P

Sharm El Sheikh wee

Stunning, breathtakingly beautiful and everything right? :O

Oh yeah officially am going to sharm el sheikh on friday 2am.
God, its gonna be a long, tiring, boring, hectic, bla blahh journey.
But im looking forward to it :)

Im just not sure why everyone is so eager to go to other countries for holiday,
UK, Rome, Greece, Turki, Paris, Italy you name it.
Neehhh its cool to go, i know its gonna be fun but i think theres too much places here in Egypt that i want to explore first.
And yes i wanna go to those places too, but wait until my money is wayyyyy toooo muchie.
Dont want to go there but eat maggi everyday or complaining about not having enough money all the time = ="

p/s: oh my previous post was not-so-obviously dedicated to almost everyone. not to that particular person or whateves. :)
If its harsh then im sorry i didnt mean it :D
If you thought its for you, then im sorry too because like i said, it was never meant for only you
seriously T.T
okay now i feel like crying

Sorry and have a nice dayy yaw! :)

Sakit hati pulak?

Mood nak belajar makin lesap.
hilang ditelan angin musim sejuk.


Lagi lagi bila dapat buku yang aku harap tamat,
Namun musnah hati bila nampak Part 1 tertera di muka depan
Apa kejadah? Aku tak rela part 2 disambung
Buku ini dah cukup nak buat aku separuh gila.


Pergi library. Duduk bersama rakan.
RAKAN.
RAKAN BAIK.
Malang bila disalah tafsir,
Benci, panas juga.
Nama diminta, untuk direkod mungkin?
Kenapa tidak, tegur, diam, let it go?
Tak perlu aku rasa nak simpan simpan nama
Macam hilang motif?
Lagipun macam ramai pulak dekat situ? Bukannya duduk dekat celah bangunan mahupun tepi longkang?


Untuk pengetahuan pengguna IM sekalian, Tak kira skype ym facebook chat atau whatever shit
terutama buat rakan taulan, keluarga jadi exception
Aku sibuk dengan urusan medic, urusan mesir, urusan hidup, urusan segala macam.
Haram Jadah, jangan nak cakap aku sombong sangat.
Buat aku rasa bersalah dengan benda aku tak buat salah pun
Balik rumah dah petang takpun malam gelap gelita.
Perlu sambung dengan nota.
Facebook bolehlah juga, balas suka hati aku saat bila
Tapi bila ym kena duduk menghadap sangat, aku tak boleh tumpu dengan penulisan
Harap faham dan FAHAM.
Aku tak tipu, aku memang sibuk. Bukan berlakon, Bukan menganjing.
Waktu tidur pun terpaksa curi curi
Ada faham?


Sekian terima kasih

Dunia.. Dunia..
Semua duniawi
aku terperangkap dalam helah boneka keliling
Dunia umpama pentas
Kebenaran ditutup rapat
Dalam kotak separa kecil
Beri aku kunci
Bagi aku jalan
Aku tak mahu
Terus hidup separuh mati.

Maybe tonight?
Maybe tomorrow

I honestly dont know,

And im afraid

not because im scared of leaving everything behind
But im scared thinking what is it going to be like for me there?

I know if its not good then its not good
if its good alhamdulillah

but i can sense that in my condition right now, it is not good/
nauzubillah

you are magic :)

Since i watched Mr Brain, the jdrama that Kakni gave me,
i wanted to know more about brain as in studying about it

Now that im studying CNS, i learn a lot more about it.
It is awesome.
Quoting the physiology lecturer saying,
"Think about it, your whole body is magic"

It is amazing how the impulse is transmitted to the brain in just a few milliseconds.
Its like, you dont even have time to even realize that your body is acting towards the stimulus,
anything you see or hear or watch

and even when you close your eyes,
you still know the position of your hands, what is it that you hold.
Come to think about it, it is magic
The real magic that Allah gave us
Miracles. We are miracles.

Im sharing one of the things that i learned that i think is awesome.

Phantom limb.

When a person's leg is amputated, and he does not know about it,
he will wake up and feel pain at his foot which is already gone due to some pressure on the nerve etc,
Doctors from 10 or 20 years ago would assume that this patient is crazy,
Of course how can you feel pain at something that is not there?

But when the patient finally realize that his foot is already gone,
the pain will also go away as the brain receives the message that the foot is not there anymore
and the nerve which supply this part will combine to other nerve making the other nerve more sensitive to its stimuli

Thats why we hear people say a blind person hears better.
Now i understand why :)

Be thankful for what we have
Remember, YOU ARE MAGIC
MashaAllah :D

Bila budak kecil berbicara

sekarang ini musim hujan
hampir masuk musim winter.

Saya suka hujan.
Hujan jarang sekali di sini
tiga empat kali sahaja setahun.


Sejuk.
Sangat sejuk
Saya suka.
Tapi saya mengantuk selalu
Lapar selalu



Esok boleh la semua mula menayangkan sweater lawa masing masing ya.

Selamat musim sejuk :)

can you feel the music?

I didnt know that laptops can actually do this, until, YESTERDAY?




Noob?


YEA I KNOOWW!

it is kind of awesome really

Now im all excited. yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

The worst way to miss someone, is to have them sitting right next to you and you know you can never have them

true story.

story one.

Our journey to class is a race.
more like the amazing race
minus the 1 million dollar and the publicity.

We leave house an hour early, just to get the best place in the lecture hall, in front of the lecturer and the slide.
We dont want to be late. Oh I dont want to be late. Because being late is just like letting yourself suffocate to death. Im going to sit at the back row. not gonna understand anything and feel sleeeeeeepy all the time. true story

Keep walking, knowing that the the gate is still closed,
and the lecture room too
come to think about it, it is such a stupid thing to do -.-"

So our practical class has started.
And my feelings towards new sectionmates,
tettttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
i thought i could change, you know just say hello and greet anyone in the class,
people i do not know, strangers, to be exact.

Instead, i just sat at my place, went nowhere and cursed a lot because those who sat in front are way too tall and i couldnt see the slide clearly.
Not a good start, heh?

It's been 2 years. I live here for almost 3 years including the time i was in Zagazig, yet, i still dont have the guts to cross the road alone.
I need to have a friend beside who holds my hand and help me cross the road.
2 years/ How long is it going to take to put some confidence in myself and just CROSS THE BLOODY ROAD?

And clearly its not my fault because the drivers here are just INSANE.
They just know how to speed and HONK.
come on dude, youre destroying my bloody cilia hair whatever in my ears.
and i can sue you for that.
hah, the worst place to cross is in front of st stefano.
Its suicidal to just cross the road.
with 10 lanes, with crazy drivers. Oh they can name it the highway of death.


And im going to sham el sheikh this holiday
say what?
you know i chose not to go anywhere last year during winter break and raya holiday
It sucked and im not going to sit at home during holiday anymore,
especially when everyone has plans, and youre going to sit at home alone,
with nothing to do. no food. no friends nothing.

And i kind of asked, oh, begged my friends to join the trip but they refused to join it
and i gave up already.
its not like im not gonna enjoy my time there without them T.T
My ex roommates are going so i have friends there.
university is covering half of the expenses
So why miss this once in a lifetime chance?

im not trying to be cute by putting a cute picture here. I put it because it is , cute?= ="

haram jadah,

Tahun ini makin banyak aku bersabar.
Entah, selalu nak sedapkan hati,
Nasib baik kesensitive-an melampau aku tu dah hilang.

Macam hampir semua benda tak kena.
Tapi selalu kena fikir positif.


Relaks weh relaks.
Benda bodoh je ni
semua benda yang jadi, bodoh bodoh je ni
Lepas ni okay lah.

Okay aku tipu

end.

CNS

our next module is Central Nervous System & Special Senses Professional Development
Combination of module 9 and 10 at the same time.

CNS is like one of the heaviest module. And i have to work double hard, as the professor said.
And you know, the introduction is enough to make me feel excited.

:D wah wah semangat nina!
periksa lagi 9 minggu
pergh paling lama gap exam :D
selalu 3, 4 minggu je

bila hati gembira

Bila time exam bukan main, pukul 10 dah tak boleh nak bukak mata
Bila dapat can meronggeng dah pukul 2 pagi pun fresh lagi,


Memang dasar manusia tak boleh bagi peluang.

Walaupun periksa banyak yang aku tak dapat nak jawab
aku tak faham kenapa aku masih boleh gelak sorang sorang dalam dewan periksa
hyper tak semena-mena?
Apa pun lepas habis periksa memang gembira habis padahal final module je pun?
Ada lah dalam, 8 kali setahun?
campur final sem, boleh la kira 10 kali final setahun?


Selamat bergembira semua
sebelum kembali ke mode exam semula 3 minggu lagi









Bila si buntal tanya pada si kurus.
" woi kenapa engkau kurus?"
"sebab kau gemuk lah, bodoh!"

*sumpah takde motif

T.T

we were in the library when ise got the list of our new section

i searched for my name and

"there it is"

i couldnt help but to cry. T.T
its nothing personal
its just that its going to be hard to mix around when i actually have problem letting go
and i dont talk to nobody before except to hani and haleeda/?

hyperbole? im being emotional?
perhaps.
but i'll be okay :(

I need light
I need freedom
I dont want tears
I think it would be better to shut my two eyes
and never open them back
Everything that ive been holding on to,
i let go
and im not picking them back
This is the end
the next thing you know
I'm already gone

motif tersirat;

"Korang rapat macam mana pun, baik macam mana pun, panggil macam mana pun, aku memang tahu yang korang ni kawan baik je and tak lebih dari tu"

Kau tahu tak asilah, kau lah satu satunya manusia yang cakap macam tu
tak sangka kau memahami
tanpa perlu aku explain banyak banyak
Aku rasa, kau orang pertama dan terakhir.
Sumpah sayang kau doh.
hahaha

cerita di kala hati sedang gusar. wtf?

Ok hari ini exam.
Sejauh mana kebenaran aku ni stress?

sebenarnya. tak adalah sangat pun.
Jangan lah sampai keluar statement nak merempat rumah orang lain sebab ada orang tension sgt T.T
Touching pulak dengar.
Lembut betul hati aku ni, kan?gaga

Cuma, aku baru balik library itu petang, dan perlu segera memasak dan sambung belajar practical banyak lagi yang tersadai tak habis baca/?
Balik dah penat, masak pula, bila peti ais rosak, mood terus hilang, bersepah dapur.
Masak pula, tak berapa nak jadi semalam,
Dahla main dish semacam tak kena,
Papadom juga hangit. sesenang goreng papadom pun boleh hangit?
Sebelum sebelum ni time aku suka nak masak tak pulak nak hangit, time aku takde mood sangat lah nak tak jadi semua benda
Mana tak stress.


Setelah selesai, cek beg untuk mengambil nota, baru menyedari yang nota practical hilang
Mestilah aku tak dapat mengelak daripada mengeluarkan ayat ayat yang kurang manis didengari (?)
Tapi time tu jelah, I mean, I need time to cool down


COOL DOWN, BABES! not that im gonna be stress the whole night.
Tambah pula , dalam keadaan tension tu, aku cuba nak call aina? tak angkat. Syafik, tak angkat. Ban, tak angkat
WHAT THE HECK PEOPLE!
I NEEDED YOU GUYS! =_____________="


So bila jetlag masih menguasai diri, mata mula mengada nak tutup
Tidur bangun tidur bangun.
Jadi mereng sebentar
Dan untuk mengelakkan mengantuk
aku ambil keputusan untuk mandi
di tengah pagi buta, di musim sejuk(dah winter ke?) tanpa sakhonah aka water heater
dan akibatnya, mengantuk hilang ditambah dengan major chest pain sepanjang malam.
Usaha yang bagus. boleh mantapkan lagi


p/s: aku macam nak pasrah sikit exam kali ni, boleh?

so this is it

semua orang cakap.
so, nak cakap jugak


haha yesterday.
haha okay maybe im a little bit late
yesterday was our last practical session together
yesterday was my last day as a section 2-ian.
yesterday was my last day with all of them

As much as i hate this to happen
As much as i dont want to accept.
I have to admit that you know, i have finally open up my mind, and my heart and just accept whats gonna happen
As i always say, everything happens for a reason
and i am quite confident there;s a reason behind this change, too.


So, who's gonna bully me anymore?
complaining about my shining clothes.(?)
with whom am i going to laugh along?
so who can i slap in the face or hit at the back?
can we go holiday together again?



its a mystery,
whats going to happen tomorrow.
Maybe its going to be better than now.
Maybe its going to be worse.
I dont know,


and yes
i dont really know how to make new friends.
i dont know how to talk to strangers
*of course they are going to be strangers at first?

and you know, im afraid im gonna lose them.
Them, who have been together with me for 2 years.
with no one, no one, but them.
its like i dont know anyone else except for them. and some very few people.


and, am i still going to be loud after this?




Dont you ever dare forget.

grrr = ="

just hear me out,

aku tak mahu section tukar
aku tak mahu group tuka
aku tak mahu lecture tuka


don't you just get us?
don't you?
Please for heaven's sakes just CANCEL the plan



sumpah aku tak setuju langsung
sumpah aku panas.
grrrrr! = ="

post di tengah malam

well living in egypt taught us to be, um creative?
so,
jeng jeng jeng!


as you can see, we made our own so called takal?
haha yelah dalam ayat ayat cinta tu tak pun yang orang arab selalu buat tu mcm takal atas bawah kan.
So disebabkan rumah aku dan housemates lama aku depan belakang je
and there's no other way to go to their house unless by pusing jalan jauh since jalan yang separate rumah kitorang tu macam tak boleh jalan
Even nak pass satu barang pun kena jauh jauh
and it just seems stupid to do so,
especially for lazy brats, like us. gaha.

okay so the idea just came dannn cheh terciptalah invention ini.
dengan menggunakan tali berapa genih sahaja dan bakul ex-taruk sabun sabun :P

Penat doh nak baling tali tu bagi kena rumah diorang. banyak kali cuba baru dapat.
di mana ada kemahuan di situ ada jalan,
finally proven:P

*sila abaikan baju baju yang tersidai. as it is not mineee! ^ ^"




oh yeah module 7, infection and immunity
memetik kata abang senior yang aku curi dengar tatkala dia berbicara bersama temannya di library,
"ooh infection immunity ni senang je oh.
tak susah pun nak score!"
*something like this. heck, i dont remember the real one as im not that good in memorizing. tett

abang abang, apesal saya rasa susah jugak, ek? = ="


as much as i hate admitting, echeh.
i am now much better.
dah settle down,
dah cool
dah tenang
dah gembira
dah bahagia.
dah dah segalanya dah.


except about a part of two which drive me insane, but still, i like it. yeah yeah.*both big grin and evil laugh. gahaha


p/s: Happppppppppppppppppy birthday my dear bff yang sangat bajet + gedik + mengada + malas + annoying + immature yet baik + rajin jugak + bengong + mereng. :D

Have a blast!

p/s/s: first time berjaya tidur dengan kuantiti yang berpatutan. lol

sometimes life is about believing
sometimes life is about working hard,

and be thankful for everything that happens
good or bad
Because we know that every bad thing that happens has its own reason.



Enough crap,
stop complaining
accept it with a smile :)

ampun

"nina, aku faham perasaan kau"

"nina, asal tension je blog kau?"

"kitee tahuu ninaa rasaa, kita baca blog nina"


ok blog aku penuh ketensionan ek?
dah insaf la nanti aku cerita benda bahagia pulak :P

F* you!

nak lepas boleh?

aku rasa pening.
aku rasa penat
aku rasa benci


pening bila masuk lecture yang aku tingal satu minggu,
rasa macam aku tak boleh nak faham?
bile lecturer mula main soal soal, soalan yang aku tak pergi kelas diaa,
tak study lagi? lepas tu point dekat aku tanya soalan
bila ada yang dapat jawab dengan yakin? tapi aku masih terpinga pinga
Bila kami tak dapat jawab
"you didn't do revision/? study the lecture day by day!"

macam mana nak study lecture by lecture kalau lecture pun aku terlepas?
sedang fikir macam mana aku nak cover lecture dan practical yang haram jadah, banyak nak mampos?

dan ya, periksa semester akhir dalam masa 2 minggu lagi.
terima kasih semua


Penat bila kena kemas rumah
Jejak sahaja kaki di rumah dari lapangan terbang kami terus mengemas.
Mengangkut washing machine, meja meja, kerusi, almari ke tingkat 4 bukan mudah
mengganti mentol sendiri, urusan internet dan segala macam
lagi lagi ada sahaja anjing yang hidup di atas rumah kami, seakan menunggu untuk mengejar?


Benci bila semua bergelak ketawa, tapi aku masih lagi tidak dapat menerima hakikat yang aku dah sampai,
tapi hati aku tak ada di sini.
terbang melayang layang entah ke mana
mood untuk gelak tidak wujud sama sekali
biarlah kau semua bergelak ketawa
biar aku dengan dunia aku sendiri

without a title

carefree life ends tonight
new life starts tomorrow.



Goodbye Malaysia


Thank you for everything
I'm gonna miss you.





Special thanks to : Family, Cousins, Friends (Mea, Aina, Milah, Afif, Amir Zul, Amir syafa, Farid, Danial Ruslan and others) for keeping me company this holiday.



Awesomely awesome.